am i useless?
when i was a child,i always have a question that i always ask to myself.the queation is 'what will the world looks like if i doesn't exist? what will my family looks like if i doesn't born to the world?' that question always running through my head.fyi,its not suicidal thought although i have thought it for a while.not 'i have to do suicide' thought.its 'does it hurt when the knife cut my wrist?' thought...its just curious thingy...
these day i think i dissapointed my parents as the eldest child.i still didn't go to college or uni..instead of working,i just playing,doing nothing to help my family financially.people always urge me to find some work.at least i got some pocket money for myself.i want to go job hunting but i was to scared,to shy to talk with strangers.but nobody will understand me.they didn't feel my struggle just to talk to some new people.they just don't understand me...
am i that useless?
sincerely,
piqahbyg97
Comments