Have you ever had this feeling while staring at your bias: you are like OH MY YOU’RE SO HANDSOME AND CUTE AND HOT AND UGH I WANT TO PUNCH YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE BECAUSE YOU KEEP ON DESTROYING MY SANITY. EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU SEEMS DAZZLING LIKE THE WAY YOU SMILE, THE WAY YOU STARE AT ME THROUGH THE COMPUTER SCREEN, THE WAY YOU LAUGH AT YOUR OWN STUPIDITY, THE WAY YOU STRUT ON THE STREETS AS IF YOU OWN THEM… THE WORDS YOU SAY THAT SLIPPED OUT OF YOUR BEAUTIFUL MOUTH, THE BEAUTIFUL MELODY OF YOUR VOICE TINGLING IN MY EARS… THE WAY YOU INSPIRE ME TO PERSEVERE IN EVERYTHING THAT I DO AND GIVING ME STRENGTH THAT I CAN BE SUCCESSFUL JUST LIKE YOU ONE DAY. THE WAY YOU TAUGHT ME SOME LESSONS IN LIFE THAT I CAN USE TO BUILD MY CHARACTER… WHEN YOU CRY, I LAUGH. WHEN YOU LAUGH, I CRY BECAUSE OF SO MUCH LAUGHING TOO BECAUSE YOU LOOK SO STUPID. WHEN YOU ARE HAPPY I AM HAPPY AS WELL. WHEN YOU FAIL, I WILL TRY MY BEST TO SEND YOU MESSAGES AND STUFF TO ENCOURAGE YOU, EVEN IF I KNOW YOU WON’T READ IT. WHEN YOU SUCCEED, I’LL TRY MY BEST TO SHOW YOU THAT I’M SO PROUD OF YOU. WHEN YOU DATE, I’LL TRY TO BE HAPPY. WHEN  YOU MARRY, I’LL BE THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON EARTH…

BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, I’LL CRY. YOU KNOW WHY? I’M SO THANKFUL THAT YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE, YOU MADE ME HAPPY. I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY TOO. I LOVE YOU. I KNOW YOU LOVE ME, JUST NOT OF A LOVER’S, BUT OF AN IDOL TO A FAN. EVEN IF IT HURTS, I WILL JUST SMILE, TELLING EVERYONE AROUND ME HOW GREAT AND GOOD YOU ARE. I LOVE YOU.

;; WHAT THE HECK DID I JUST WRITE AND DID I JUST FEEL TEARS IN MY EYES .__. /knocks myself/ EWWW IM NOT A SOFTIE BUT UGHHH I HATE YOU JJONG. gosh i might not be able to marry if i am like this.