I know I should be carry on with my life and continue to update my fics, but something happened that make me halt my process to update this while. As some of you know about the situation I had with the girl and my so 'called' best friend. Things change, they are offically together (Oh well...) but the weird things is they do not look like a couple that inlove with each other. I am not the only one that said it but many others said it too (haha...) they just seem awkward whenever they are together.

That 'best' friend still trying to 'act' gracious in front of others, telling them that he still regard me as a friend. His action speak otherwise, whenever i try to be friendly with him and he just reply me coldly. it is not that i am sensitive but you know the reaction he will and he act with others than to me (plus i know him for so long...) and what the use of acting like a gentleman and gracious when you already win the war using some dirty tricks.

The main point that i halt my writing is because of the girl. i mean i thought it would be awkward between the 2 of us, thus i always try to avoid working on the day she worked. i did not know what happened but something change this month when i got the chance to work with her. i was scared of the 'dead air' situation or she would ignore me and a lot of thoughts went through my mind but it turned out different. it is always her that approach me to chat, even playing and teasing me. it really make my heart fluttered again. i also manage to ask her out when i thought i would be near immpossible. sometime i got her attention too much that the guy seem to be angry. i don't bother by him since he did that to me before.

i just confused and afraid that i would be the one getting hurt again. i try to becareful as it say, once bitten twice shy.