It's hard to think that someone you care about and grew up with could feel so sad

Some say there is no worse feel than feeling hopeless or worthless

But to some, it can feel worse knowing someone you cares about feels that way

I, myself have been to the brink. I've lost hope many times, feeling like I have no purpose, and no meaning. 

I've struggled through trials. I've pushed through hopeless situations, and I've had my share of breakdowns

I always worried. I always stressed, I'm always scared.

But somehow, I'm still here. I'm still working. I'm still trying.

I'm still laughing. I'm still crying. 

And I'm strong enough to be here another day. 

But today, I took a harsh blow. 

I learned that these feelings, these horrible feelings of worthlessness, 

uselessness, terror, hopelessness, fear,

they can hit just about anyone, even those you care about, 

even those you care about. And some people can't escape the hell of those feelings. 

Today, I learned a childhood friend tried to take her own life. 

It hit me like a ton of bricks. 

I had finally pulled myself out of my own depression to learn about my friend. 

It's not easy feeling what they do. There's a darkness that looms over you. 

A horrible darkness that can consume you, and something some people cannot escape from. 

It may feel bad, terrible, letting the darkness consume you.

But it's even worse seeing someone you love fall into the darkness and not being strong enough to pull themselves free. 

Life is harsh

It's hard, painful, and cold. 

and there may be times when you feel like you don't have what it takes to survive.

But please, don't give in. 

Never attempt to take your own life. 

Talk to people who care for you.

Don't hold it all inside. 

I can't tell you everything will be ok.

I can't tell you that the sun will shine on you everyday

But if you let yourself be dominated by your demons,

the demons not only consume you, but those who care for you as well. 

Every life has meaning, no matter how hard. 

Don't let the harshness of life destroy you and those you care about.

Always let people know they mean something to you. 

Life is precious.

Life is fragile.

Life is painful

Life is joyful

Life is suffering

Life is prospering

But every life has meaning.