its been more than one and a half year since I started living an isolated life. and its starting to take effect. I want to complain and voice out my problems but I feel like my friends in kakao wont like it too much so I will just complain her (since chats failed).

I recently got into university and I can already tell how much I hate it. Everything  that I am doing... the assignments, the extra activities all seem like a waste of effort. to be honest i dont know what to do anymore. just a few days ago, i really wanted to go and throw everything out, but I shouldnt, i couldnt. everything in my mind is starting to become unclear. I cant even decide well anymore. I dont even know if I want to live or die.... the word limit is 1500 and all I managed to write is 500 words of buls. nothing makes sense. I dont even want to bother with this anymore.

Ive fully separated myself from those people... they dont know anything at all. and that makes me so angry. I dont even know how to control all these emotions.   I hate all of you