This is really weird...
Ummm....hi? Haha, I'm sorry this is very weird and maybe even kind of wrong of me to come back and check AFF and all that after all this time.
Man, it's been like...what?? A year? And some change even? I haven't written anything in that long. Well, papers and all that, but it doesn't really count.
It's just so damn weird to be on here again! And I feel a little scared - I'm sure my subscribers absolutely hate me - but I wanted to just say hi, apologize and maybe actually write a finale for my ChenLay so I can at least wrap things up, y'know?
(I'm soooo sorry, but this is so weird and I'm sure whoever is reading this is sooo mad!!)
The thing is, I went off EXO. Members were leaving, school was getting crazy, my home life was...a mess! I was too stressed and busy and sad to write. I didn't go on tumblr for them, I didn't watch their videos or listen to their music. I went wayyyy off of EXO and even just kpop in general! I didn't talk to the friends I made either which is, like, the rudest, most awful thing ever. I feel really bad for just dropping off without another word...That's so bad, oh my god, I'm really sorry!
What's weird is recently...I went back into the full swing of things. I listen to them all day, every single day now and I go on tumblr and I ship....But I felt a bit weird when I wanted to write again. I mean, it's been so long that A) I'm probably not even good anymore haha and B) you guys! I'm not ashamed to admit I'm a little scared because I was really rude and left without a trace! I don't think it's fair that I all of the sudden wanna write and expect to be accepted again, y'know?? Haha, maybe I'm just paranoid...Hopefully I'm just paranoid.
Also, a lot of my ships have changed. XingDae is my FOREVER otp with no acceptions, but I really don't ship HunHan or XiuTao any longer with the abscence of those members. Funny enough, I finally after all these years have given into the ship I've always, always, always loved which is SeHo XDD Please don't judge me hahaha~ I've always loved them but I recognized HunHan's chemistry and went with that but deep down, that's what I loved! *hides in a corner*
So...yeah....After all my dumb talking, if you're still here, thank you! And if you're still here, maybe...leave a comment? Even if it's to yell at me, I totally understand! But I just...dunno what to do. Do I write again? Just creep and read fics? Go away entirely.....?
Thank you. Still love you guys! You're all amazing! I'm sorry!!! ...thank you again <3
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