i am fourteen years old and i love disney

i love animation movies in general

i love cgi, handrawn, stop-motion

i am in love with the movies Corpse Bride, Tangled, Aladdin

i am in love with the web series Monster High

these things make me love life a little more than i already do.

lol, i wish people at school would understand. you see, i wouldnt call myself popular but im that one person who is part of the popular circle, just never really steals the spotlight. im kinda known as mehak, the friend of -names-. not that i mind, really, i could careless abour that after all stories i get to see. but what still does bother me is the fact that, ugh, i still have to act like the others, pretend to share the same interest, be happy about whatever they're happy with just because then i wont embarrass them. what do i get back? nothing. because whenever i start about something i actually like, i get pushed away. cut off. told i talk too much. dry replies like 'lol', 'k', 'uh'.

i am just so done with it. so i stood up for myself, tried to talk to them. did they care? nah. what did i do in the end? follow their tails like i always did. then i again found the courage to stop that. i isolated myself from them and how did they react? different phases:

1. 'idgaf'. acting like they dont care, thinking that i would just become the same again.

2. 'jfc ur being weird'. not saying anything to me, but gossiping. tallking about me to each other, give me weird stares, then when i come directly try to act normal again.

3. 'cant make her the enemy'. im pretty trusted with whatever issue they have, not that they ever care about mines but whatever, right? well yeah, they're pretty much trying not to spill any of their gossip/rumors/secrets but fail misserably. god they're so obvious even other people notice it.

im just so lost. is it really me who is weird? for liking stuff younger people like, even though my therapist has told me that im mentally much more mature than other people my age (you guys might not know, though. i havent been actually active on here for a while. long story short: had a therapist for eight months and i matured like crazy. her words, not mine. just like it was her who told me to stand up for myself).

i dont think i have anyone else to hang out with at school. of course they are my friends but they've hurt me for long enough. i am so done with it now, because i am not happy around them anymore.

what should i do?