Chaerin.

This is actually a name that we all know. A fierce member, but a bubbly aura, Lee Chaerin of 2ne1.

This girl, I am quite sure, that comes into your mind when the words "Leader of 2ne1" are being thrown at you.

But to me, it's not just her.

I have this friend of mine. Who actually became a special friend of mine in no time. During my recovery period of that Sophie incident, she was always there. Always there to give me advice, to talk to me about everything under the sun, and even try to leave a message even if she's busy. It's touching to know that, really. I don't know if my gratitude that I try to never fail to always show to her is enough for all the things she gave me. She has no idea how I want to thank her personally.

But just awhile ago, she left me a message containing that she's already leaving AFF. I was actualy having a happy time with my milk when I read it. The reason was just for the both of us to know, but the fact that she's leaving made my mug of milk cold. I've had messages containing those kinds but nothing compares to it.

It felt like...Sophie Breakup: Part Two.

And now I couldn't even see her face anymore. I couldn't read her funny information anymore. I couldn't expect a red envelope in my inbox and a new wall post every two minutes anymore. Just because one special person left.

Now I don't know what to do. I guess she became in my system when I knew her. Even if I'm sleepy, it was in my system that I really had to check my inbox before I sleep. When I reigistered here, she was one of my pioneer friends who believed in my craft and who never failed to make me happy and touched in every comment they made.

I just hope this won't be the last day. I wish to talk to her in the near future.

Right now, I already miss her.

I miss her pretty face.

I miss our language lessons.

I miss our crazy conversations.

I miss her eyes.

I miss her nose.

I miss her lips.

I miss her name and the way I call her.

I miss her smile.

I miss how her previous profile looked like.

I miss the compliments she gives me.

I miss how I embarrassed myself with the confessions I told her.

I miss them all already.

But...as I've said to her. I understand. It's better to set things right early so that she could handle it. She shouldn't worry about me. YB will be a good student, just as he promised to her.

I understand. Everything just went too fast.

Just promise me that you'll stay healthy. Take care of Tata and Grampie and Mama and all your crazy family. Don't forget me because I'll never forget you.

I miss you already. :')

-YB

/in the right timing. yb actually has plans on leaving aff. but this is just a plan. i don't know yet. i'm worried about the other yeojababes. but i have this thing called reality to prioritize. this is why i can't even update. this really makes me less of a writer and it , really.