hi, it's been a while since i have posted a blog and I hope you will all patiently read this cause i dont know if i can still take it

I'm not suicidal or anything, i just want someone to talk to right now cause my heart ache so much

so here is my story

we're a group consist of 10 people..yeah we're friends like close friends. Some people even told us that we are too clingy

with each other but we dont care. then we had fights which divided the group into three sub units. our first arguement was all about xxx which is also our friend, as time goes by, we had a second arguement and xxx friend was involved again and the third arguement, yes... she was involved again

to cut it short xxx is my problem. well let me describe her and i'm not saying this in pure exaggeration just because i dont like her but it also came form people who she was with( her ex group of friends)

she's beautiful, slim, has a beautiful hair , good grades but if you really get to know her, she's plastic... she thinks she's the most beautiful person in the world. she's a spoiled bratt. what she wants she should get. she backstabs her friends, she has a foul mouth, she is not ideal at all, she thinks she is high and mighty, she's bossy...

she offended me one time that really set me off and i can never forgive her for that. well she never treated us as her friend to be honest. then we had this trip( for a school project) xxx friend and yyy friend are roommates then when we were inside the bus, i let yyy friend hold my phone cause i need to pee

and guess what she had done

she opened my phone and browsed my messages and read text that are not suppose to be read by her then she got mad which i understand cause i told her she can never understand our situation like everrr, maybe she misunderstood it and thought i was saying they were stupid

buy it's not that

they just put meaning into things and assume the worst

i feel so mad cause she invaded my privacy. i am so mad cause she wants me to say sorry but she cant even say she's sorry that she puposely opened my phone browse my messages which my parent's never did to me cause they respect me

now i have trust issues regarding my friends and other people. I dont trust anyone at all. I dont think real friends truely exist and i think it's also the time to give up the friendship that i thought will last forever..

sometimes, true friendships are not for people and now i cant even smile at them anymore.

what do you think should I do with this situation?