today im going to beach with my friend and seniors........... the teacher make a group for us so we can learn the mean of teamwork ,friendship , need of help , and aloness. my friend same group with him and im same with  other senior who is form 4 and im form 2. it was at midnight my group had a group disscussion near the beach but im decide to get loss from boring disscussion,,,,, finally i run away from them... i want to sleep under the coconut tree and some girls and a guy were coming where im were,,,, so distrubing,,,,,, they were talking loudly........ im heard that the guy was sad because his girl friend was so flirty with other guys,,,,, im just listening while sleeping with eyes close..... when he look at me he quickly take his camera and try to take a picture of me who is under the tree. im quickly avoid him and a girl said at him to stop distrubed me because im looked  so tired and sleepy.after that day im start looking out of him likes where he came from who is his mother, her mother is a teacher at my school.she did not teaching form 3 but teaching form 6.my friend is hes close friend so i asked her all about him.he has a girl friend who is same age with him.but his gf is lot smarter than him because she is in first class and he class 5S2.After that day im always accidently meet him everywhere and anytime around the school.he came to school at 7;20. my frieng start to bulliying me.... they start to shout at him while saying my name in class,,,,,,,, and suddenly he realise that.he asked my friend why he always heard my friends calling him with my name.....and finally he know about the truth.......  my friend told him everything about me,,,, im dead now...... starting today im start run away if i saw him somewhere.after a year im going to forget about him but he continue show up in front of me and if  i say that im so embaress to death when he look at me in a strange way.and last months the school trip to the beach... his gf was already take her result and the result was bad,,,, no wonder he mad at his friend because she called him over,,,, but im little jealous of that because she is the close friend of him,,,, but she is not agood person because she like to tell the false story to other person so that person will start to run away from someone,,,,,, i dont know about the truth but she always tell about amirul and her,,,, she say that they called each other hubby and honey although they are only close friend.... she tell all of him and the reason why she tell me because she want to make me jEALOUS of her,,,,, but i will not take that to my heart because he did not even who im was,,,,,, he say hi to me when the trip and waving to me in library and smile to me when my eyes meet his eyes.. i dont know why he do that to me but im little anxious about that because many people know about my secret.im also have a admirer. he say that he like me but im reject him because im just think him as my friend since primary school,,,, now he start not texting with me because im reject him.now i start stalking him from his update status whattapps,,,, today im little confous because i want to friend with him in wechat but im afraid if he found out that i know about his number and he start koya with himself,,,,, im going to exam this year but i still looking for him,,,, im sorry to my both of my parents because i dont study well,,,, i want to make my parents happy with my results but im still lazing around with chatting with my friend whattapp wechat and many sosial media  i love korea like exo.... and someday he post at his status that he broke up with his gf and he is still sad about that.... but when i look at him at scholl he is fine and always smiling like nothing happen,,,,, i dont know how to continue this because i  have nothing special story about him and im proud of him because he always do the best for his teacher,,,, i could smile and look behind him because i dont want him find out that im still like him i hope we can be a good friends someday.when i look at him my heart start beating fastly and i start to think about him and smiling alone like a crazy girl.i hope i can face him bravely without running away again like im always doing now,,till today i always want to meet him outside of school,,,,, mohd amirul and me is impossible to be friend because i am afraid to talk with him although i always see him at my school,,,, he has a sister who is form 4 now,,, i have try talking with her and she is same with his brother in talking and her face is almost same with him,she and his brother are small and short..... he is a independent person and he is friendly to all people,,,, that what i love with him, i hope i will stop thinking about him,,,, he is the first man who make me cry,,, im going to start to concentrate in study ,,, i will forget him forawhile,,,i hope no one will know about  this ,,,,,,

I HOPE THAT YOU AND I WILL GET STRAIGHT A IN  EXAM WITH FLYING COLOURS AND FIND HAPPINESS /// SMILE ALWAYS N DOONT SAD ABOUT SMALL THINGS,,,

FOR THE LAST ONE I LIKE U!!!!

im sorry about my english grammer ,,, i want to write in my language but im afraid!!!!!!!