Hakyeon silently creeps under his blanket and cover himself. Silent sniffs could be heard if anyone sit close enough. The dorm is empty now since everyone has their individual schedule. He felt safe to let his heart and soul out. 

So then he did. 

He cried under the blanket that give him the perfect warm and comfort to let his negative emotion out. It had been awhile since he was able to do this without being aware about him members around him. Cha Hakyeon always acts to his fullest even if he has to self boast himself to make him feel confident about himself. Never one bit he likes doing that but it was the only choice he has before breaking in to tear when the producer shouted for a take 5. Never once he felt he was worth or needed among the people around. 

He usually felt that he is being used but he never really cared. He look the feel of being used. He likes it when people talk to him and trust him with their secrets and problems. Never once he intends to tell them his problem though. Not that he didn't want to, people never really bother when he needs them. Sleeping was his only getaway from those pain and heartache that is being build day by day. From insults to negative comments, from bullying and accusing, he take in all in even if it is not his fault. Because Cha Hakyeon is a nice person.

Hakyeon grips on to his covers tighter as he felt the hot tears rolling down his face. He always wanted to get rid of this painful clenching feeling in his heart but it was never gone. Instead, it build up day by day. It felt as if arrows are being pierced in to him. His breathing became heavier as if the world is going to collapse on him. "Is this the feeling when I am going to die? If it is, I rather die now,' he thought to himself as the pain continues to attack him. The feeling runs off as he starts to breath normally but his tears never stop following. They never really stop;