YG Entertainment- Training room of boysband IKON- POV of B.I (or Hanbin) - 23:00.

               A discouraged sigh crossed my lips. I walked and I put my head against the mirror. Biggest black rings coal had invaded my face. That returned me even more desperate and tired that I was. I frightened to see. I had spent time so much on this song. I had remained to compose and improve this song every night of this month. I had sacrificed all and even my moments of intimacy with him and the group to make this song perfect. I wanted so much well to make and succeed. I wanted who he is proud to have a boyfriend like that even if nobody except the group was with the current of our relationship. I wanted really who he is proud of me. I wasn’t to disappoint anybody and even less him. Him? It was the love of my life since one year. It was my reason to be. That which made me to cry, laugh and to worry me for him. That which who haunted my days and my nights. That which I loved, that I love and that I will love forever. He had left with the other group members to my request. I had thought that not having him at my side, I will cannot be distracted and I could work, but the opposite happened. I wanted him to comfort me. I wanted him right now. I wanted to take him in my arms and who he me the hair by telling me sweet and reassuring words. I needed him to calm down me. I was afraid of all to miss and I was so nervous that my hands by trembling about it.

- “What will I do tomorrow?” I began to ask me, by gnawing my nails, nervous.

-“If it’s the music who they don’t like? If it’s the lyrics who they don’t like? If it's my rap who they don’t like? I put a piece of my life in this song. Music, composition, rap. . .” I said before that my voice was broken and I stifled a sob, upset.

                He took me a few seconds before to start again my monologue. In this kind of situation and in my case, to speak with high voice helped me to see clearer and to be less nervous.

-“All of this, all of this world of the music, it’s my life, my universe. If because of this emission, I don’t have a favorable opinion of the spectators all my world will break down. It will be the end for me. Perhaps, who he will be too much ashamed of me and he won’t like me anymore.” The idea of perhaps to lose him forever tightened me the heart. “I must make a success for me, for you, babe.”

             I was turned over and I fell on the ground, my back violently typing the mirror. I lay down by ground in position foetal. I tried to breathe slowly while trying to calm my nervousness. Waste of time and effort. I knew it already that only, him, could calm down me. I wanted to feel his skin against mine and his breath on my arms.

-“Mercy! Help me! Come to me, please, babe.” I screamed, desperate.

                The tears started to come in my eyes. Why I had asked him to leave me? Without him at my sides, I could make nothing. He was my reason to be, to live.

-“I need you, Jinhwan.” I shouted, to full lungs.

                I screamed, shouted until break my voice, by hoping that my nervousness going out, but this method didn’t seem effective, far from it. I will hope too who he hears me and who he comes to my help, like a prince charming on his beautiful white horse. I closed my eyes and I tried to control me. The picture of beautiful, young and strong leader of the new group of YG Entertainment was gone in a split second. I was like everyone else: a young man with dreams and who search just happiness. I had found in music and in wonderful person who I love, but why did some people are still nasty and vicious? They just couldn’t appreciate my music or go their way if they didn’t approve.

- “I search just happiness, so why?” I asked, completely lost.

                A few seconds, even the minutes spent without I trying something. I remained in position foetal, on the ground. I reflected and the doubt about my capacities started step by step to insinuate in me. I bit my lower lip more and more nervous. And if I was really bad as some people were saying? And If I was . . .

                I started, when I felt a presence against my back and a hot breath in my neck. Was it a simple dream or the reality? This person around me of his protective arms like a mother comforting her baby.

-“My love.” He said me of the right ear, charmer.

                It was him. He came to save me, calm down me, reassure me. Thank you, my God. I shuddered when he passed his hands under my white tank top and began to gently caress my abs.

-"Is It just a dream or are you really here at my sides?" I questioned him.

              I heard him to laugh before that his embrace tightened a little more and he came lightly nibble me my lobe right ear. A heat wave traveled me the back and stopped it in my lower abdomen. He snuggled more against me and I could feel her head on my shoulder.

-“I’m here. Always. Always by your side and this forever.” He said me, gently.

-“You disobeyed me, babe.” I said him, slightly angry, but also reassured by his gentle and warm presence against my back.

             I was at the same time angry and happy that he isn’t listened to me. He always did his own way. His presence reassured me and I had in only a few seconds at his sides took again confidence in me.  Jinhwan was like my miracle cure against the stress and the doubt.

-“I did tell you to go with the others,” I announced him falsely upset.

                He turned around me and he positioned himself astride me. He seemed offended by my recent comments. I gave him a little smile. He smiled in turn, and he bent over me.

-“I do what I want and from what I've heard, there are a few moments you needed me,” He whispered me, player.

              He nibbled my ear, he went down slightly to kiss my neck and he finally kissed my lips tenderly. He stopped, stood up and gave me a naughty wink before accompanying his action with a flick of the basin that he would innocent. I bit my lip and I took him in my arms. He wasn’t the least bit surprised and willingly answered my hug.

-“It is true. I need you.” I said him, happy.

-“I like when you become again the strong and independent leader, but I love when you're weak and you doubt yourself. You know why I like that in you?” He asked me, teaser.

-“No, Why?” I demanded him, curious.

                He broke our tender embrace and he pushed me a finger on the ground. He was particularly player tonight. Was it because of my condition? If it was that, it was really sweet of his part. He was trying to change my mind by wanting him teaser, charmer and playful. He was just so cute. I fell to the ground and he approached of me.

-“Because I find you particularly y in these situations and your facial expressions are so cute. And, you become more attentive and affectionate with me so I can enjoy it,” He said me in a whisper.

                I laughed and I kissed again once. The kiss lightly inflamed when I added my tongue. A whimper crossed his lips when I placed my left hand in her kidney fall. He stilled a little closer to me. His torso and his pelvis were literally pressed against mine. We parted, breathlessly. He plunged his deep and dark eyes on mine which made me shiver. “He is so beautiful and mysterious,” I thought. A lock of hair fell me on the face and as always that this happened it, he replaced it and he gave me a slight kiss on the right cheek.

-“Kiss me again, babe” I said him, on the ton player and begging.

                He shook his head, and he defied me of his glare. I took his neck and I tried to bring closer his lips of mine, but he resisted like a devil. He played with me because he made only that brush against my lips, frustrating me more and more. The minutes passed and I can taste his sweet and pulpy lips. When suddenly, he stopped him of moving and resist me. He planted his black eyes on mine.

-“Who are you?” He asked me, suddenly serious.

-“I’m B.I” I answered him, with a slightly smile.

-“Who are you?”  He asked me, slightly screaming.

                I wrinkled the eyebrows not understanding really where he wanted in come. Still a few minutes ago, he was tender and attentive and now, he was serious and authoritative, but what did happen? Why to have changed behavior also quickly? I confessed that I was slightly confused by this turn of events.

-“I’m B.I” I answered him, not sure of myself.

-“Who are you?” He screamed me.

-“I’m B.I” I said him, slightly angry by his behavior, but what was he playing?

-“Who are you?" He shouted me, to the face.

-“I’m B.I. I’m the leader of the group IKON, I love you and I’m the best of all. So, stop to scream on me.” I shouted him, completely surpassed by the events.

                I understood nothing. Why he shouted on me? I had not yet done anything to upset him. He smiled me which put me in a state of total incomprehension.

-“Well . . . You see when you want. You've gone out. My method worked,” He said me, proud of him.

                What? Sorry?  But what was he talking about? I raised my eyebrows to make his understand that I didn’t see where he wanted by going.

-“You say that you are the best and it’s true, my love. You see that the tenderness and the force win to give the morale and the trust at a man. At my man.” He said me, happy of him.

                Oh My God! I came to understand. He was again lovelier. He was so attentive to me. He angry me to give me confidence. He was so wonderful. First, he had reassured me and hugged me before reboots me. I sat again on the ground and took him again in my powerful muscular arms by long years of intensive training. His method was hard, but it seemed to take effect. Where was it just him?

-“Thank you. If you knew like I love you, Jinhwan. What I will do without you?” I said him.

-“All, because you are the best, my love.” He whispered me, in a breath before coming again to kiss my lips in a soft and sweet kiss.

Emission Show Me The Money 3- Repetition of B.I (IKON) – POV of B.I-8:30.

                The repetitions began. Bobby had already passed. So he waited me in the waiting room. He was stressed like me but together we had helped each other. I had my repeat with the support of my babe, Jinhwan. He was sitting on a seat in the hall with a sign where there was written in large above "Hanbin-ah is the best. I love you oppa!” He was so adorable. He had pushed the hysterical screams, making me smile throughout my rehearsal. At the end, he came down and he joined me. He made me his best smile before hug me hard in his arms.

-“It was awesome and even if I wasn’t here in your stage this night for support you. Tell you, that I will be in front on my TV. I will see you, because you are talented and that I love you of all my heart. I’m your first and biggest fan, Hanbin.” He whispered me at my ear.

-“I love you too, babe. You are so cute.” I said him.

                      He stepped back and he gave me a sulky pout before that we burst out laughing.

Emission Show Me The Money 3- Live-Performance of B.I-POV of B.I-21:00.

                My breath started to get carried away when an assistant was coming for tell me that it was at me in five minutes. So I left the waiting room with the support of other rappers. In the corridor, I met my best friend, Bobby, who had just finished his performance. He smiled me and he took me in his arms wishing me good luck. So, I took the mike, nervous. I took a big breath and I went on stage, making believe at everyone that I was sure of myself. The music began and before starting to rap the beautiful face of Jinhwan appeared me giving back trust in me. “You’re the best Hanbin and Jinhwan and the others members love you, so breath, breath.” I tell me. So I started my rap, but not very sure of me, but I was already less stressed that yesterday in the training room. The seconds and the minutes had paraded at a crazy speed. Each second that passed, gave me a little more confidence in myself. I clenched hands of fans and screamed, danced, jumped across the stage. The shouts of support and the screams of people present on the tray slowly entranced me. It was completely sure of me that I had removed my track jacket. My performance, it was finished in the middle of the crowd in their applause.

               I left the stage tired, but happy. Everything it was finally past well and thanks at Jinhwan. Arrived, in the corridor of the waiting room, my legs gave way under my feet. So, I sat me on the ground and I closed my eyes, exhausted by the performance, but also by all the emotions that I felt in few days. When, I felt someone kneel and take me in his arms. I opened my eyes and saw that it was my best friend, Bobby, repeating me that he was proud of me. I smiled and I answered to his embrace. I had a magic life, wonderful friends and a fabulous boyfriend. What I could ask for more?

Thank you to have believed in me from the beginning. I never doubt again in the future.

Thank you for all you love and you confidence. Babe? I love you.♥

 

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