It was Lunch time,Having a talk with my best friends about our next trip but like always it was drifted to thier love lives.

Andy:Today is our first year anniversary ,i have no idea what to do,any suggestions?

Lee:Just buy him a couple phone case

Me:it isnt thier first month,its thier first YEAR,Lee! Um,he dance for an hour or two alone after the practice dont leave him dumb and give him the phone case then go to a rooftop date Balloons,Music,romantic candles,his favourite Pizza and Rose green milk tea no it's a morning drink,you know his favourite drink anyway

Andy:Sounds good *gave me a high five*

Me:Lee,Jaebum loves you dont be so dumb he even texted you twice ,he is a leader and they have a comeback soon,he doesnt ignore you,can you smile now?

Andy:I agree with E. ,Lee Although she hasnt even "kissed" oh lets say "Love anyone", she is right

Me:HEY!!IS THAT YOUR THANKS?

i suddenly found my long hair bieng tied up and someone saying"She is right LOSER"

Me:Choi Youngjae!!!

Youngjae:How many times have i told you not to untie your hair in school?Are you trying to Seduce Jr.?

ME:Junior is here?Leave my hair,dumb,*push him away* do i look pretty?

Youngjae:yaaah

I found Jr. Infront me with messy hair looks perfect like always

Youngjae:hyung,This E. *putting his hand on my shoulder, bringing me closer*

Jr.:Hi E. Nice to meet you,oh Youngjae isn't she the girl you li-

Youngjae:arent you looking for Mark,hyung?

Jr.:Yeah right,bye

*he left with a beautiful smile on his face* I turned to Youngjae and gave him a Punch on his shoulder

Me:YAAH,I HADNT EVEN THE CHANCE TO SAY HI

we finally sat ,i didnt even notice when Lee and Andy left me for thier boyfriends,we continue eating looking at couples feeding each other,boyfriends wiping thier Girlfriends' mouths,other whispering ,hugging,kissing ,it is hard bieng the only two singles in school Youngjae finally broke the silence "Nice advice by the way"*looking at Andy who is smiling about Sth. Yougyeom whispered*

I just nodded and eats

Youngjae:Your boyfriend gonna be so lucky,ou gonna treat him that way?

Me:Of He is my denisty,dude,after finding him of course i will even care more

Youngjae:may be your destiny is so near to you but you are a blind weirdo dumb who can't see or notice ANYTING

Me:Yaaah,amnot weirdo

Youngjae:E......

Me:yes?

Youngjae:you still dont believe in love?

Me:no i believe in love but am just not ready

Youngjae:so if you find yourself ready,can you fall for someone like me?

I stopped eating surprised "No" came from my mouth before looking at him ,he faked a smile that made me wonder why so i tried my best to change the topic,Luckily i succeeded

Night came,I was alone in my room as Andy was with Yugyeom celebrating thier 1st year anniversary,Jaebum and Lee were on a date too,Then they will go to thier homes spending time with parents like all the classmates,i was there alone in the dorm as JYP-nim asked me to write a new web drama and i had been already 3 hours infront of the laptop having no idea what to write cause i had been thinking about Youngjae the whole day,i lied down staring At the room ceiling for an hour too much thoughts in my mind

"Why did he look kinda sad when i said No?why did i feel kinda hurt after saying it?Why don't i mind him holding my hand,playing with my hair,hugging me so tight burrying his head  on my neck and cry when he is sad,why i do the same too when im upset?,why is he wrapping his arm around my waist and bring me closer to him when another boys are talking to me?why doi feel safe and comfortable when i'm with him?why do i hit his shoulder and yell at him when he skips important classes?i even take important notice for him!,why didnt i kick his when he kissed me on my cheek on my birthday?i may dont trust anyone 100% but i trust him the most,Why?why was i worried to death today when he was late ?do i love him?"

my phone vibrated taking me away of my thought

i Opened my instagram to see Jaebum wrapping his arms around lee's waist staring at each other,wide smiles on thier faces ,too much love in thier eyes with a caption:"Awesome date like always with my Jae with too many hearts "and right after it Jaebum Updated pic carrying Lee with caption "My bird <3 ","Eww,so cheesy"  said to myself i scrolled down Seeing the other couple more cheesier Yugyeom backhugging Andy kissing her cheek"Rooftop date!Happy Anniversary my Love,Love you forever my gyeom" Yugyeom hit the jackpot with his insta video of of the rooftop view,candles,balloons,red blanket ,roses in the ground ,eating pizza,laughing,and Andy surprised face when Yugyeom gave her a couple ring then them kissing in the end of the video "Oh my god,save me"  i murmured to myself again i kept scrolling down to find Youngjae's selca with a beautiful smile and me sleeping on the desk with a caption "Believe me she is peacful when she is asleep Lol,i cant believe you slept during the lesson,our class president!you look beautiful though my lena <3" my face got red"my lena?"i checked both of our profiles we have too many pics together with v sign smiling in too many places amusment park,class,practice room,star bucks,the street,in thier last performance....etc "Ugh,we go to many places,taking selcas and updating it,are we couple or sth?...LoL

I closed my instagram looking at my lockscreen "why do i put our selca as my lockscreen,lets change it to my lovely lee jong suk"

i returned to write but found myself failing again to write anything i looked my lockscreen its 7.30Pm and i hadnt eaten anything since lunch,i wore a skirt and tshirt and went to the dorm kitchen,i was trying to take a pot from the shelf when i felt someone behind me his chest kinda touching my back with an arm reaching the pot and putting it on me head i turned removing the pan to see Youngjae with wet hair ,he was so close staring with a smile i suddenly became speechless, my heart was beating so fast.

Youngjae:you are so short try wearing heals for god's sake,what would you have done if i werent here,ending up on the floor with a shelf on you and pots everywhere,maybe getting hurt too?

Me:Yaah, amnot that short *pushing him away*

he took the pot and pouring water them put it in the oven

Youngjae:make a ramyon for me,too

E.:okay okay

The water boiled i put The flavour stirring it when Youngjae suddenly backhugged me and put his chin on my shoulder

Me:Yaah,why are backhugging me?

Youngjae:i always backhug you

Me:it's longer,you backhug me for less than a second just a friendly hug,move away*putting the instant noddles* Youngjae didnt even move his chin

"why did you ignore my text the whole day" he said

Me:i didnt see it

Youngjae:why didnt you call me the whole day?

Me:....umm you were at practice and i was busy

Youngjae:why didnt you tell me that you will stay at the dorm alone?

Me:JYP-Nim told me to stay here and finish writing,how did you know?

Youngjae:I saw Andy and Lee after practice,you should have told me,you cant stay here alone what if a guy try to trick you and you end up on a date with him or sth.?i was worried as hell

Me:without me kicking his ?

Youngjae laughed unwrapping his arms and moving his chin and gave me two bowls to put the ramyon he grabbed my hands

Me:why are holding my hand?*leaving his hand going to the table, putting the bowl in the table Before i even sit i found Suzy holding her Math Homework sitting too close to Youngjae

Suzy :Youngjae can you help me with my math homework?

Seeing them too close while Youngjae smiling and taking the pen explaining to her,made me feel uncomfortable "great!now am jealous"said to myself i left without thier notice i went to the backyard with "Eat pray love" in my hand and sat in a swing i always share with Youngjae,i started to read with my headphone on my ears listening to Like a dream-Yerin's cover i throw the book next to me cause i couldnt even concentrate i closed my sleepy eyes and fell asleep,after plenty of time i felt my head on someon's lap,ruffling my hair then moving it away from my face, i felt his lips in my forehead i slightly open my sleepy eyes to find Youngjae's face so close our noses almost touching My eyes widened as i freaked out and fell on the ground

Me"Youngjae,What the hell are you doing?"

Youngjae laughin so hard "Boo!Traa,just wanna freak you out,i think i did it"

Me:What?Seriously!! 

 i hit him on his shoulder and sat again in the swing next  to him lookin at the stars ,Youngjae  just kept staring and smiling":were you jealous from suzy?"

Me:...N-no,why would i?

Youngjae:so why did you left?

Me:....Um You l-like her anyway so i left you alone

Youngjae:You are so Jealous,and suzy is just a celebrity crush just like your Lee jong suk and i love someone else

I freezed and just nodded

Youngjae:you wont ask me who?

Me:Huh,wont you tell me?

Youngjae:are you always so dumb?

Me:Huh?

Youngjae :forget it ,ready for the trip,have you baught what Mr.Eric told you to,our lovely class perident?

I looked at him speechless i totally forgot about the trip thing

Youngjae:You forgot?! Can you take care of yourself once?go wear sth.,i told you before not to wear this skirt ,i will wait you here

Me:why?

Youngjae:its8.30 pm should i leave you alone?beside that we always go out together,whats wrong with you ?

Me:Umm okay

i left him kinda blushing i looked at my closet didnt know what to wear all my pants were in the laundry ,i end up wearing a floral dress and red short open jacket I decided not to tie up my hair just a red bandana with Mark's  Dream knight love necklace ,i wore my red shose and went to Youngjae i saw him smiling he stood up:"are you trying to seduce me?"

Me:WTH?

Youngjae:You just look pretty *ruffling my hair*

Me:Yaah lets go!*trying to hide my red cheeks*

Youngjae:wait a min. he went to his room and cameback with red cardigan and white shirt

Me:WTH?Choi Youngjae,they gonna think we are a couple!

Youngjae:So?i dont care

He held my hand till we reached the car he opened the door for me

Me:you are too weird today

Youngjae just winked ,it wasnt awkawrd as i thought during our drive as we lost our way at least 3 times the car was filled with laughs,yells,me teasing him

Me :Choi Youngjae its the fourth time!where's your mind?

Youngjae:you stole it

Me:So cheesy,try to get a girlfriend

Youngjae:Am trying hard but she is so dumb

Me:poor she,

Youngjae :we can make a deal you hold my hand till we reach the market if i lost the way this time you will drive

Me:Ugh,seriously you need a girlfriend

*Holding his hand*

Me:Stop the car you lost the way again dumb Choi Youngjae

he almost died laughing lookin at my angry face. I start driving he kept his eyes on me with a smile on his face then out of the blue he started singing Like oh ,Forever young and Playground, my heart skipped a beat my cheeks reddened ,he always sings when we are together but this time i felt that he is singing from his heart to me,We finally at the Market parking he held my hands again and take a cart am still shocked look at our hands

Youngjae:What?!we always do it?whats wrong with you today?

Me:N-nothing

Youngjae was right everything he did today we always do it but i have never noticed or cared about  it was the first day to feel shy,warm,happy ,The market was very crowded too much collision one of things i hate the most Youngjae know that i hate skinship maybe accept it from close friends but i seriously hate when strangers touch me .

it had been just 15 min and Youngjae had already wrapped his arm around my waist and push me closer 10 times and i hit his chest 3 times at least ,5 mins later i found myself between Youngjae and the cart ,finding myself between his arms made me blushed i stopped and turn to him our eyes met then he looked at my lips then at my eyes again,i freezed ,Youngjae noticed my red cheeks he finally spoke"Why are you looking at me like that?its only way to protect you princess"

Me"PRINCESS?!WHAT YOUNGJAE ?DO YOU HAVE A FEVER?OH GOSH LETS HURRY"

Youngjae just laughed:Your cheeks matches your lipstick

Me"ert"

we finally buy everything our teacher asked us to buy and heading to the car

Me"Please Youngjae i dont wanna get lost ,let me drive"

Youngjae"No,just get in"

Me"UGH,WHY AM HIS FRIEND?"