Hidden Away
Words Within
It seems like yesterdays are just dreams of my heart
That all are just pictures created by my mind
I do not know how to grasp all of this
Now that everything suddenly changes
Not that the number has decreased
But seeing all your worries and sadness
I am afraid I will never have the chance to see the smiles
So the pain I kept hidden away
And made sure I smile everyday
For you to be happy, for me to be happy
But the number has decreased again
I thought... we are one
The pain increased
Even it is already said
That the awareness of the decreasing number is inevitable
But I will never be ready
The only way to keep the pain at bay
Is drown myself with anything from anywhere with someone
But...
That someone... that someone
The number has decreased again
The pain increased again
My heart will bursts, my mind can not stop
My soul is filled with fear
That somebody...
That the number will decrease again
Every day is a struggle to overcome that fear
Every day... I just live for a day
I tried to live for a day
Never thinking what will happen in the future
And that help me keep the pain inside
I learned to treasure each moments made every single day with them
Every little thoughtful action with everybody
I want to be strong for everybody
I want... I want to them to know... to feel
That I love them with my whole heart
That I think of them everyday
Then at least...
When everything just seems so tiring for them
At least, I want them to think
That I, their maknae... am enough for them to stay for a little longer
To spend time together for a long, long time
And the pain will always be hidden away.
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An impromptu chapter. Even though everything already happened, I just want to start the chapter from the very start of the 'change'.
Inspired by an information that Sehunnie cried when the filming of his movie has finally ended.
It's just... it is his greatest fear, being left behind by the people who were once beside him.
Even though that's not the case with the movie's casts and staffs, but he cried.
Imagine how he feel everyday not seeing what he dreamt to see when they just started.
He kept a strong and happy facade.
But we all know, the hurt... the pain is still residing in his heart, mind and soul.
just me crying my unshed tears here. -.-
jhanjhan
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