I stood on the edge of the aisle as I watch my bride walking towards me. I couldn’t help but mesmerize by her beauty. She will be my wife after today. She is my love, my soul mate. I give her my best smile upon our eyes met. We will be married today.

I glance to the person standing not far from me. My best man, who is my best friend, also the man that fall in love with me standing not far away. I smiled at him upon our eyes met. He smiles back but his smile never reaches his eyes. Somehow I knew why. I knew.

I knew, Donghae, I knew I am breaking your heart.

Flashback

“Hyukkie I have something to tell you,”

“What is it Hae?”

“Hyukkie, promise that you won’t be mad at me, promise that you will still be my best friend,”

“What was that Hae? What is that about?”

“Please, Hyukkie, please promise me, I need to tell you,”

“I promise Hae, I promise,”

“I-I…I love you Hyukkie, so much,”

“H-Hae…w-what?”

End of flashback

I took my bride’s hand as I lead her to the priest. She is just so beautiful.

However, I couldn’t help but glance at him to make sure he is alright. His lips had been trembling ever since and his face looks pale ever since and of course, the sparks in his eyes had gone ever since, that day.

Flashback

“Hae, I have something to tell you,”

“What is it Hyukkie?”

“I-I am getting married,”

“M-married? W-With Gina?” he spoke as his tears started to flow.

“Yes,”

“H-Hyu..”

“I am sorry Hae, I am sorry,”

“C-Congra-atulations, H-Hyukkie…I…I…”

End of flashback

I smiled back at my bride as she intertwines our hands.

Donghae, I am sorry, I am not able to love you back.

I am sorry that I am breaking your heart.

I am sorry.

Flashback

“Hae, I-I need to ask you something,”

“What Hyukkie?”

“Hae, I know you are sad and I know that this might be the last thing you want me to do, but I need to ask you a favor, it’s okay if you decline it but I will really like you to be there for me, as my best man, because you are my best friend,”

“Hyukkie…I…”

“You…”

“I-I…I…”

“It’s okay, I know that you don’t want to, I am sorry for asking, I am sorry,”

“I-I…I’ll do it,”

End of flashback

“Dearly Beloved, we are gathered together here in the sign of God and in the face of this company to join together this man and this woman in holy matrimony…”

This is it, I am getting married.

Donghae, I am sorry, I am really sorry.

I was listening in what the priest was saying as I caught a glimpse of someone dashing out.

Immediately, I had turned slightly to the spot where Donghae previously stood.

Only this time, he was nowhere to be seen.

~~~~~

I couldn’t help but dashed out of the wedding hall.

Sorry Hyukkie, I am sorry, I can’t do this.

I can’t watch you marrying her.

It is too painful.

I am sorry Hyukkie, I can’t be with you when you get married.

I am sorry.

My tears had stream down uncontrollably.

Hyukkie, I love you, but I know, you can’t give me your heart.

It belongs to her.

Flashback

“I-I…I love you Hyukkie, so much,”

“H-Hae…w-what?”

“I-I love you…as a man, I am attracted to you,”

“H-Hae…I…”

“I am sorry, I know I shouldn’t tell you this, not when you already have a girlfriend, I am sorry Hyukkie, please don’t be mad at me,”

“Never…I will never get mad at you, you are my bestfriend,”

End of flashback

I couldn’t help but let my legs bring me away from Hyukkie.

I can’t stand.

I can’t see you marry the person who is not me.

Flashback

“Here, Hyuk, AAHHH,” giggled the girl as she put the fork in front of Hyukkie asking him to eat up.

I try to avoid watching them.

She is his fiancé.

I am just his best friend.

“Thanks baby,” he whispered smiling at her as he ate the food she gave.

How nice it is if he calls me baby.

But sadly, I am just Hae to him.

“Hae, are you alright?” he asked concerning.

He knew that I love him, and I knew that he can’t return my feelings for him.

But I am happy that he didn’t push me away.

He still sees me as his best friend.

Even though I am his best friend who falls in love with him.

"Y-Yes,"

"No you are not," he said as he place his hand over my forehead, checking my temperature I suppose.

"Hmm, yep, you are right Hae," he smiled at me, "but don't hesitate to tell me if you are not feeling well okay?"

End of flashback

My legs had finally hauled to a stop when I reach the rooftop of the building.

I love you Hyukkie, I love you.

~~~~

My mind is running wildly now.

I couldn’t pay attention to my wedding.

I am worry about Donghae.

I knew his heart is breaking seeing me getting married.

Although I don’t see him intimately, but I care for him, because he is my best friend.

My only best friend.

The friend that knows everything about me.

“Hyuk,” as I felt someone tugging my sleeve.

I turned to my fiancé who gives me a concerning look.

“Are you alright? You seems…troubled,”

Yes, I am troubled.

I am now on my wedding but my best friend is nowhere to be seen.

I am worry about him.

“Hyuk,”

“Hmm?”

“You vows, your turn to vow,”

My turn.

Oh..

“I Lee Hyukjae take you…C-Choi Gina…a-as….a-as….m-my…w-wedd…”

I can’t do this.

I am hurting Donghae.

I am hurting my best friend who falls in love with me.

I dropped our linked hands and glance at my soul mate, my lover.

My hand slowly went caress her face, her beautiful features.

I am sorry.

Between love and friendship.

I choose…

To sacrifice my love for you…

To hold back my friendship with him..

Even though I love you with my heart.

“I am sorry, Gina, I can’t do this, I am hurting him,” I whispered before dashing out of the hall.

That’s it, I’ve stopped my wedding.

I’ve ruined her happily ever after.

I dashed out of the wedding hall as I look around trying to find him.

Donghae, where are you.

 Somehow, I had a bad feeling that Donghae might wanted to end his life because of me.

~~~~

I gripped onto the railing of the rooftop as I let the breeze hitting my face.

I slowly took out a photo of me and Hyukkie standing side by side with our big smiles.

I am sorry for loving you Hyukkie.

I am sorry.

I really want to stop loving you, because I know I will be a burden in your relationship with her.

But I can’t stop loving you.

I slowly reach my foot out to climb up to the low brick walls.

~~~~

I stood in the CCTV room watching the screen hoping that I might find Donghae.

I am lucky that the security guards are glad to help me with it.

I watched at all the screens looking for him.

“Is this the pale looking guy you are looking for?” a voice spoke which I had immediately snapped from the screen I am watching as I darted my eyes to the screen the security guard pointed at.

There I saw a guy running up the staircase with tears trickling down his eyes.

Donghae.

But wait…

Up?

He is....

“I think he is at the rooftop,” said the security guards as he pointed at a few screens that showed the numbers of each floors.

No…

No way.

Donghae, stop!

Wait!

~~~~

I stood on the low brick walls as I don’t dare to glance down.

I could hear the sounds of cars running on the streets.

I gripped onto the railing tightly fearing I am going to fall down even though I am planning to jump down from here.

My tears couldn’t help but fall again thinking about Hyukkie.

I am sorry Hyukkie, this is for the best.

For both of us.

I am not a burden to your married life.

And I am free from loving you.

~~~~

I mentally cursed that the lift had broke down at the moment which I had practically run all my way to the rooftop.

Donghae, please wait.

Please don’t do anything stupid.

If you did, I will not able to forgive myself.

~~~~

I kissed the picture of Hyukkie and me.

I am sorry Hyukkie.

I am sorry.

I am sorry for making you mourn for me on your wedding day.

I am sorry Hyukkie.

I love you…

I slowly reach out my foot wanting to jump down and end all these mess.

I felt a warm hand grabbing my wrist and immediately, I was being pull back and fall into a warm embrace.

H-Hyukkie?

I couldn’t help but my tears had stream down again.

~~~~

I finally reach the rooftop panting hard.

However there is no time to loose, not when I had a slight idea of what Donghae was going to do.

Immediately I had looked around and saw a figure standing on the edge of the building.

Wait.

Stop!

I cannot have you do that.

I had dashed to him immediately as I pulled him down from the low walls and embrace him in my arms.

I can’t let you seek for death because of me.

I felt my tux wet as he cried in my embrace.

“H-Hyukkie…I…I…can’t…it’s hurting…I….”

“Shhh…Hae…shhh….I know…I know how you feel,” I whispered soothing him.

However, his sobs don’t stops as his cries could hear.

“I…s..orry..I…can’t…see you…marry…I…my heart..is….breaking…I…I…”

“Shhh….Hae…shhh…it’s fine now, don’t be sorry, I am the one should be,”

“H-Hyu….ukkie…I…I…”

“Shhh….Hae…I should be the one who need to say sorry, I am sorry that I couldn’t give you my heart, I am sorry Hae…”

“H-Hy…”

“Shhh…you don’t need to say anything,”

“Y-Your wedding…y-you…here…”

“You, I’ve choose you, our friendship, our friendship is more important than my love towards her,”

However, his sobs did not stop as I can feel him gripping my tux tightly.

I want to heal his broken heart.

At least….that’s what I can do for him.

I brought his face up as I pressed my lips onto his.

At least, I could give him something in return.

At least I can mend his heart.

Even though he is just my best friend.

Although I can’t give you my heart, but at least, let me stop your heart from breaking even more.

The end~