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To My Loving Parents,

Sorry it had to end like this. I never told you guys what actually was happening during my young 16 year old life. I have been bullied ever since the beggining of Junior year :). It was minor, and I didn't think of it much, so I left it as it was and just continued school life, like you would have wanted me to. The reason I was bullied?  I guess some message went out saying horrible made up rumors about me saying harsh things about people. Something so little, can just turn into a big mess.  The bullying, like I said, got worse. I was pushed down halls, forced to put my face in the school toilet, My locker would be trashed almost everyday. I began getting hate letters saying to 'Kill myself' and said 'Go cut yourself, dirty scum.' Pretty sad what humans can do to each other. I still inogred this though. I had many other things to be worried about. Finally, I began gaining more firends again, Still stayed by my loyal six, who helped me out alot. Mark, Bambam, Jr. Jaebum, Yugyeom, and Youngjae momma. I know how much you love them to death. I got bullied less everyday, but soon.. I was a target again. Some guy named Hyunsik decided to spread lies that I slept with my teacher, then went gay for some other older guy. I did nothing wrong. Then bullying started back again, at the end of the school year! I started growing depressed, this is why I grew slower and slower everyday. Fecning practice, I always was late  to that because the class hated me, I just wanted summer to come already. It did, but on social media people still harrased me. I tried my best to get in trouble so you can take my electronics away from me.  Mom, I'm sorry for the troubles I caused since birth. Yes,  I do know that you thought about setting me up for adopation, yes I know I was too much. Yes, I found your letters. I still love you, for loving me, and caring for when I came back late at night drunk or wounded. Thanks for keeeping me with you, and keeping me in your arms till the day I decided to do this. Dad, Sorry I dissapointed you on these last few months we had together. I failed you. I know you heavily drank because