Mending a Broken Heart- Part 2 (Jongna)
Scrabbling Feelings
Loneliness, something that spreads through our body, at some point in time. But for Jonghyun, it’s been longer than a brief period of time. His first ever actual conquest rejected his confession, and now the only person who was willing to cure his broken heart , gave up. No energy is all he had left, and just bits and pieces of happy memories.
As he trailed out of his room , he sniffled, remembering the last words that rang through his no vacant room.
“I said friends Jonghyun, not best buds”.
Those words burnt through the absolute core in his heart. But all he could do was silently accept that he had lost his best bud. But as he saw her smiling once he planted himself with the group once more, he realized he couldn’t give up. Not just yet. He had to be part of her life once more and gain the friendship he had so stupidly lost. Unfortunately, courage is something he lacked, but need most.
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Jonghyun dragged himself behind the f(x) and SHINee groups, glaring at the laughing trio in front of him. Krystal, Minho, and Luna were laughing at a joke someone had randomly blurted out. He never felt so alone, he wanted to laugh too. The quarter of SM Town were currently arriving at a photo shoot for the new clothing line Eithoo, a last minute fit into their cramped schedules. Victoria and Onew were partnered together, of course, while Sulli and Taemin chose each other. Minho and Krystal silently decided to go in cahoots, which is what they do best, and Luna instantly chose the saddened Kibum as her photo partner. And Jonghyun.. Well he was alone.
“How long is this going to be for?” Grunted Jonghyun once they reached their assigned chairs.
“Don’t be such a sour puss, it’s only four hours”, replied Onew while elbowing the singer in the gut. Jonghyun dodged the attack, pleased with himself but not the answer he received. Luckily though, he was the first one to get dressed, which occupied all of his boring time. They fitted him into a green t-shirt that showed off his sculpted body, while faded and tight blue jeans covered his bottom half. They left his untamable brown hair let loose, while applying no make-up.
When the Cordi Noonas were scattered all around him, poking him with accessories left and right, is when he noticed the other person they were preparing. Her brown hair listened without any hair products, as the Cordi Noona’s brushed of the lint from the hem of her skirt. She smiled brightly, thanking all her Unnie’s for being so kind. Jonghyun couldn’t help but smile at his former best bud and had to admit she was really kind, and pretty. Definitely pretty. But once his smile caught her attention, her bright grin slipped away, turning into a half hearted smirk. She waved with little effort, as something else caught her attention.
Jonghyun followed her gaze, which traveled towards a depressed Kibum. The Umma sat in a corner, piercing a hole into his cell phone with his death glared eyes.
“Key? What's wrong?” Jonghyun asked, after quickly pacing to his distressed band member.
“You’re seriously asking that question?”
“Well, you do seem kind of sad here... all alone... isolated... by yourself..”
“OKAY I GET IT! But no duh I’m sad, my Ambies left me!” Jonghyun now remembered Amber’s sudden departure, that's why F(x) didn’t feel whole now. Amber was going to enjoy a small vacation back in LA while her leg recuperated. He was taken aback by the sudden blow, he hadn’t even noticed the tom boy’s absence until now. Usually he could feel her bubbly disposition from a mile away. He shrugged it off, guessing it was all the stress him and Luna’s terminated friendship had caused him.
Suddenly Nu Abo amplifies from the tiny speakers in Key’s palm. He didn't even hesitat to answer the phone, leaving the song in mid-chorus.
“Hello? Ambies? Oh thank god you made it safe!”. Key leapt off his secluded seat, and faded into the background, leaving Jonghyun behind. But not for long, seeing as a Cordi Noona quickly grabbed him by the shoulder, and led him towards the set. It was a colorful background, filled with childish bubbles and stylish patterns. But what caught Jonghyun’s attention the most was the oh-so familiar girl, who resided on a small platform.
“Hmm, Luna?” At the sound of her name, the girl had shot up, meeting Jonghyun’s gaze.
“Wait! Unnie! I thought you said I was doing this shoot with Kibum”, Luna stated.
“ Not anymore. It seems the diva has a a very important phone call and refuses to leave the bathroom. We don’t have time so we replaced him”. The older woman giggle, while shoving Jonghyun into the scenery. Instantly, a photographer appeared from behind, beaming an outrageous smile at the two bewildered idols.
“Aright you two! All I need is some bright smiles and a lot of skinship. We have to make this look believable now!”
“Bu-“ Jonghyun interjected.
“ Not buts! Drape your arm over her shoulder and just smile”, the photographers' over hyperactive personality scared Jonghyun a bit, but he just obliged. He slightly brushed his arm on Luna’s shoulder, earning him a glare from the younger girl.
“Hey I’m just doing what the photographer said. Don’t blame me, just smile”, he defended himself through clenched teeth. Luna obeyed putting on a very decisive smile, hoping to completely disguised the anger running through her body at that moment.
“Good! Now give each other a hug and face the camera”.
“Are you ser-“ Luna asked uncomfortably.
“Yes! Now do as I say!”, the photographer smiled. Their hands awkwardly wrapped around each other's backs, while trying to hide their instant frowns. But when Jonghyun felt a shiver that ran down Luna’s spine, he smiled deviously to himself.
After he saw the flash that notified him the photographer was content with the position, he asked a sudden question.
“How about I give her a Piggy-back ride?”
“What!? No wa-“ Luna screamed, but didn’t finish.
“ I LOVE THAT IDEA, GO AHEAD!”
Jonghyun quickly crumpled down, leaving Luna nice mount.
“Kim Jonghyun, you are so dead after this”, she whispered threateningly while assembling herself on his back. Her arms tightly closed around his neck, while he jerked her upwards.
“Great! Now look like you are having the time of your life”. The two plastered unbelievable smiled on their faces. The flash hit their eyes several times before they could even change their positions. Jonghyun had another suggestion as he opened his mouth.
“How about we-“
SLAP, Luna secretively hit him her her free hand while she kept constant her bright smile.
“I was just goin to sugge-“
SLAP
“Oww that on-“
SLAP
“Aright you cou-“
SLAP. But that sudden movement made Jonghyun jerk backwards. Luna released her grip in surprise, making her fall flatly on her . Jonghyun attempted to make her fall less severe, positioning her arms to catch her, but just landed awkwardly. As the two were sprawled on the hard wood floor, he felt in instant ting in his wrist.
“”, he spat.
“Jonghyun? I’m so sorry”, Luna began. “I didn’t mean for you to fall! Did you hurt your wrist?”. Her worried gaze traveled to his right hand which was cuffing his wrist. He nodded in response, holding in the urge to whine and whimper.
“Photographer hyung, I need to take Jonghyun back to his dorm, he’s hurt.”
“Fine but come back right after, we aren’t done with our session”. Luna nodded while guiding Jonghyun to the exit. She helped him into the van, which was parked right outside, and occupied the seat right next to him. The ride home was silent, but as they entered the SHINee dorm, Luna turned into an unusual Umma mode.
“Aright Jonghyun, sit right there and don’t put any pressure on your wrist. I’ll get you some ice right now. Where’s your first aid kit?” Before the bewildered singer could singer could even respond to any of her commands or questions, she shuffled out of the room and returned in a matter of minutes with a bag of ice at hand.
She placed it over his wrist, putting his hand over it. The sudden touch, electrified through Jonghyun but showed no reaction, seeing as she quickly let go.
“First aid kit is always in the bathroom right?”
He nodded. She paced out of the room, her footsteps almost seeming like an angelic harmony to Jonghyun. He recumbently reclined in his chair, waiting for her. The wait wasn’t long, seeing as she flashed into the room, quickly setting the first-aid kit next to her. She took hold of his wrist, closely examining every detail.
“I think you’re just going to have a hell of a bruise tomorrow morning. But you have two cuts, so I’ll clean them up right now”. Luna hurriedly grabbed two pieces of cotton and dabbed them with alcohol.
“It’s going to sting a little”, he whispered completely concentrated in healing the boys wounds.
When the alcohol came in contact with his injury wasn’t even close proximity to. His heart felt a ping of pain, knowing that after this moment he would go back to his no contact life with Luna. Something he doesn’t want to experience anymore. The loneliness washed over his body once more, water running down his cheeks.
Water indeed it was. Salty water filled with the pain of being lonely. The small droplets soon turned into full streams, Jonghyun having no control. He made no noise, just the clear tears streaming down his face.
“Does it hurt that bad?” Luna asked, feeling guilty. He shook his head back and forth, while taking a hold of her shoulder. With the little energy he had in both arms, he brought her into a tight embrace, not wanting to let go.
“Luna.. Just give me sometime”, he managed through all the tears.
“Jonghyun I don’t know what your talking about”.
“Please tell me you still like me?”
“ Jonghyun! Stop talking rubbish and look me in the eye”.
Jonghyun obliges and lets go, soon regretting his shift in position, because he missed the warmth Luna provided.
“Jonghyun , I still do like you. My feelings have been going on for too much of a long time to just disappear like that. But why are you crying?”
“I don’t like being lonely Luna. I miss you and your friendship, I miss your lousy attempts to make me happy, and most of all: i miss your smile. So please just give me time and I’m sure....” he drifted off.
Luna couldn’t help but wipe the tears off his weeping face as she nodded in agreement. That nod instantly stopped the tears and made Jonghyun whole once more. He leaned closer to her, stopping by her ear.
“You won’t regret this.... Just know.. I already do love you”, he said while sniffling and hugging her tight. Luna smiled, wrapping her arms around Jonghyun, realizing her mission wasn’t as impossible as she thought.
(tadaaa that was my Jongna! I hope you guys aren't disappointed because this isn't truly the ending of the Jongna chronicles lmao!i hope you liked it >_< next is: MINSTAL! bum bum bum bummmmm..)
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