As I walk along these empty streets, listening to my mp3 player. A song started to play in my mp3 player.

“I’ll back off so you can live.”

The song begin as I listen to the song with tears falling.

This song is the song that my unnie gave me when I broke up with my boyfriend a week ago.

She told me that I should listen to it and forget everything from the past.

As I listen to the song, memories that I once cherished are coming back to me. My love. My happiness. My everything. He was my everything until he… left me.

“Say it directly.

Looking at me.

Say it looking at my eyes.

Did you just say you wanted to break up?

Did you want to end it with me?”

I close my eyes as these lyrics run through my ears.

Oh, those painful memories.

I remembered that day.

You wanted to break my fragile heart.

Those sadness expression you had on your handsome face.

That handsome perfect face of yours.

Oh, how I wish I can erase that image out of my head.

“(I know) You probably got a lady.

(I know) You probably got sick of me.

Even though the tears are rushing to me.

I’ll back off so you can live.

That is all I can say.”

Tears begin to cascade as I remember the day I encountered you just right after you left me.

~Flashback~

“Oppa, isn’t this pretty?” A petite young girl with blonde hair says as she spins around in front of him, wearing a beautiful yellow sundress.

I just stare at them as tears cascade unexpectedly.

“Doo Joon…” I softly whispers behind the wall as I clutched on my heart.

He smiles at her as he pecks her on the cheeks.

Tears keeps on cascading as I remember he would do the exact same thing when I was his girl.

“Oppa, do you like it?”

He nods at his head and says, “Ne, I love it.”

“Buy it for me, ne?” She gives him a cute look.

“Of course.” He gives her a kiss on the lips. “Anything for you, G.Na.”

I just stood behind the wall, listening to their conversation. I knew it will hurt me. However, I cannot walk away from the scene. It seems like my feet are glue to the ground.

“Kim Yu-Rin!” My unnie shouts at me with her arms cross.

I turn to face her with tears cascading down. I cannot control my tears any longer. I begin to bail in front of her. “Unnie… It hurts.”

“Rinnie!” She gasps as she holds onto me. “Mianhae.”

“Anio!” I shook my head. “It is not your fault. I should’ve listen to you. I should’ve listen to you since the beginning. Why didn’t I?”

“Shh…” She rubs onto my back. “It’s the past. You should let it go. He is a bastard for hurting you. Move on, Rinnie. It clearly shows that he has forgotten about you already.”

I just nod my head.

~End of Flashback~

“I’ll forget you so you can live better.

So that you will be happy without me.

The love that you tossed away.

You can take it.

Don’t leave even a trace behind and take it all.”

That day, it was our last time we will meet again.

“Doo Joon, are you happy?” I ask myself as I look at the clear sky with tearstain running down my cheeks. “Because I am happy now.”

I take a deep breathe and exhale. “I am surely happy now, Yoon Doo Joon.”

“Don’t even say that you are sorry.

Don’t worry about me.”

Don’t worry about me now because I have clearly forgot about the past and move on. Thank you for everything, Yoon Doo Joon. Gomawo.

“Sorry My Sweetie.

Your lips that told me that you were going to leave.

Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?

I need to stop you.

The words don’t go out.

And you are already moving far apart.”

Was this what you were thinking, Doo Joon? Did you try to stop me from leaving you? Did you?

I wonder to myself as I let the lyrics sink into my head. Did I just jump into conclusion and did things without thinking? But he could’ve stop me. He could’ve done something to stop me. Yet, he didn’t. He didn’t stop me. He didn’t do anything to stop me. How was I suppose to know that what I done was wrong?

“(I know) You will forget me.

(I know) I will really hate you.

Even though you know everything.

I’ll back off so you can live.

That is all I can say.”

I just sit on the bench, feeling the cool breeze brushing pass me as I listen the song.

“I’ll forget you so you can live better.

So that you will be happy without me.

The love you tossed away.

You can take it.

Don’t even leave a trace behind and take it all.

Don’t even say you are sorry.

Don’t worry about me.”

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“(You) The reason I lived.

(You) You were all I wanted.

You~ It was me who only looked at you.

(Why) Why are you leaving?

(Why) Why are you tossing me away?

If you were going to be like this…

Why did you love me in the first place?”

Why was I so stupid to fall for you? I should’ve listen to unnie when she warned me about you. Why didn’t I listen to her? Why?

“Do you happen to remember that day?

That day when we first met.

I still remember it.”

~Flashback~

I was walking along the aisle to find my favorite ice cream.

Along the way, I bumped into a young handsome boy.

“I’m sorry.” I bow down and apologize.

“It’s okay.” He smiles at me. “I should be the one who suppose to apologize.”

“Anieyo.” I shook my head. “I’m the one who bumped into you.”

He just smiles at me and says, “Yoon Doo Joon.”

I blink at him and ask, “Excuse me?”

He laughs at me. “My name is Yoon Doo Joon.”

“Oh.” I nod my head. Then I smile. “Kim Yu-Rin.”

“Cute name.”

I blush. “Thanks.”

“What are you looking for?”

I look at his outfit, realizing that he works at the supermarket. Therefore, I told him what I was looking for.

“Here you go.” He handed me a carton of cookies n’ cream ice cream.

“Thanks.”

“You can call me oppa.” He says. “Considering that I am older than you are, of course.”

“Ne, o-oppa.” I stutter.

“Cute.” He grins at me. “Hope to see you around.” Then he walks off.

That was the first time when we met each other.

~End of Flashback~

“The promise that you made to me.

That you will only care for me.

That you will only protect me.

That you will only love me.

I believed your lies.

I believed it.

(Oh) Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh”

Why, oh why? I have fallen for you and believe every single word you told me. Why did you got me fallen for you so hard? Why?

I hate you for that. I hate you for playing with my feelings.

I quickly wipe off the tears that are falling once again.

Why do I have to be so emotional? Why?

“Did you really love me? (Oh)

Oh, Oh, Oh

No, No, No, No

(Oh) Oh, Oh, Oh

I’ll forget you so you can live better.”

Yes, I will forget you so you can live better… so will I.

I will not look into the past anymore. This is the last time I will look into the past.

Goodbye, Yoon Doo Joon. Goodbye forever.

“Rinnie!” I heard someone shouts out my name.

I turn around to see my current boyfriend, Kim Jaejoong, waving at me.

I quickly put my mp3 away in my purse and shouts, “Oppa!” I smile as I run towards him and give him a tight hug.

“Were you crying, princess?” He asks me as soon as he saw my tearstain cheeks.

I shook my head. “Something just caught into my eyes and it made me cry.”

“Araso.” He nods his head. “Let’s get you fix up.”

I smile and say, “Saranghae, oppa.”

“I love you too.” Then he gives me a gentle kiss on the lips.

Yup, I will definitely forget about the past and move on just like unnie wants me too.

I will forget you so we both can live better.