I am backstage at annual mama concert seeing my loved one singing---doing what he always love, he look so alive! I like that part of him a lot, eventhough it definitely covered up with the sad-wantme-ish concept, well, if you enter this industry, acting.. and figures that you are expected to show is everyday’s sour drink that you have to swallow. Well, that’s just one part of it. Overall, about attracting sponsors and stuff is definitely IS. But what my loved one trying to do is inspiring people to move forward and do their best in life, free-ing people from their concern by taking a little break from this hectic life and proposing revolutionary idea---that’s what he told me once, i laugh it off that time

Eventhough i actually like him for choosing his path with a set principle, and eventhough before doing “proposing revolutionary idea” he got to deal with fan girls and flirting here and there first.

What can i say.. haha

I tried really hard to be present at his so expected best new artist award (i can almost see him begging for it every time, well not “see”, but hear him talk about it on the phone with his signature girly voice that he uses on many broadcasting occasion), because it has been like 5 months that i don’t see him in person, we videocall a lot and talking a lot (i am the one who’s talking actually... well, we take turns, sometimes he talks a lot and i’ll be the one who comfort or cheer him up then in next opportunity i become a chatterbox and he definitely trying to stay awake, keke)but it’s different than having him by my side, that’s why i’m really looking forward to seeing him! Ahhhh... i definitely misses him....

RING!!!

Oops phonecall

“yobuseyo Goo Ri’s here?”

“YA goo ri! How can you miss our get together today!? Today all the senior is present here, they’ll be taking their flight tomorrow morning, so this is definitely.the.only.day.that.we.can.be.with.them! YAAAA!!!”

Yikes! You think i don’t know it joo hee idiot! I definitely misses a golden opportunity to be with all the beautiful senior, ah! What can i say

“i know i know.. but i’ve said it too don’t i, that i couldn’t. Please try not to get drunk and hear all their stories then please tell me okay!”

“Argh, i hate u sometimes. For the sake of visiting that very famous Kingdom relic huh”

“yeah.. you know how i am, i’m a fool for history”

“talk to you later”

“okay, joo hee fighting! Don’t get drunk okay!”

Then i hear him mumble a lazy yes, i’m so sorry joo hee.. hehe

I am working for an NGO that works on enviromental effort, stuff like global warming and trying to talk it out to many government official about the impact of what they selfishly doing that ruins the ecosystem.. well that kind of stuff

And today is a very rare rare day! Almost all our senior that are spread all around asia are gathering, other than reporting and deciding the next long term project there will be heroic story telling, we junior would get the chance to hear all the senior experience on the field, that somehow looked not such a very important moment is actually very very like very important! Othen than getting excited, we get to know their way of handling things that will also help us in probably the same situation.

So REALLY, if it’s not because i really miss him very much and this is probably the last chance that i get to see him (he is a busybody too) I WILL NOT DEFINITELY DEFINITELY MISSED TODAY GET TOGETHER!!!

“HAHHHHHHH.... i’m going to kill you seungyoon... *sigh”

“YA! This is like after forever that you see me, and here you are plotting to kill me”

I hear a very familiar voice that i miss so much, i can feel his breath on my face so close

There is so many things that i want to say to him but words left me, i was so overwhelmed just by this lovely face in front of me.

He looks skinner, is he eating well? That make up is really pretentious, it’s covering his ugly yet lovely look that i like

I miss him so much... yoonie..

“wait... let’s not do this here...”