"once you have a boy bestfriend, you will turn to love him"

maybe it's impossible to some girls but not me. even we have known each other for a long time, but I can't lied to my own feeling. It's true if you have a best guy friend, one of you will have more-than-friend-feeling. his my childhood friend, my first crush and my first heartbroken. it's turn out when we in kindergarden, we got to know each other and always be together since we're neighbour. my feeling towards him when we turn fifteen and until now i don't have any courage to tell him bout my feelings. stupid? no. i just afraid i lost him. but let me tell you that mine just a unrequited love who confuse bout his attitude which sometimes shows me that i'm special and sometimes i'm just not over tham his sister.