An usual day , i happily walk to school  i wonder if you are  there yet ? i walk past the park where you and i usually meet , but you ‘s not there *pout* maybe i was late and you leave frist  i keept my head down and lazzyly continuel my journey

-omo

I silence yell whent wind blow my hair all over my face i cant see a thing , i took out my mirror i got startle at my own image jeezz i look like a lion right now i have to fix it b4 sum 1 saw it , i accidently saw you at the other of the cy walk i jump up and down :

-oppa , jonghyun oppa .

You just look up at me let go an heavy sight , shook yr head and walk away huh? Am i make him mad cuz am a lil late , nah! Oppa not that mean but what make him like that? *shrug* i decide to cross the street and follow you , yr face are pale you event got an eyed bag under yr eyed i opent my mouth for sum talk but seing you like this make me shut my mouth i just grap a piece of the end of yr jacket and silencely walk beside you

~ lund time~

• Hey jonghyun oppa let ea....
• Hey dude let’s go to the cafeterria . i got cut off by key stupid key allway ruin my pland
• Uhm sure . then you stand up and walk away with him

*sigh* i guest i have to eat alone now , since CL is obsent today , yeah i dont have manny friend so yeah i eat a lone J let’s see what is for today , cheesburger nu-uh , sushi i eat it yesterday T.T , coconut ice cream nah *sigh* i dont felt like eating i spund my hill around and head to my sit , i took out my phone play with it for a minutes soud i call CL i heard that she get sick .... i think i soud let her rest now my face was collide with the table "am bore am bore T.T” i let my chin rest on my pawl my eyed scand around the caferterria then oppa you , i catch you staring at me , i felt my face lit up i sit up and wave at you , but you turn a way = =”

Eh ? akward much *pout* oppa you are so mean mean tsk tsk tsk

~after school~

*pang* i slam my locket as hard as i can , you  standing beside me but you  just keept seeking sum thing in there , i bit my lower lips gave you a gladred kim freaking jonghyun what is wrong with you

- yah kim jonghyun , why are you ignore me ?

I ask you nicely .... no answer “ yah” ....still no answer

• Yah oppa w...

you just walk a way, that it i have enought , i stomp infront of you

• Kim jonghyun what is wrong with you ,answer me , what did i do

But you turn into an other  hallway leave me stood there . did you just walk away from me ? ughh fine do what you want . with that i ran back home ,  why , why did you ignore me , you can yell at me or tease me i dont care but why did you have to stay quiet , i look up the sky today is beautifull i decide not to take a short way home , i want na walk around seoul today

When i walk past the cemertery i saw a verry familiar persond kneel down by a grave and cryng , i took a few step closer guest who i found , is you did i just heard sobbing  

• Jin....i miss you....pls come back...pls come back to me....am sr .

Jin? My name ? i look at the grave it said

                                        KWON JINAH

                                        ~/~/~-~/~/~

        It hit me ........... yeah am death now am a ghost how can you hear me right , am a ghost am a ghost ...my leg cant support my self so i end up sitting down the ground , i look at you , you  was cryng yr  heart out , i remember that day .....

*flash back*

- oppa where are you taking me , do you know what day is it . i asking you while i you was giving me a piggy back ride

-ofcause i know , today is Friday . you smile cheeky

- hyl! No it not , today is our frist annyversiry babo oppa . i hit yr shoulder playfully

- teehee , ofcause i know i just messing with ya

- oppa put me down i have sumthing for you .

When you put me down , i pull yr collar and  lock yr lips with mine , i can feel that you smile againt the kiss yr hand sneak be hinde my back and pull me closer to you my hand automaticly wrap around yr neck . a few sec  latter we both pull out for sum air , our forhead  learnd againt each other  i can feel yr hot breath again the top of my nose

• Wait here ok , i have to pick up sumthing . you said
• Ok . you gave me 1 last kiss on the forhead and ran corss the road

I let go a giggle when you wave the baby blue balloons in the air , it said sarang hae K.J.A  , I want na jump up and down form happyness but  i have to controll myself b4 sum 1 call the nut house . you  ran back to me , but you drop a few thing on the road , then a black car head on yr way my eyed wide why you just stand there

• JONGHYUN .

Then every thing when black , i woke up  whent i felt sum thing wet on my cheek

• Jinah , baby pls wake up...pls wake up .

His face was like cover with tears , yr shirt was full of blood ,i smile weak at you  

-j...jonghyun...o..ppa are you ...ok? . my finger slowly travel around yr jaw line

- am ok am ok ..... hold on ok ....the ambulance are coming

- oppa..... happy 1 year annyverisy , ...don.t...pls dont cry oppa

- y..yeah happy 1 year annyverisy ...this is for you .

I saw you put a ring on my finger it have a H & A words on it , i smile happyly

• It beautyfull  oppa ....oppa ..pls promise me that ... you will take care off yr self when am gone ....and find a better girl for you ...ok
• No no ... yr not going any where you have to stay here with me . he hug my tight againt his chest
• Oppa .... sarang..hae.

~end flashback~

I can still remember  you  scream my name  when i said the last words to you ..... a few tear roll down my cheek ,i have to admitted that am death am no longer a human am a spirit now ... but am glad that i can save you , i gave myself a smile before  stand up on my own , i kneel down behinde you and hug you event that i know i cant touch you but i want na do it for 1 last time , oppa i hope that you can life better , you’ll find a girl who is more better than i am , pls stay strong oppa , it hurt me so much whent i saw you like this,i cant text you a goodnight message any more , i cant hug  you , i cant touch yr blond hair while you fall at sleep in the class any more so i guest...... this is my last kiss , last words , last hug for you , oppa gomawo  oppa for taking care of me for love me for who i am tk for everything oppa , I can felt that i slowly mixed in with the wind , my i cant see my hand now

-oppa pls dont cry , sarang hae oppa  and pls stay strong .......

~jonghyun POV:~

Baby how are you , still doing fine without me ?! did you miss me ? are you scare ? am so sr for being a useless boyfriend , i cant event protech you , i miss you so much i cant hear yr beautyfull voice whent you giggle , i cant see yr smile ... baby when i walk past the park i didtn event dare to look at it , it remind me so much about you , but i have to it make me felt like you still there , like i can hear yr voice whent you call me but i guest that just my imaginations , i felt lonely without you by my side , school are lonely event though i have my friend

• Hey jonghyun let’s go to the carfeterria . key  said
• Sure

Today we have cheeseburger i chucklet to myself , if you still here you’ll avoid it no matter what .... i look at yr sit , it empty , i try to act normal but i cant ....today is Friday baby

• Violet againt young man . the flower man said
• Yup , tk you

School  end allready but i dont want na go home , i decide to visiit you

• Baby look what i brought  you is yr farvorite flower violet , yeah am here againt you woundt get mad at me right? Teehee , am not skipping any class today am i a good boy , that what you want right ? you allway nagging me be a good boy asleast  for 1 , i did it now , i miss yr nagging me , i miss every time we walk to school you like to grap a piece of my jacket and follow behinde me , that make you look  like my lil sister than my girlfriend  hehehehe

I found myself cryng so hard right now , i kneel down hand on my face

I cant take it ,i allway said that am a big boy and  big boy dont cry righ..... not at all big boy still know how to cry ....jin..i miss you..pls...pls come back .. am sr

I continuel cryng i cant forgave myseft  if i not that clumsy, you wont die , if i didtn get that persent you wont die , if me and you not in the a relationship you wont die , i f i didtn get a chance to know you ...you wont die ....

- oppa pls dont cry , sarang hae oppa  and pls stay strong .......

I turn my head round ! is that you ?! but i didtn see any 1 , i look up the sky and let wind blow in my face it, wake me up , i will jin i will stay strong like you want to  you will allway in my heart just you only .....