"Yuraaaa~ wake up. Wake up." Sojin kept shaking me as I yawn lazily

"Go away." I said quietly and hug the blankets that cover me

"WGM is about to start, don't you want to watch your last episode?" I heard Hyeri's voice

Oh yeah, it's another Saturday. I opened my eyes and sigh deeply as I remember the day we shot for our last episode. I quickly sat up from my bed and stretch my arms up wide

"Let's watch." I smiled widely but it's not because I'm happy but because I don't want them to worry about me like that night.

We walked to the living room and we saw Minah eating pancakes alone

"Give us some!" Hyeri shouted loudly and Minah stuck her tongue out

"YAAAH!" 

"Quiet! WGM is starting!" Sojin shouted and I chuckled as they all sat on the floor and I sat on the couch behind them. 

It feels weird. It's been almost a week and I now nothing changed but why? Why am I being like this? 

"Aigoo~ It's the last day of JjongAh couple. I'll surely miss this couple." Eric Nam, one of the MCs, said and my 3 members all nodded

I just stayed quiet and hug the plushie beside me. Why is my heart aching as I see his face? 

"What do you want to do?" his voice welcomes me and I look at him on the big screen. 

"I don't know." I said to him with a low tone, as if I am sad

"Do you want to eat? Are you hungry?" he asks, I miss him. No one will ask me if I have eaten or if I'm hungry and treat me

"I'm okay. Let's just go to the amusement park and make memories..." I said smiling brightly

"I can feel she is sad because this is our last day as a married couple." he said in the interview "I want to make her happy but her mood is really..." then he sighs. I'm sorry oppa. "I'll make her happy." he said an I smiled even though it hurts. 

We kept watching until the end is finally near, the girls' tears are visible and I held back mine because I don't want to break down in front of them. Not again.

"Can we still see each other again?" I asks

"Of course we can. I'll miss you, Ah Young." he said and we hugged, that's when I started crying on his shoulders. I'll miss him, his touch, his scent, his laugh, his crazy tactics, him...

And then we parted ways... he waited for me to go inside the dorm and I disappeared, he climb his car and drove off. 

The show ended like that. With the words of wisdom of the MCs and the cuts of the new couple. 

"Aaaaah. Unnie~!" Hyeri suddenly hugs me and the 2 followed and there I chuckled, still holding back my tears.

"Aigoo. Why are you being dramatic? Let's just move on and we still have to go to Weekly Idol today, right?" I reminded them

"Are you sure you're okay?" Sojin asks and I smiled at her and nodded

"Okay. If that's what you said. Let's prepare now." she said and we all nodded

We turned the TV off and part our ways, Sojin was talking to our manager while Hyeri and Minah took showers, I locked myself in the room and prepare our make up and outfits.

Then my phone rang. It was Jonghyun oppa. I didn't answer it, I just stared at it for a while.

ring.. ring..

And tears started falling unconciously. 

It kept ringing and finally it stopped, like my heart just beated again. I received a text message from him.

"Ah Young. Are you okay?" - Jonghyun oppa

Why are you like this again, oppa? I started crying my heart out in that moment.

♦

"Great show everyone!" the director of WGM said as we finished filming the last scenes for our individual interviews. 

We we're clapping and laughing and saying congratulations. Jonghyun oppa patted my head and I chuckled on his actions. We've been close since the past few months of filming. And even outside the shoot we still contact and see each other, like friends, close friends. 

As we walk away from the set, my heart is thumping really fast, like it's going to popped out in my chest any minute. 

We we're quiet, no one says a word, our fingertips would graze on each other and i can't help but blush slightly. 

"Oppa. I have something to confess." I swallowed my fear and he looked at me

"Hm?" he asks shortly, I stopped walking and he did too. It was night time and the moon shines brightly on us. 

"I like you." I confessed, my face turns into crimson red and my voice shakes, I can't look at him straight in the eyes

I was looking on my feet, and it was quiet for a moment, awkward silence? 

I look up at him and he smiled.

"I like you too, silly." he smiled and chuckled. He's so slow.

"No, oppa. I mean.. like you. I fancy you. My heart thumps fast every time we do skinship together, I can't help but smile at the mere thought of you. I like you, I really do." I explained and his smile vanish and he sighed 

"Ah Young..." he started, and I held back my tears, he patted my head as I hide my eyes with my hair

"I'm sorry, Ah Young but we're better off as friends. You know you deserve someone better, I'm just not... ready." he said and my heart broke into tiny pieces. I thought we had a chance.

"It's okay. I understand." I said and smiled brightly at him, the tears treathen to fall any moment so I should leave now.

"Are you okay?" he asks and I turn around and the tears started falling, trckling down my cheeks slowly, like my heart breaking painfully.

"Of course. I.. I have t-to go." I stuttered and walk away, he kept calling me but I just walk away faster, away from him. 

I reached our dorm at  10 pm and the members we're shocked as they saw me with flushed cheeks and swollen eyes. 

"Yura.." they called me, shocked, and hugged me. 

I didn't tell them what happen and they didn't push me to. 

After that night, Jonghyun oppa and I kept communicating, he would often ask if I'm okay and I would just reply "Yes." he would send me sweet messages and would often call to remind me to eat and it only hurts me more. 

♦

Sojin suddenly walk into my room and saw me a mess. She quickly hugged me and pampered me.

"I.. I miss him.." I choked on my words and continued to sob desperately looking for air

"Shh.. We know." he my hair to calm me down as she hugged me tightly.

After a few minutes, I stopped sobbing but the tears continued to fall. 

I told her everything, and she just sigh as if angry at oppa.

"It was my mistake. I shouldn't have fallen for him. It's all just acting." I said and wiped my tears away

"Is this still acting?" she asks and held my phone up, I bowed my head down and sobbed

"Hyeri and Minah knows, we know from the start that you have fallen for him, and we thought you'd be a lovely couple but the night you've come home crying, we know that he broke your heart. Yura, it's not your fault. You only loved." she said, like a mother, and I just continued to sob my heart out

"We're here okay? You'll be okay." she said and hugged me again

I will be okay. But when? 

After a few hours, we were in the van as we listened to the radio, our song "I Miss You" was playing. It was on top charts and we we're proud of ourselves. 

As the song played, I was looking out the window and taking in the ballad song. 

I miss him but it's for my own good. 

My phone rang again, it was him, I stared at it and tears treathened to fall. Hyeri snatched my phone away and pressed the "don't answer" button. I silently thanked her.

♦

It's been 2 weeks since the incident happen. I don't know if I'm okay or I'm thinking that I am okay. 

"Minah. Someone's at the door." Sojin shouted as she was cooking us lunch, I was playing with my smartphone and Hyeri was beside Sojin ready to eat

"I'll get it." Minah said and opened the door

"Who is it?" she asks, her face became sour as she saw who the person was

"What are you doing here?" she angrily asks

"I want to see if Ah Young is okay." 

When I heard his voice, my heart stopped, could it be?

"You have the guts to ask if she's okay when you're the main reason she's not!" Minah was now shouting and I quickly go to her and calm her down

"I'll just talk to him for a minute." I said and glance at him. 

I put my slippers on and walked outside with Jonghyun oppa. He's still handsome but I can see the dark circles under his eyes. 

"I'm sorry." he said as we walk down

"It's okay." 

"No it's not. Why haven't you been answering me?" he asks

"I have no obligation. We're not a married couple anymore." I tried to counter him

"Even so. I've been worried, I know I'm the reason for your pain but I just don't want you to be drawn away from me. I don't want to lose you even as a friend." he explained and held my hand

"Stop being nice to me, oppa. It hurts my heart. The moment I fell in love with you, I lost you." I said and snatch my hand back away

"Ah Young.." he sounded desperate

"I don't want to see you again." I said and walked away

"What if I told you I have fallen for you too?" he shouted and it stopped my tracks. The tears fall again

"I did fall for you but I was just so scared to lose you that's why I push my feelings away. But now that you're avoiding me, I then realized that I was so stupid." he continued, I can feel him behind me and suddenly he back hugged me as my tears started falling continuously. 

"I've had enough." I whispered and break free from his grasp. 

"Ah Young.. please." I can see his tears now, he is crying like I do

"Maybe in another time, another place, another moment. We can start over again. But not today, oppa. Don't be good to me anymore." I said and ran away from him again and back to my dorm. 

I quickly hugged the members and they calm me down. 

I stare out the window and saw him kneeling down and crying his heart out.

I'm sorry, Jonghyun oppa. 

♦

"Everyday! Girl's Day! Annyeonghassayo Girl's Day imninda!" we chanted and smiled to the camera as the shot was finished

It's been 2 years since my last heartbreak. I didn't heard from Jonghyun since then, Nana unnie would text me and inform me of what he's been doing and I would just text her back the same thing. 

I can say that I have moved on from what happen. It's been 2 wonderful years for me and my girls, we had success and hardships but it was all worth it. 

Today is Valentine's Day and we are here at SBS Inkigayo to perform our newest Album. We we're on stage and getting ready to perform live when the lights went out. 

"What's happening?" Minah panics

"Calm down." Sojin said

"Are we being kidnapped?!" Hyeri shouts

"No! No! I still need to see Kim Woobin oppa and give him my present!" Sojin said and pouted

"Are we gonna die?!" I ask and I felt Hyeri hit me

"YAH!" I shouted and I heard the fans chanting something

"HONG JONGHYUN! HONG JONGHYUN!" 

I was taken aback and look around

The light went on and suddenly behind us is a big screen with Jonghyun holding a boquet of roses. 

"Yura, Kim Ah young, Girl's Day rapper. I love you." then the screen went black

I turned around and tried finding the suspect for this. And I felt someone hug me from behind. 

"Be mine." he whispered and I smiled widely

"Yah! Hong Jonghyun, if you made our unnie cry again you'll be dead." Hyeri said and we laughed at her remarks

"Uhm. We're live." the director said and we we're shock

"So Ah Young, be mine, again?" he said and hugged me tightly