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gasoline."it only takes one action, one word, one memory to set hearts ablaze
and its that one action, word and memory that can also scald the hearts and burn"
was it worth it?
the meanings were hidden under cover
yet he thought it was obvious the whole time
yet Jackson thought he was done with him
Jackson forgot Youngjae wasn't one who would sacrifice their strong relationship
Choi Youngjae
the groups vocal
with an undeniably soothing voice that Jackson fell for
and Youngjae was also
the latter who saved him from the tidal wave of darkness
every day was a new day of laughter and happiness
tough challenges and training
yet there were days where things were just a blur of grey
Youngjae was an angel in disguise
but an angel who was dying
"If you had taught me better we could've won!" Jackson would say
but, "I'm sorry. I'll work harder next time." Youngjae would answer
arguments were like small ambers
before they could burn bright like a bonfire
they were put out by Youngjae
but soon enough, Youngjae wasn't there often to extinguish it
it hurt, it hurt badly but Jackson endured it
and then the heart grew slowly with rage
Youngjae became less frequent in his conversations with Jackson
and they avoided each other
and their arguments grew with fury
and Youngjae's sleeves grew longer
"All these time you thought I actually cared?
Well you thought wrong."
those words slipped out of Jackson's mouth with ease
the silence was broken with the loud slam of the door
the following weeks, Jackson's ears were craving to hear the sound of Youngjae's voice
talking to him casually, like an old friend again
it's a phase. it's a phase. Jackson had to keep reminding himself
and only on Youngjae's birthday did he have the courage to knock on his room door
his door creaked open slightly
strange
oh but it was left open for a reason
because Youngjae was lying on the floor
and had no time to lock the door
his there Jackson saw
Youngjae's not breathing anymore
Youngjae was gone
Youngjae's heart has failed
it was too soon but cardiac arrest did it
and what hurts was that
after all, Youngjae saved Jackson
but Jackson couldn't save Youngjae
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