"I'm hiding out in the coldest places, to ignore the pain and forget their faces."

 

 

 

 As the raindrops touches my skin, memories flash through my eyes.

 

 

Laughter.

 

 

 

 

 

Tears.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Smiles.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fights.

 

 

 It seems an endless process, endless cuddles at night, endless of mushy words being thrown, endless feeling of being loved.

 

 

 

 

 It's like a crow suddenly turns into white.

 

Impossible. Unbelievable.

 

 Days, months, years passed, I keep on searching through myself the answers that was left hanging since that day.

 

"Am I not enough for her?"

 

"In what way do I make her feel the urge of breaking up with  me?"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"One by one, the pieces of my heart fell, until everyone I loved only thought for themselves."

 

 

 Sleeping is impossible.

Waking up is hard.

 

My mind is full of thoughts, yet my heart is empty.

 

Longing for your prescence.

 

Every single thing I see, reminds me of you.

I miss those times I still claim you as my property.

 

I...still want you in my arms.

I wish... just wish , we'll still be together in the fututre.

I'll hug you to sleep until all of your worries fade away,

I'll make sure you'll take your medicines and eat your meals on time,

and somethings he can't do.

 

 

 

"I'm here. At the place where we first realized that love is something we see when we look through each other's soul. Right now, I bleed into my heart until I lost my blood and fall right in your arms."

 

 

 

but..

 

It was beyond reality now.

 

 

Those eyesmiles....

 

 

 

 

Those lips....

 

 

 

 

 

Those candle-like fingers....

 

 

 

 

 

Those soft hands....

 

 

 

Those weren't mine anymore.

 

 

 

I'm a type of person who will do anything to win,  I always win.

But those trophies, when in a simple game called "Love", I Lost.

 

Lost isn't even enough to describe my situation.

It was way more than losing a game.

It's more like living a life without oxygent.

 

Suffocating. I feel like dying.

 

While you....

you being your old bubbly self without me.

 

That hurts me the most.

 

 

 

 

"We fell together, We caugh each other, but then you let me slip after."

 

 

We used to count our moments exactly how we like to count the stars.

 

I never imagined doing this along.

 

"1"

 

 

 

 

 

"2"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"3"

I mumbled to myself but then I stop. I close my eyes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

When I wake up.. Sunlight pierced through my skin. I smiled.

 

 

 

"Love as we see, is infinite like stars in the sky. But as we get tired, we close our eyes, then it was gone."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Just how I feel. XD I know this is non sense. -.-