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080512

Dear diary...?

Pa gave this notebook to me today, saying I should express my feelings better.

I'm not exactly sure what I'm supposed to say.

Ma's cutting strawberries so I gotta go now.

 

080515

Dear diary,

I left you in the school's commons again, so I haven't had a chance to write.

Nothing's been new anyways.

 

080516

Dear diary,

it still feels rather strange writing that.

As if I were actually speaking to my journal.

Technically I am, but still.

I think I'm going to quit writing that.

 

080518

Dear diary,

It's turned into a habit.

 

080520

Ma and Pa are fighting again, best keep-

I think Ma just left.

 

080521

Pa's got a new job, so we're moving soon, but now it's somewhere in the "homeland,"

South Korea.

I hope it's still in the countryside.

I heard the noises in the city are terrible.

 

080528

We're moving soon.

 

080531

Welcome home.

again.

 

080602

We visited the neighbors acress the street today.

They had a son who was two years older than me.

His name was Kyungsoo.

Kind people.

 

080603

Lately I've been thinking about people from home.

Strange.

I never made friends back then.

 

080605

The old owners grew strawberries in the field close by.

They said I could pick as many as I wish.

Tomorrow.

 

080608

I saw Kyungsoo again at the strawberry fields.

He says likes them too and nothing more.

 

0806012

Kyungsoo's been visiting often.

He told me he wants to teach me how to cook someday.

 

080614

I left you in the mailbox when I went to collect the mail.

Whoops.

 

080616

Kyungsoo visited again.

I tried to explain that I didn't have any friends in the states because I liked being alone, but my voice wouldn't work again.

Sigh.

He's declared himself my new friend.

Kyungsoo is my friend.

It sounds nice.

 

080624

Did I ever tell you what Kyungsoo looks like?

His eyes are huge, like an owl's and his hair is almost pitch black.

His face is soft too. Like a baby's.

He's also 15, so he's two years older than I am.

Kyungsoo is really handsome.

 

080701

Pa stopped reminding me to write, so I haven't written in a while.

He says I've been opening up more to my surroundings.

I'm not sure if that's good or not.

 

080706

A new kid came to town today and moved in next door.

His name was Baekhyun.

He's nice also.

 

080710

Kyungsoo's singing voice is really lovely.

I wish I could sing with him.

 

080712

Baekhyun introduced himself today when Kyungsoo was over.

I think they like each other.

 

080714

Baekhyun likes to sing also.

His voice is pretty.

Kyungsoo's is still the best.

 

080729

Kyungsoo has been with Baekhyun a lot.

It's been really boring.

Baekhyun does drop by afterwards everyday, though.

 

080805

Baekhyun left today.

He said he could only visit for a few weeks during the summertime.

I miss him.

 

080812

Kyungsoo's leaving for school soon too.

He said he goes to a fancy private one in the city.

I wonder how he will sleep with the noise.

He gave me a peck on the cheek.

My insides feel gooey.

 

080823

School started today.

I'm going to try to make friends again.

 

080823 (pt two..)

Plan has quickly failed.

 

080826

Kyungsoo left this morning.

 

081102

I made my first friend today. (two months later, Kyungsoo noted in his letter I got this morning)

His name is