Confessions from Exo to Kris

fanfiction. Please do not believe everything until it is confirmed.

The door swung open. a lady dressed down in business wear came strutting into the room. She pulled back the chair in front of her and sat down, gazing at the person across. She sighed and pushed her glasses up her nose. That woman, or to be clearer, I folded my legs and pulled out my notebook. a boy sat in front of me, his head bowed down and his eyes closed.  

May I introduce myself? I think i should. Hello. My name is StoriesXOXO. or sxoxo for short. I have been doing research on the "Kris vs. SM" case for awhile now. One of my dear friends managed to get me inside the building to speak with the rest of the 11 members...

 The boy looked up I spoke one word. "Why?" 

 There was a silent pause. Then he cracked a smile.

I remained quiet and smirked back for I knew he knew what my single question meant. He lowered his smile then let out a long breath...

storytime. His eyes told me and I nodded for him to begin.

"well. I knew that...hyung...was..um. going to at least do something about the company..i knew he had enough. but like...i didn't think he would go that far. I...I..he didn't leave us yet. not in our hearts...those rumors? no. they're nothing. simply because the 'case' had not started yet. If.. If Kris was actually going to leave, i'm not sure what i would do. 11 is..not an even number. you can't have 11. it can mess up the universe...or galaxy. I can tell you it already did. I remember, that one time when I met him...maybe a few years back. at first i thought he was scary actually. I didn't approach him. Uh, one of my friends nudged me to talk to him..i didn't want to. Yeah. so they managed to get me up to him and he was like glaring at me..like i could feel daggers stabbing me from his eyes. I was scared..and my friends just laugh..Then i didn't expect this to happen. He smiled at me. 'hello!' he said happily. Yes, I was pretty shocked...

"hi." I said back. I didn't know what else to say. He was way taller than I am and looked more of the bully type. "I'm Wu yifan." He stuck his hand out for me for a greeting. I stared at him."You're not going to shake my hand? okay then." He retreated his hand back. "are you..." I began asking but he stopped me,"I know, my korean isn't that devolped yet. but i'm still trying.." "Oh." that was all i could say. "Want to hang out sometimes?" His grin grew wider. I looked back up at him and smiled,"Sure."

Later I found out he was not a bully...but more of a soft giant. *chuckles* it would be good to hear from him again. I miss him." 

~Kai.

"Why? i'm still looking for an answer myself. I know all of us would probably be very sensitive about this topic..especially zitao. but..yeah. I didn't smile for weeks. *laughs* i know, i usually do not smile.*poker face* but hey, this time I did not smile..on the inside. Sometimes i keep my distance from him. He always looked  gloomy. I don't know. But now...I just want him here. *sighs* I regret it. memories? oh. yeah i have a few. *shrugs* i'll show a picture instead.

yeah. I guess this was awhile back.. I still miss him. a lot. He use to always take my stuff from me and i would get ticked. But now I kinda miss it.just why.He's my Hyung. And this place tore my hyung down. I don't understand. I'm all confused. Why did he try to leave? is he leaving? Is he just going to erase us from his memory forever?"

~sehun

"I never wanted him to just disappear that quickly. It never occured to me this would happen. 'It's all an act. He's just acting.' that's what they told me, and i believed them *scoffs* why did I ever do that? I regret it now. But... he never gave up on me, even if i was...a big..idiot. I love smiling, you know that? I really do. But he made me smile brighter. *blushes.* uh...don't get the wrong idea..it-it's not like that...*chuckles nervously* 

~chanyeol

"I'm pretty sure Chanyeol likes Kris. I'm positive. *laughs* Just look at the way he looks at him..AHA. pfffff they hold hands a lot too. ahaha. ok. well. I don't really have much to say like the others but.. Kris to me is like a brother. It's fun to troll him since he can troll back. Kind of. Well, if he do just leave...I don't think i can troll anymore...who am i kidding. I can troll...Just..It won't b the same, You know?? He would always lend me stuff to help take care of my body. Vitamin C and whatnot. But then i realized..He's taking care of me  but not himself. Why?" 

~chen

"I saw Kris awhile back. and he came trudging down to me. He threw his arms around me sobbing. I was a little taken back by the sudden action but i hugged him back....I hugged him. He cried in my shoulders. You should have seen him cry. nevermind...But he was hurt. He felt stiff and he didn't know what else to do. he told me,'we are still young. why are we wasting our lives with a slave contract.' and i have to admit..he was right. why are we trapped here? so I told him,'it's okay..' but he shook his head. 'it hurts hyung...it hurts.' at that moment I felt like crying too." 

~xiumin

"He told me he cried. But i said we all did. He told me he's hurt. But i said we all are. So then one day he left. He told me he needed to set things right. I said to him, everything is fine and he shook his head,'no' he said.'it's not fine. nothing is fine. i care for you and i want you to be healthy.' I really appreciate the way he stood up for me--for all of us. But I didn't understand why when he did so, got so out of hand? I really wanted to help him but he told me i would only get in the way. In the way for what? If i at least helped him he wouldn't be alone! no he wouldn't! *covers face* That-- I don't understand...I don't think any of us do..Kris-ge..."

~Lay

"Just like Lay..I told him I could help him. But he wouldn't let me. So instead of listening, I tried. But when Kris saw me doing so, he yelled at me. 'Luhan! don't do this! i don't want you to get hurt!' but then he saw me crying and he stopped. He hugged me. 'I'm sorry. but i have to do this.' he said. Why?' that's all i said..but he walked away making me cry again..and then Lay saw me. I didn't want him to see me like this. And so Lay comfort me...or more like cried with me."

~Luhan

""Suho's very upset. Just look at the guy, he's heartbroken. He doesn't know what to do anymore...and everyday he'd remind us,'we are one!' at least trying to make us feel better. he's a good hyung. But he's falling down just like Kris is. I bet all of us are...because right now, I'm not sure i feel anything.*sighs* But ... I can't be sad all the time. *chuckles* I guess things really do change as time passes by. I do miss the good times we have shared. If I could have the ability to reverse time, I would."

~D.O

"I probably will have a lot to say. But i'll shorten it.. i guess. Kris is like my best friend and my brother. He has always been there for me. I do not know what i would do without him. I am very emotional you know that? I hate hiding my feelings...it makes me feel worse. So i tend to express it. and when i heard about the lawsuit, I was pretty upset. I didn't know if i should be happy or if I should cry. I guess i chose cry. Because the next thing i knew, i was upstairs in my room crying my eyes out."

~Tao

"I tried to stay strong but i couldn't. to me, without kris I'd probably be loosing control right now. He helped me a lot. I tried to tell the others that it is okay, that we are one..But inside i am really breaking. It hurts to see him gone, even if he isn't yet. But i cannot think about what exo would be like if Kris would be gone. I love him...In a way everyone does. If you could see your loved one disappearing right in front of you..Wouldn't you just feel hopeless? That's how painful this is to me. *lowers head.*

~Suho

"So I am the last one? I guess so....*silent* Even if i did not meet Kris Hyung first or even talk to him the most, I still think he is one of the best hyungs I ever met. I never wanted to see any of my members getting punished for doing what they think is right. I never liked seeing that. Even if it is against my will, i would do anything for him to be happy again. I would lie just for them to be safe. But then i would always come to a point of where I must fall. And when i do, I can't get back up anymore.... hyung, saranghae."

~baekhyun

Each boy i interviewed so far cried a little. I felt a small pain of guilt. Instead of continuing with the interview, i stopped for a short break. I need to collect myself together before I could start again. "Let's take a break." I sighed and walked over to the boy. His eyes trailing down with tears and i wiped them. 

His lower lip trembled like a puppy and his cheeks were all red. I pulled him into a hug and soothed him.

"I wouldn't say it would be alright." I whispered as I rocked the puppy in my arms."But i would say this. If he leaves then he leaves. Don't worry, he's not dead. He's not gone. Don't say goodbye. He is always in your heart. We do not know what his wishes are, but we must know that we have to accept it. Don't listen to those rumors, don't cry over it. Kris never said anything about it yet, so don't be afraid. I know, it's hard for you to accept the truth, But just hear me out....

Wether he leaves or not, he's your brother. Just like how your siblings will one day get on their feet and begin their own path. So right now, Kris is finding his path. And when the time comes, you will too. We can't always hold on onto our past and our privilages, we have to let that go and find our own future and freedom. So right now, don't cry. Be happy. Because there will be more hardships than this...don't give up on you and your brother. He's just growing up. so let him be. Let him tell you when he's ready. Let him solve his own problems. Creating false ideas and excuses would only hold him back. 

Don't live and dwell on false hope. Accept it and guide him so that one day, he'll become the best man you'll ever meet." 

~StoriesXOXO.

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