There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.Friedrich Nietzsche

And I guess that both love and madness is what I found in you. You are my love, you are the reason for this.
--  (:Sonyoru ♥

It was another one of those letters that Park Gayoung got every day after lunch time, when the class would go back to their room. At first Gayoung found it creepy yet sweet but as soon as time went by she got used to it. Her friends have witnessed how dedicated this ‘Sonyoru’ was, for the past 2 months he had been sending her this quotes with simple messages without fail. The penmanship for the quotation and the penmanship for the messages were always different, but she never really gave it much though since it might just be distractors

Gayoung never admitted it to anyone, but she knew she had tendencies on falling in love with this faceless person, out of all the letters he had given there was one special message she loved to read. It was a message she got from this Sonyoru when Gayoung had to be excused from school for 3 days because of fever

Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life.
And I missed my life which is you! Hope you’re doing fine.
Welcome back to school. Please don’t get sick again or I might just rush to your house :(

--Sonyoru :)

She had already memorized it by heart. Some of her friends found this cute, some found this disturbing. But for someone who had never been in a relationship, someone who never experienced being courted. This was something special.

“This Sonyoru is just too good. Is he a ninja or something? Why can’t we ever catch him?” Krystal complained as she took a bite from Gayoung’s sandwhich.

“He’ll come around pretty soon. I’m sure” Minji said. At that very moment a paper plane came flying from the window into their classroom, it was break time, so there weren’t much students in, most of them were outside playing soccer, eating or just chilling out.

“Hey Gayoung! It’s for you” One of their classmates handed the paper plane to her. The three looked at each other, without words they scrambled out of the room hoping to finally catch this secret admirer. But like the other outcomes, nothing. They were not even able to see a single shadow.

Having a heart and being afraid to love someone, is like having wings and being afraid of heights. Take a chance in life... and now I’m finally taking this chance to show myself.

--Sonyoru :)

Gayoung’s heart thumped faster as she re-read the letter. He was finally showing himself. She felt too excited yet scared at the same time

“YOW!” A voice said snapping her out of her thoughts

“Oh! Hello Sungyeol sunbae and Myungsoo sunbae” Gayoung bowed at her seniors. She never really liked it when Sungyeol was with Myungsoo, she could never get how the very friendly Sungyeol was best friends with the cold Myungsoo.

Gayoung tried her best to be polite to both of them, but the way Myungsoo was staring blankly at her, his expressionless face made her fuming. She just didn’t really like him. Yet Gayoung never denied the fact the he was really handsome, she just hates how he treats other girls. When one decides to confess their feelings, they take up a lot of courage, but he just looks at them all without changing his face expression then leaves.

“What are you holding?” Sungyeol asked, Gayoung smiled at him and mouthed ‘nothing’.

“Uhmmm. I have to go” She politely walked away. Because she didn’t know whether she wanted to leave because of Sungyeol’s presence, the guy who made her heart flutter from a mere greet or because of the guy she hated the most.

“I saw you talking with Sungyeol sunbae. Did he say anything? Or is he reminiscing that school play where the two of you where paired up?” Minji intrigued her friend who was biting her lip trying to refrain from smiling

“Shut up” Gayoung jokingly said as she took another glance at the two older guys, surprised to find Myungsoo looking back right at her smiling. She looked away for a few seconds thinking that it might just be her imagination, she glanced again, this time he wasn’t smiling, but he was still looking at her. Gayoung shrugged the thought off as it might really just be her imagination.

Night fell, Gayoung couldn’t sleep, the thought of Sungyeol then that Sonyoru person, then Myungsoo smiling. Everything just seemed to be crashing in her mind.

“UH! SLEEP PARK GAYOUNG!” She said to herself aloud as she shut her eyes forcing herself to sleep. “If only Sungyeol would be Sonyoru” but the possibility was negative, then Myungsoo’s smiling face flashed back

Frustrated, Gayoung took her pillow and started squealing, letting her emotions out, and soon enough she was asleep.

Do I love you because you're beautiful,
Or are you beautiful because I love you?
~Richard Rodgers and Oscar Hammerstein II, Cinderella

Gayoung read the paper that her senior had just handed her. He smiled at her nervously.

“well?” Lee Sungyeol asked his junior. She was left speechless, this was the first time it ever happened. 1) She had just received a confession letter from someone she really likes and 2) This was the first time that she had nothing to say

“Didn’t I tell you from one of the previous letters that I’ll tell you who I am one day?” Gayoung opened to talk but no word came out. “Just… I…. If… You…. “ Sungyeol was stuttering as he tried to tell her how he feels as their eyes met, both of them laughed awkwardly “So?” Sungyeol looked at her pleadingly

“I… I like you but—“ Gayoung hesitated, she wasn’t really prepared for this. SNAP OUT OF IT PARK GAYOUNG, THE PERSON YOU LIKE IS FINALLY CONFESSING! Her mind was arguing with her

“Don’t worry, we’ll take everything slowly. I mean, I’m not in a hurry” He smiled reassuringly at her, he drew his hand out, getting onto his knees. They we’re on the school’s 4^th floor, where no one really came.

Taking his hand, Gayoung promised herself that if something goes wrong, it will only be herself to blame.

“I promise I’ll take good care of you”

True to his word, Sungyeol became someone Gayoung needed so much. He listened to everything she couldn’t tell her friends, he became her savior, he was her knight, as she was his damsel

But as they started discovering more about each other, they had been paired up once for a play but they didn’t really converse much. They had a lot of similarities, like their passion for performing, their childish behavior, and so on.

“Weren’t  you always with Myungsoo sunbae before?” Gayoung asked as soon as their topic on their most hated people started. Sungyeol held her hand, he smiled at her. She had noticed from the day she took Sungyeol’s hand, Myungsoo had been more cold towards others and his stares were like shooting daggers. Like what Krystal had mentioned then, “if just by looking at a person could kill, Myungsoo sunbae could’ve made more than half of the students lying cold and dead on the floor”

“It’s nothing, we’ll be able to sort it out. But I’ll be leaving for a few weeks. School competition, I was one of the chosen students to represent our school.”

“That’s great! I hope you win”

Days have passed, Sungyeol, as Gayoung  had predicated, He was a guy who stuck to his words. Soon she found herself being introduced to Myungsoo, and some of his other close friends who were from different schools

Gayoung found out that Myungsoo wasn’t really that typical ice prince, he was actually someone fun to be with, she regularly saw Myungsoo smile which now, wasn’t a huge deal anymore for her.

It was the day Sungyeol had to leave

“It’s not like I’m not coming back” Sungyeol joked ruffling his younger brother’s hair as his younger brother started sobbing. He soon faced his Myungsoo and Gayoung

“Take care of Gayoung for me” He addressed to Myungsoo. Myungsoo merely nodded, he didn’t say anything but patted his friends shoulder. “and Gayoung,” Sungyeol smiled, holding the back of her head planting a kiss on the top.

“take care.” Gayoung smiled back.

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It’s been three days since Sungyeol left, “another more 8 days” Minji shook her head looking at her friend who seemed really dead. “It’s not like he’s never coming back” Gayoung chuckled at the phrase, it was almost exactly the same phrase Sungyeol said at the airport.

It’s just been three days but Gayoung felt as if all the energy in her body was away. She wasn’t like this before, “Probably the effect of falling inlove” she thought, it’s been 2 months since he confessed, she still couldn’t believe that Sonyoru was Sungyeol, the guy she really liked.

“Want to go get ice cream after school?” Gayoung asked Krystal and Minji

“Sorry, I have soccer training today” Krystal said while Minji had to go home early because they had somewhere to go “Tomorrow, we promise”

Gayoung walked home alone frowning

“You didn’t invite me to ice cream” She looked behind her, it was Myungsoo smiling at her, holding his back pack. “Come on, let’s go” He said as he walked casually towards her. Gayoung was puzzled, but she complied

“I’ll have Vanilla and Strawberry please” Myungsoo ordered for them as Gayoung waited by the table. It felt a bit weird being with someone you had hated for so long, then in a few days both of you turn into friends

“Here’s your strawberry” Myungsoo handed her the cup as he took his own seat “You miss Sungyeol right?” Gayoung nodded without looking at him.

“I know this is kind of personal, it’s okay if you don’t answer it.” Gayoung paused, she glanced at Myungsoo, he wasn’t giving her a death glare nor a blank face, instead he was looking at her with a small smile waiting for her question. Since he wasn’t saying anything, Gayoung took it as a go signal “You’re one of the popular guys in school, why did you reject all of the girls who confessed? I mean most of them were really pretty and looked as if they we’re meant for you”

Myungsoo scoffed, “You really are stupid”. Gayoung got offended at his words but decided to hold it in as she remembered what Sungyeol said. Myungsoo was a frank type of person and not everything he said was the same meaning as what you think it was. “Couldn’t you tell? I rejected them cause of two simple reasons. One, I don’t even know most of them and two, I have someone I like.”

“Can you tell me how this girl is like? Or maybe your type?” Gayoung got curios of this girl, ‘she must be really special that he likes her so much’ she thought

"I like a girl who can look so innocent when you just look at her, but has this 4D type personality once you get to know her. I don't like very tall girls. I'd love it if she was way shorter than me. Someone simple and doesn’t really care what other people say. Her skin is not that dark but I definitely don't like white girls. Someone talented and who's energy can keep up with me”

Gayoung nodded understanding. ‘so he likes simple girls’

“I used to write her quotes, but someone kept claiming them as their own. I didn’t argue nor did I say anything else when I found out about it” Myungsoo’s face now held the expression she never liked, that unreadable expression of his. A sudden thought crossed her mind as his words finally sinked in. ‘But it’s impossible’ Gayoung thought, shaking her head, she tried shooing the thought away. “It’s what you’re thinking” Myungsoo spoke again, she looked at him. She was surprised, confused, and yet again, she was speechless

"I love you Park Gayoung” Myungsoo calmly said as if he was just stating a line from a book

“This is a joke right?” She wanted to hear that he was just doing this for fun, but nothing came.

“Tthe letters you used to receive... they... they weren't from Sungyeol. They were from me!” His voice was now having more feelings, feelings of anger, hatred and pain “I told him to give it to you but he claimed it as his own. I didn't know he liked you too back then, but I sacrificed my feelings! I thought I could get over you, but no! I loved you more without even knowing it myself!"

“I’m sorry but I think I need to leave now” Packing her things in a swift movement she left without looking back.

Myungsoo just sat there, looking far away, biting his lower lip, thinking if he was still in his right mind to tell her about it, or was he in his right mind to keep on liking someone so simple, someone who’s beauty was of average, someone who didn’t have fashion sense.

“That was a wrong move Kim Myungsoo” He whispered before standing up and started to walk home