“Hey, did you hear that? Oh Sehun’s friend is died. That one who always with him, you know right? Both are transfer students from Seoul. You really don’t know?” even the conversation I heard on the funeral that day felt so strange for both my ears to hear. It was cruel. She’s died. She left my side.

The tiktak sound of the clock on the wall brought shivers to my whole body which literally stopped each organ from working. No, it felt more like my heart has stopped working. To think that she’s no longer living in this world, to think that she has left my side, I can’t forget this.

Carefully taking off the needle that was injected to my body through the back of my hand, I slipped a shirt to my body. Yes, I was hospitalized. My parents sent me off to the hospital right after that girl’s funeral, thinking that I too need some treatment. But I don’t need one. Treating whatever they want, still, that girl will not comeback. Still, this kind of treatment will not cure me.

I dressed myself in a plain shirt and left the hospital without anybody knowing. I didn’t even care when people stared at me with that pity look. I didn’t care what people would think of me for crying like a jerk on my best friend’s funeral to the point that I needed to be dragged away to stop.

I stood in front of the place where we usually met, in front of the subway station. My heart collapsed once again. I kneeled the ground and cried all over again. I felt sorry. I was so sorry to the point that I, too, want to die. Lots of people passing by were staring at me, but I didn’t care. Some who recognized my face were “Isn’t it Oh Sehun?” to the others, but I didn’t care. I lost my passion in life. If only somebody cold take me away, I would be happier.

People started to gather around me, wondering if I was alright. “Listen, you might be having difficulties right now, but you should move on from whatever your problem is. That way you’ll live happier!” said someone. “Then somebody, please take me away to that interesting place called heaven. That way I would be much happier.”

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‘The next station is Jungangno, we’re heading to Jungangno station.’ Awakened by the announcement voice of the train, I immediately stood up and walked closer to the exit. The persons standing in front of me were literally competing to sit on my previous spot. I took off my uniform jacket realizing that the weather was too hot for one to wear a jacket. Slipping my phone off to the pocket on my school pant, I noticed something unbelievably weird. Why am I wearing a school uniform? Why am I inside a train? But believe it or not, someone who does not have good eye's vision would also notice that I am currently wearing a school uniform and standing inside a train.

“Hey”

I glanced at my phone and found out it was 9 o’clock in the morning. Not knowing what to do, I walked off to look for a seat before I heard a voice calling at my direction. That voice which I could never forget. My heart died a little when I recalled that voice, I’ve been missing that voice. Slowly, I turned my head around to look for the owner of that voice. I found a long-haired girl wearing exactly the same school uniform as mine standing close to me. She smirked at me.

“This is yours, right? You dropped it earlier.”

“…Yeoju…”

“What are you doing here standing like a stupid? What are you thinking about? Yah, why on earth I befriend with a blank guy like you…”

There was her who stood there lightly laughing at me. There was her who stood in front of me. Just like a dream. Although my heart was quietly crying, although I didn’t feel like I was conscious, never in my life I wished her to leave my side that time. It’s been awhile since the last time she stood in front of me. She passed my student ID card which apparently fell down from my pocket when I took my jacket off. It has my name and my picture on it.

“Sehun-ah, walk me to school. You’re okay even you’re late to class, right? I’m already late for the first subject so it would be okay if I just be late at all. You’ll accompany me, right?”

I hugged her. I buried my head on the crook of her neck, all of her scents. She whispered and pushed me back a little bit, but I was not ready to let her off yet. “Huh? What are you doing? Lots of eyes are on us! What are you thinking about? Why are you hugging me all of sudden? Oh Sehun! Get off of me! What if the others think we’re dating? I don’t want to date you! Oh Sehun!!” It took awhile to mesmerize the moment until I noticed the reason why I was there. Pretty much bull but the time did slip away to the day before the accident, to the day before her death. My head ached much. And I could not stop the tears from falling down. It was all like a dream; a dream which I wished never to stop.

“Oh Sehun you seriously…”

“...Sorry.”

“Forget it, let’s get off soon and head to school.” She said as she straightened her uniform. “You...are you crying?” Yeoju added as she took a glance of me.

“...”

“What is wrong with you today? Look, this is the first time I see you crying. What happened?”

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I hold her hand as we were walking of the station. “You’re died. You’re not supposed to be here. That’s the reason I cried.” I couldn’t let her slip away from my hand anymore. Given this chance to change our fate, I wouldn’t let her go like how it was supposed to be. I didn’t have the guts to. I couldn’t even send her off to school just like that knowing it was supposed to be her last day to live.

“I knew it right that you’re so going to mad at me when we meet.”

“...”

“I didn’t answer your call so I knew you’re going to mad at me, just like how you usually would be. Also! Jongin is feeling sorry anyway. You remember Jongin, right? The guy I’ve been together since elementary...he came all the way to Daegu so we hanged out together. It’s my fault that I didn’t pick your call, right? I really didn’t know…”

The day before she died, she told me this exactly the same sentence and I was arguing her for not answering my call. I honestly hate it when she didn’t call me or didn’t answer my call, or specifically, for just seeing me as a friend. The last we did this, I wasn’t forgiving her, but I’m not going to fight her back now. I want to kick my anger off to the trash bin. I want to do everything carefully now. It’s not like God would give me the second chance to change our fate so I’m gonna take things lightly. I could see she was a bit worrying that we would end up fighting like we always used to be. I nodded my head as she looked at me in the eyes. It’s okay. What’s the deal for us arguing, it’s nothing.

“It’s okay.”

“…Huh? You sure?”

“…It’s okay. Just don’t repeat it again next time. It’s okay.”

“Are you sure? Really really really sure? Are you really Oh Sehun?”

All the way she was making fun of me. She had a conversation all by herself while mouthing me how unbelievable I’ve been acting all this way. Once or twice she pulled her hand off my grip to cover while laughing over me, although I managed to grab her hand once again. Claiming that she likes the idea of me walking her off to school, she released her hand and clapped for once all by herself before asking if we could walk to school together everyday. She grabbed my hand and pulled me happily as soon as she saw me nodding my head. That was when I regained my consciousness. I was able to live once again.

“Do you know how our friends in Seoul call us now that we’ve moved here? They teased us in Daegu accent saying ‘Wah you guys are now Daegu people eh!’ hihi. Anyway I’m going for a vacation with mom and dad soon!”

“You’re going to Jeju, right?”

“…How do you know? Did I tell you already?”

“...”

“How do you know? I was going to tell you now but you...” she pouted but still, I didn't answer. I could not explain her the silly thing of me going back to the past in a bink of eyes.

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“We’re here, Sehun-ah. I’m going this way, study we-...”

“Can’t we just skip class?”

“But I’m...”

“Just today. Skipping classes only for today will do, right? Hm? Yeoju? Let’s skip school today, okay? Be by my side. Go play with me, hm?”

“Why...what’s wrong with you? Not going to study? Yah Oh Sehun, even though you don’t really care about your score, I do care, you know!”

“Let’s go and play with me, today.”

“No no no no way!”

“Just today.”

“Sehun-ah...”

“Am I not your friend? Can’t you just fulfill your best friend’s request?”

He looked serious so I couldn’t decline. “Just this time!” I mouthed him. This gonna be a big problem if my parents found out I’m skipping school. Never in my life had I skipped school before.