I'm sorry make you guys waiting for it...

actually i already wrote this fic 2 month ago... but guess what... i lost it... >..< like yesterday for God sake,,,

i'm sorry for my grammatical mistakes... it's the most important warning...

and of couse the spelling mistakes... i write this in a hurry... won't make you wait for too long...

Jong in walks in to Luhan’s room. waiting for his boyfriend patiently, they have a plan to go to the double date with Lay and Xiumin to night, but Luhan had a dance practice this afternoon and it’s make him felt tired and fell to sleep as he arrived his room. He just woke up about 10minutes ago, when Xiumin kicked Luhan out off his bed. Jong in looks around his lover’s room and smiling at the pictures on his desk and his wall. Remembered the memories they have before they debut until now. How before the training day Luhan was just a college student who came to Korea to studied, how hard it was for Jong in training for about six years before their debut. Or when Luhan was some one else property before Jong in, and how happy they are now as a couple. His smile more wide when he looks at the picture of both of them on Luhan’s desk, they were hugging each other and make a V sign at namsan tower, it was their one month anniversary and it still seems like tomorrow. They already dating for almost a year now, but for Jong in, they already date for ages.

But his smile gone when he finds a paper beside Luhan’s phone. He read the paper, and it was Sehun hand writing. Of course he remembers his best friend hand writing. But what was written on the paper makes his heart stopped beating. He frown and felt like his blood boiling inside his head

I found this sunshine in your eyes

Burning light and make my world seems brighter

I found this sprinkles of the life

Drawing a colorful line of love and grace

This is me whom can’t find a word to say

When my tongue felt numb by your beauty

This is my heart which can’t control the beats that beating high

When my blood seems go through the wrong direction when you are here

How I can say that I Like you

When the truth is I Love you

How can I see the sunshine

When my sunshine is you

OS ♥

He read the each of the words with a pang on his heart, his heart felt numb and his eyes felt like burning. He sit on the edge of Luhan bed with his head hanging low, he couldn’t believe what he just read. A love poem from Sehun for Luhan. What is this means

“Kai... Let's get some Buble teas on our way" Luhan coming to kai's room with his smile

Luhan’s voice brings Jong in back to reality, and without realize he let a single tears falls from his eyes. Seeing Jong in with teary eyes Luhan feel panicked and run towards Jong in

"what is that?" Luhan walk closer as Kai look at luhan with sad expresion

“why are you crying?” Luhan hold Jong in cheeks and brushed Jong tear, Jong in show the paper which already crumpled in his hand to Luhan

“what is this?” Jong in asks Luhan with his raspy voice

“you… you read it?” Luhan takes the papper and put it on his desk and hugs Jong in

“Do you still love Sehun?” Jong In ask Luhan when luhan losen his hug

Luhan bit his lips, look down to see Jong in’s eyes, he sigh before sitting down beside his boyfriend on is bed “I Loved Sehun” he say, Jong in hand suddenly felt so cold and his forehead sweat “Loved, not Love” Luhan smile at Jong in “that poetry was written a long time ago when we still in trainee. We get over it already, right? I have no feeling whatsoever towards him like what I have towards you now. We just bestfriend now” Luhan takes Jong in hand and hold it tight “I only have you now” jong in smile at Luhan and kiss Luhan forehead before hug him tight “I’m just afraid of losing you” jong in losen his hug

“you wont” Luhan smile at Jong in with his sprinkles eyes

Jong in look at luhan smiley Face and chuckle at his cuteness, he takes Luhan’s face in his hand pull him close and kissing him slowly and give some pecks on Luhan’s pouty lips “I Love you” he say then he pull the giggled Luhan for another kiss

****

I found this sunshine in your eyes

Jong in sit on the living room floor, cross his legs and his back pressed to the couch, he is listening to the new song which he try to make a dance move on his head. He closes his eyes as he seems to get inspiration from the song. After a moment he opens his left eye when he smell luhan’s cologne in his nostrils,  Luhan plopped on the couch above jong in and stare at Jong in with a smile on his lips. Jong in sparing his boyfriend a small smile and take off one of his earphones in order Luhan ask him something.

The things that make him surprise is Luhan not asking Jong in any questions, he just snapped jong in Mp3 and crawling on the floor and lie on Jong in lap with a cute humph sound.

“Kai” Luhan call Jong in who try to plug in again his earphone on his Mp3

“hmm?” Jong in just respond with a hum

“Jong In” Luhan snapped his Mp3 again

“yes princess?” Jong in try to reach the Mp3 player on Luhan’s hand

“kkamjong!!” Luhan threw away the mp3 and sit up, facing Jong in with pouty face

“yes sweetheart?” Jong to get up to pick the Mp3 player that Luhan threw across the room, Luhan pull Jong in down before he can fully get up from the floor

“pay attention to me” Luhan whining at jong in who just chuckles at Luhan child act

“I need to remember the song for my dance move honey” Jong peck Luhan’s lips and get up once to pick the abandon Mp3 player on the other side of the room

Luhan let a huft sound and go back to sit on the couch while Jong in come back to sit on the floor. Luhan just look at jong in with disappointed eyes, and choose to play with jong in hair instead.

After 5 minutes Jong in turn off his Mp3 player and pull Luhan closer to kiss him, who still pout at jong in. When Jong in lips touch Luhan’s, he finally find his smile back and respons to Jong in kiss

“I’m sorry. I make you upset” jong in take a break from the kiss and look at Luhan’s eyes

“Ok” Luhan say as he comes forward for another kiss

As they kiss Luhan sometimes will open his eyes and look at Jong in eyes, and close his eyes again when Jong in slipped his tongue inside Luhan’s. Luhan’s eyes shining bright whenever he is happy or doing something that makes him exited. Like sunshine, like what sehun loves about Luhan’s eyes, like what Jong in loves about Luhan’s eyes.

Burning light and make my world seems brighter

****

I found this sprinkles of the life

Jong in plays with Chanyeol in their waiting room. Luhan’s still have his hair do because he just arrive from the photo shoot with Exo-M members. Luhan watched Jong in through the moror and smile at him, even though Jong in don’t realize. Luhan move his gaze towards his schedule papers, learning the detail and try to understand the rules. But, it seems that Luhan can’t understand some of the words written on the papers. He takes a glance at Jong in who still in his own world with Chanyeol, he sighs and look at back to his papers. Sehun come to sit beside Luhan’s chair and look at Luhan who get a smile from the letter

“Sehunnie, help me. I don’t understand this” Luhan show Sehun his paper and explain about the things he confuse about. It is not a strange view to ask the other member or act cute around. And Sehun and Luhan relationship is way too close, so seeing they becomes Lovey Dovey not a rare view before, even JOng in didn’t care much about it. But now, heard Luhan called Sehun Name snapped jong in, he look at both of them with frowning, he felt a pang of jealous towards them

Jong in stand up and come to approach Luhan and Sehun who’s to occupy with one another.

“What are you guys talking about” jong in ask at the two people in front of him with smug face

“I don’t understand some of the words in here” Luha try to explain at Jong in who take the paper from Sehun’s hand

“ask me instead” Jong in take Luhan wrist and pull him to sit on the chair at the corner of the room, sehun just left dumbfounded look at the couple.

Jong in afraid that he takes the anger too much that may be he hurt Luhan. Look at Luhan, Jong in just find the happy Luhan reading the paper in silent. He let out a relief sigh

“hey Lu…” luhan take a glance at jong in and humming

“I’m sorry” Jong in hugs Luhan’s shoulder and place his head on luhan’s crown

“for what” Luhan looks at Jong in with frowning eyebrow

Jong in don’t anything instead he peck luhan on the lips and grinning widely

“OH MY GOD… JUST GET A ROOM PLEASE… oh my poor eyes” Baekhyun shout at them and they just giggles at their sassy friend

Luhan is like a gift for him, a beautiful creature ever born in this world. His kindness, his pure heart, his smile, are the best things he ever wish for his life. Luhan indeed a perfect one.

Drawing a colorful line of love and grace

****

This is me whom can’t find a word to say

This is the first time EXO got their outing after their promoted days, they agreed to go to the Zoo because Baekhyun, Tao and Luhan want to look some tigers, jaguar, penguin and giraffe. Joong in knows that Luhan love jaguar and tiger. He even asked jong in to buy him one before and persuade Kris to let him raise it in the Dorm, Baekhyun supported that idea, and his stupid boyfriend Chanyeol agreed with Luhan also. Of course Kris won’t allow it and Suho felt so scared when Luhan and Baekhyun gives them silent treatment.

On the Zoo, Luhan, Baekhyun, Tao, Chanyeol and Sehun running straight to the jaguar cage. They shouting loud at thejaguar and makes a lot of attention centered on them.

“Waaauuu~~~uung” Baekhyun tried to make growling sound which sound terrible and Chanyeol come along copied Baekhyun to make growling sound

“that one is so cute~~~” Tao whining like a girl that make normal people will felt strange to look at

“I want to raise one of them” Luhan trailed the cage in excitement “let’s get one Sehunnie” sehun just laugh at his silly hyung

“should we kind of steal one?” Sehun play along receive a exited nods from Luhan

On the other hand Jong in stay with Suho and kyungsoo play with the snake. When Chen takes the snake from the guide and chased Lay who screaming at Chen. Xiumin Come and take the snake away saving his boyfriend and come back to Chen as he hit Chen on his shoulder hard who cried in pain. Remember to keep a note in jong in head to not make a mess with Lay or Xiumin or his shoulder will broke from Xiumin power.

Jong in eyes scan the court to find a particular person. But his calm attitude suddenly change when he find the person he looks for.

Sehun is back hugging Luhan who Laughing along with Baekhyun. The Hug don’t last long, it’s just a hug that will look like a friendship gesture only in other people eyes. But in Jong in opinion, it make his heart felt uncomfortable.

Jong in think that maybe Luhan love Sehun hugs, because Luhan often hugs Sehun when they are jokes along. Luhan and Sehun always played along before they were dating, when they were dating, or after they broke up, they still get along. And Jong in felt insecure with this situation.

Jong lost in his mind, thinking about any possibilities Luhan will leave him to comeback to Sehun again. He closes his eyes and try to calm his anger. To occupy in his thought, Jongin don’t realize that Luhan running towards him with full as speed make him stumble back, and almost lost his balance when Luhan jump and hugs his neck. When he found his balance he secures his hand around Luhan waist and lift him slightly.

“we have to raise the jaguar baby” Luhan whisper to Jong in’s ear

Jong in pull away and look at Luhan brown eyes “Kris will kill you” he lose his hug and let Luhan step on the ground

Luhan pouted at Jong in “we will not live with Kris forever” Luhan then smile and lean to hug Jong in again “we will raise it when we buy our own house”

Jong in chuckled hearing Luhan dream, his heart beats a bit please to know that Luhan have Jong in in his future dream house. Jong In ruffle Luhan’s hair and give him a lovely smile “okey” Luhan smile grow wider and he jump like a child and run to Baekhyun, maybe told him that he will raise a jaguar baby latter.

When my tongue felt numb by your beauty

****

This is my heart which can’t control the beats that beating high

Luhan lie on his bed like a lifeless fish. His eyes seem swollen. Jong panicked, and walk closer to Luhan. Luhan feel Jong in presence and start to teary again.

“what’s wrong?” kai asking, he hugs luhan and caress his redden check

“Sehun”

Sehun?

Jong in froze for a moment and continue to caress luhan’s cheeks again “what’s wrong with Sehun?” Jong in ask with his hopefully normal tone

“I think he was mad at me” Luhan hugs Jong in and fist jong in shirt looking for a comfort “I forget that I have a promise with him yesterday” Jong in tight his Hug “he was waiting for me. And this morning he won’t talk to me”

Jong in just nodded heard Luhan story “it will be fine. Sehun can’t mad at you for long” Jong bit his lip suppress his jealous  “you just need to say sorry and buy him a bubble tea” jonng lose the hug and kiss Luhan fore head

“emm” Luhan jump from the bed and get out from the room leave a jealous Jong in fist his hand. He wants to scream at Luhan and slap him. Told him to not cry for another man, he is his and he cans just crying because of him. but he afraid that Luhan will leave him if he did that.

He felt anxious. Thinking about Luhan and Sehun relationship make him go back to that memory when Sehun and Luhan still together and Jong in just stand on the corner to envy of them. He doesn’t understand their relationship at all. Why did Luhan have to care so much about Sehun and why did Sehun loves go near Luhan even though they already broke up along time ago.

Do Luhan still have a feeling for sehun?

When my blood seems go through the wrong direction when you are here

****

How I can say that I Like you

Knowing Luhan for years, Jong in had known that he is a clumsy idiot. He will tripped on nothing, or sometimes he will hit his head to the table. He often has to argue with Kris when Luhan cried in pain, Jong in want Luhan to go home, but Kris will asked him to stay instead. And no mention that Luhan also a stubborn one. Even if Kris asks him to stay, he won’t let him practice, but being Luhan he is, he still practice.

 Like today, when Luhan clumsily tripped on the floor and hurt his leg. He still want to continue to practice even when the manager told him to rest. And it is what’s make Jong in have the old face.

“No” Jong in tell him to sit and watch but Luhan gives him a puppy act “just rest for a while until your leg feel better”

“I’m Ok” Luhan say firmly showing his leg “I promise to take care of my self”

“NO” Kai shout at Luhan that make Luhan flinch, al the member turn their attention to the couple and give Luhan sign to just listen to Jong in

“But…” Luhan lower his voice

“who do you think have the right act now?” Jong in let his anger out, he is too worried to his elder lover to let him hurt himself more “if you have watched where you were walking, you won’t tripped and sprain your ankle and hurt your…”

“jong in stop” Sehun stopped Jong in further “You make Luhan scared” Sehun pull Luhan to him and lead him to sit at the corner of the room

“and who are you do you think you are?” Jong in face felt so hot in anger “you just his ing ex- and you acted like you are his boy friend?” all the other gasp at Jong in “I’m his boyfriend and you will not get him back to you as long as i…” jong in realize that he is too far now, looking around to see that the other member felt uncomfortable with his act, even Luhan already crying.

Feeling too stupid and lost Jong in step back and try to get out from the room “I’m sorry” he say before get out from the room

Luhan just stare at Jong in who walk away from the room, he doesn’t what to do. He look at Sehun and hold his hand, sehun look down at Luhan “ your boyfriend seem cute” Sehun swept Luhan tears and smile at him “go. catch him” Sehum pull Luhan up and push him lightly

Luhan looking for Sehun in each corner of SM building, he felt so afraid that he may hurt Jong in. but he more afraid to losing him more. Luhan running around and his ankle sprain mores and his leg feel numb. Not to mention he is to tired to even walk. Leaning against the wall he try to catch his breath.

“you shouldn’t running” Luhan snapped up and see jong in walking up to him “you’ll hurt your legs and ankle more” Luhan just smile and he let a single tears falling to his cheek

“I’m sorry” Luhan mumble “I am so childish, I am so stubborn, I am an idiot. I should’ve listened to you, I shouldn’t…” place his lips on Luhan Jong in kiss Luhan with slow motion

“I’m the one who should say sorry” he pull apart and hold luhan wet cheeks “I shouldn’t said that mean words towards you or Sehun” he put their forehead together “I’m sorry. I think I am just jealous”

Luhan giggle hearing Jong in excuse “emmm” luhan lean forwards and hug Jong in

“Kai… I Love you” Luhan look up “and I will always Love you” JOng in sigh and hold Luhan more tight in his embrace

“I know” Jong in losen his hug to take Luhan in his arm and lift him bridal style, Luhan let out a small gasp “I Love you more”

When the truth is I Love you

****

How can I see the sunshine

The road feels so crowded. Jong in just finish his schedule with D.O and Baekhyun in Music bank. He tries to sleep and relax his sore body because of to much activity this week. And his other already gone to dream along times ago. He look out the window and see Luhan’s poster hanging on one of the cosmetic shop, he thought how lucky he is to have that beautiful deer in his life, but then he sees the other poster which he assume brought by Hunhan fans. He knows that Hunhan sipper is the famous fansite  in EXO. But still, he felt a slight pang of jealous whenever their fans forced his boyfriend to do a Lovey Dovey with his Lover Ex-.

He heard a tone comes from his phone he looking for his phone inside his bag when the tone already dies. He is shocked at the amount of missed calls on his phone and messages from his fellow members. Maybe they tried to call him when he was still Mc-ing the show.

Not interest to look at the messages he just call kris who just called him a moment ago.

“Hello dhuizzang? “ Kris answered the call right away

“Kai!! Where are you? Why the hell you are still not reached the dorm yet? Oh God”  Kris depression voice can be heard from the other line

“I’m still on my way hyung” Jong in say “and why did…”                                         

“is that Jong in?” Jong in can hear Sehun voice on the other line “Yes! And calm down that ing deer Now!” Kris shouted at Sehun who sound like he is running away

Luhan

“Hyung?” Jong in call Kris once again

“please get home sooner, or I will die from depression before I found my mate” Kris desperately sigh “your deer said that he felt sick and won’t allow any one touched him, he even throw a  mug to Chen”

“KAI~~~~” Jong in heard Luhan Voice on the other line “Hyung put that vas down” Sehun Voice sound so scared “you’ll killed Chanyeol with that”

“please… please bring back your over here sooner or we all will die from your wild deer” Kris say as he cut the line and left Jong in felt anxious

Luhan is sick, but he was still alright last night. I should’ve checked him before I go this morning damn

Jong in felt worried at Luhan, he ask Manager hyung to drive faster and wake his other hyungs up. He sometimes shouts at the manager when they slow down or seem not focuse.

“oh God Kai is here” Chanyeol shout at the other member and they lead Jong in to Luhan’s Room

“why are you so long?” Luhan whinning at Jong in when he stepped in

“the traffic-“ Jong in words are cuts when he heard the door open and a lot of foot step can running out

“are you ok?” jong in walks to Luhan’s bed and lie down to hugs Luhan who lying on his bed

“my stomach hurt” Luhan lean closer to jongin as he rubs his stomach

“what’s wrong?” jong in rubs Luhan’s back in circle motion to make Luhan relax a bit

“I think I eat the left over from last night” luhan look up at Jong in “it’s poisoned”

Jong in chuckled at Luhan Cuteness, he peck luhan’s lips and get up from the bed, heading to the kitchen and warm p the milk. Luhan loves to drink milk when he feel unwell, either it is because of a cold, fever, small pain, nightmare, or anything that makes him feel uncomfortable. Of course all Jong in need is warm the milk and it will lit up Luhan’s face.

“are feeling better?” Jong in asking luhan who drink the warm milk with his wide eyes

Luhan answer him with a small smile and a nod, as he put the milk on his desk

“let’s cuddle” Luhan open his arm and jong in chuckle at Luhan

After a moment playing with jong in left hand, he push himself up and pick his phone.

“what are you doing?” jong in raise one of his eyebrow looking at his boyfriend

“asking where is the other member” Luhan say with grin

“they were running away from you” Jong in look at Luhan wide eyes “you were a bit scary”

luhan put back his phone and hug Jong in “because you are not here. I need my milk”

“you can asked the other members” you can asked Sehun

“but they were not you. I want you, so I can cuddles with you after I finished my milk” Luhan titled his face to see Jong in face

Jong in stare at Luha playful eyes and sigh at him. he look at that beautiful brown eyes ans see his own reflection inside. He felt stupid to doubt Luhan’s love for him just because of a paper of poetry. He felt insecure maybe, because he was afraid of losing this perfect person.

So what’s if Luhan and Sehun dated before? They broke up already. So what if Luhan Loved Sehun before? He loves Jong in now. That time was already gone, it is already change to another one. Luhan is his, and he will make sure to keep this deer safe in his arm.

Jong in lowered his head to capture luhan lips in a deep kiss, he cupped Luhan cheeks and kiss him hard. Luhan let out a low moan when JOng in slipped his tongue inside Luhan’s mouth and explore his warm cavern, there’s still milk taste in Luhan’s mouth which make Jong in smile and deepen the kiss more

“I Love you” Jong in say panting from the heated kiss “and I don’t know what to with you?”

“just kiss me” Luhan say in low seduce tone make Jong in giggle and lean for another kiss

When my sunshine is you

a.n / it gets way too long... it didn't take this long before... but when i try to re write a gain the story, my brain seems get's more bigger than before... >.<

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