I woke up and see this strange man beside me s*** i cursed in my mind i hurriedly dress myself and drove back to "our"

yes i have a boyfriend he suggested that we should live together i agreed we've benn together for half a year now

i really don't know what had gotten in me last night i was really drunk i checked my phone and i got 10 missed calls from you

how am i going to explain this to him

i'm crying right now i don't know what's gonna happen to me when he chose to break up with me

(of course he would break up with you)

here i am coming closer to our house im really nervous right now

i wipe my tears and let myself be more calm

this is it i opened the door and went to our bedroom i stumbled by our things luckily you didn't wake up

i stare at your face and caressed it (im gonna miss this) and then you woke up

you looked at me and i can't think of anything but just to lie i don't want to lose you my chanyeollie

you asked me if im okay because i was crying right now Guilts is driving me crazy now

then after sometime we go to the living room and put your arms in my shoulder and ask me what's going on

why? why? don't you see the guilt in me and then i look up at you

you we're smiling and it's just making it worse  i wanna see that smile forever but...... i gotta tell you

(Chanyeol?) you asked.  yes?  (what if i did something wrong that you wont ever forgive me)  how can you tell ? come on say it maybe it's not that bad

(chanyeollie....... i made out with some stranger but believe me i was drunk i didn't mean it)   ........

you looked away and the pull your arms away from my shoulder i cried at that but what's the next scene that you did was shocking

 

 

you hugged me and and tell me that it's okay as long as i've said the truth that literally make me cried more because ho can you forgive me that easily when what i've done is wrong and then you said to me

relationship is not about measuring one's another mistake it's about trust and love only i know that i shouldn't forgive you easily but i saw that you really didn't mean that that's why i forgive you and eversince that time you woke me up i knew something happen i can see it but what am i going to do i really love you and i can't let you go .

i was happy but the guilt is still there in me and im sorry

it's okay atleast im your first , second hmpfffff

i shut him,  already embarrassed about it atleast he's still my first .

 

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ahhhhhhh im sorry this is my first time writing hope you like it

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