Hi ...

My name is Jessica Jung, but others call me the Lonely Angel.

I do not know why the first place? But maybe because I'm a loner.

"Jessica, are you daydreaming again?" Called Nana, my Guardian Angel.

"Omo! Sicca, you cry! No wonder there is heavy rain on the earth. What is it? "

"I'm okay ..." I lied as she pressed me my seat.

"Liar! Not usually you're crying ... And if viewed from the rain, it looks like you're .. Sad? Angry? Disappointed? What is it? "Said Nana excited.

"I ... Loneliness ...." I said resignedly.

"I am sad to see each other Angel was looking dish to see the people who missed them on Earth ... I'm .. Jealous .... "

"Why? usually not envy one another Angel ... "Nana uajr soft.

"I was ... Alone .. I do not have anyone .... Nothing to lose me ... "I said softly, sadly once accept this reality.

"Hey ... Somebody must have lost your .. Lots! You're a pretty girl, good and interesting, sicca ... "Nana hugged me tightly.

"Liar! The proof I was alone! lonely! always alone ... "I cry more softly.

"I'll prove to you that there is someone .. No. .. much ... The loss and miss you on Earth .... "Nana said.

"But how?" I asked confused.

"I will be sending back to Earth ..." Nana said firmly.

"But I'm not much for a long time on Earth .. Here is more comfortable .. I'm not so lonely .. at least, I have you .... "I sighed.

Nana hugged me tightly, smiling sweetly, compassionate angelic smile.

"You know, someday you will be very pretty when ayng angel wings have the white and wearing a dress like me .." murmured Nana.

"But when?" I asked impatiently.

"Later .. current affairs on Earth you are finished .. When you meet someone who kehilanagn mu .. People who make you feel lonely ... "Nana said softly.

"Oh ... Come on .. I do not want to go back to Earth .... "I gently refused.

"Get down .. I promise, this will not be long .. Once you load your lost, you will eventually come back here .... "Nana said assured.

"You sure?" I asked doubtfully.

"Not just sure, I promise!"

# # #

Ah ...

Nana actually lowered me into the Earth. To Los Angeles, where I used to live. Annoying!

but at least, she had to change my clothes into clothes that are more fashioanble than my own first.

Omo, wait a minute ... That ... That I?

Been a long time I did not reflect, at least, since I became Angel.

But, look at that girl ... Beautiful One! truly angels!

It's just .. Why do I feel it's very cold face huh? There was no warmth in his eyes, not like Nana.

No! I am the angel of the beautiful but creepy?

Haa ... horrible! Krystal I do not want to see me like this! Shee would scream scene, just like Nana.

Wait a minute, Krystal. What's she doing? Been a long time, since my death, I do not see it.

Dids he ever miss me? Onnie is always considered useless. Of course if she is always alone I compare this with the model of her idol, Kwon Yuri.

Umma and Appa news how ya? What they miss me? Miss me?

Ah ... Surely not .. I do not mean anything to them ... Not like Krystal, a child they can be proud.

Which could be a good athlete and sports like them. Not like me, children do not do anything, other than singing. The most I liked, but did not get support from anyone.

Ah .... I cried again .. and see ... cloudy again ...

Oh, Heaven, please ... Do not ever cry for me! Let me cry alone ....

Whack!

"Ah ... I'm so sorry ...." I said to a black-haired girl with blond tip that I hit.

"Mianhae. ... I'm a hit you first ...." Said the girl with the typical Korean accent.

"Gee, You're Korean too? what's your name? "I asked eagerly.

"My name Jung .... Omo! Jessica-onnie "cried the girl was shocked.

Oh No! she ... She's Krystal.

"You okay?" I asked, distracted.

"Oh .. Mianhae .... Onnie lot like my older sister, Jessica-onnie ... "Krystal said, embarrassed.

"My name Jung Krystal, Onnie's name who?"

"My name ... my name .. Jung Sooyeon .... "I lied, I think it's easier to use the name Jung.

"Your sister must be so pretty huh?"

"Oh ... Sooyeon-onnie .... She was really beautiful .... "Krystal muttered softly.

"Was?"

"Yeah ... Onnie me, is dead ...." I could see the grains of the tears roll down her cheek.

"Oh ... I'm so sorry ..." I said quietly, not wanting to make me crying because my sister.

"Oh .. It's okay, onnie ... "Krystal said kindly.

"Onnie live here too?"

"Not .. I do not live here .... My guide left me here .. he seemed to forget ... ... "I said, trying to be honest, anyway my Nana was left in place.

"But tomorrow they will come here again ... I'll wait till tomorrow."

"Onnie, what if Onnie come home with me?" Said Krystal.

"Do not bother? "I asked confused.

"Not really ... Anyway, Umma and Appa would love to see Onnie, because similar Onnie with their child wass gone ...." Krystal said cheerfully.

"Not that you're the pride of their children?" I asked.

Ooomo! I slipped out. Jessica basis, Babo!

Krystal must wonder why I could know everything.

"Not ... Jessica-onnie also often think that way .. -onnie but Jessica was their pride, they are always bragging everywhere ... "Krystal said with a sigh.

"Onnie, let's ride the bus to my house!"

# # #

"Annyeonghaseyo .... I'm home ... .. "

"Aigoo .. Krystal, let's get Umma is pre ... "

Prang!

Umma bowl that held the floor falling apart.

"Omo! Jessica? "Shrieked shocked Umma, but I could see the joy radiating from her eyes.

"Not ... Mianhae ... Jung Sooyeon but my name .... "I lied.

Umma, I'm sorry to lie to you .. Sorry ...

"Oh .. Mianhae ... but you look a lot like our daughter, Jessica ... She was a long time to die .... "Umma said as she my face gently.

"It's just that you're more beautiful ..."

Omo! How do I hide my tears?

Damn! So heavy rain outside right now?

"Omo! You're crying ... I'm sorry kaan ... "full of remorse Umma said as she wiped my tears.

"Ah .. I'm okay ... I just miss my Umma ... "I said honestly.

"Umma, Sooyeon-onnie should stay right here tonight? Guide her last leave them alone .. Tomorrow afternoon pick a new one ... "begged Krystal.

"Besides, I miss once in sicca-onnie ... and they are very similar .."

What? Krystal miss me? Happy! Nana means not lying to me.

"Of course ... Sooyeon-ah, you can occupy Jessica's room, you can also wear clothes if you want to change clothes ... clothes definitely fit for you ...." Umma said, smiling.

Omo! God, why did I feel over their loss than when I lived then?

"Onnie, let's go upstairs!" Said Krystal.

"Excuse me ..." I said goodbye to the Umma.

I followed the Krystal to the top floor of his house, my house! Not much changes. Krystal rooms except that once "barbie like" morphed into today's teen style.

"This room-onnie Jessica's ... Onnie should wear it ..." Krystal said as she opened the door of my room.

"Rest alone .. later when it's time to eat mala, I will call Onnie ... "

"Gomawo ..." I said kindly as she opened the door of my room.

Haaa .... Still the same as before. My closet. My bed. My doll!

My dresser is full?

Omo! Krystal is still putting make up my favorite here! and all this, still new.

Gomawo Krystal ha ... .. You're very kind ....

It's waiting,


This is my photo with .... with ....

"It's Heechul-Oppa ... Poor him, until now he still thinks jessica onnie decided their engagement just ... "said Krystal.

"WHAT?" Shrieked shocked my greeting to Krystal.

"Onnie, why?" Krystal asked, confused.

"No ... I'm just surprised ..." I lied.

"They're perfect yes?" Krystal said as she mengusapwajah me in that picture.

"It looks like ...." I said sadly.

"So? What really happened between them? "

"Ah ... .. Mianhae I've been presumptuous .... " I shame.

"It's okay .. I did want to tell Onnie .. "says Krystal.

"Heechul-oppa-old fiancee Jessica onnie, fitting a week before their wedding day, Heechul-oppa back to Korea ..

He intends to pick up his parents to come to their wedding, but unfortunately, his Visa had problem ...

It took 2 months to complete ..

Jessica-onnie think Heechul-oppa just left her after a week of no news ..

And Heechul-oppa did not contact Onnie because he lived in remote areas ...

in short, when Heechul-oppa back here ... All of it was too late ..

Heechul-oppa misunderstanding, when Appa-onnie said Jessica was gone, he thought Onnie went with Donghae-oppa, a former lover first Onnie ..

Though Onnie died ... and the Donghae-oppa, even reportedly course we've never know ... "

"Omo! Sicca Babo! Babo! " I cursed o myself.

"Onnie, why?" Krystal asked, confused.

"Ah ... Mianhae ... I have been very presumptuous ..." My shame, again.

"No ... really ... Jessica Onnie-onnie was really stupid!" Said Krystal.

"Girls, dinner is ready!" Umma calling from below.

"Onnie, let's go down!"

# # #

"You! Who are you? How dare you wear my daughter! My Jessica! My Ice princess! "

Omo! That sounds Appa! He had gone home? That was quick ...

"Hey! Remove the clothes my daughter! "Appa was really mad.

He pulled me away from the table and almost slapped me.

"Omo! Jes .. Jes .. Jessie? Sicca? Jessica? "Appa seemed genuinely surprised to see me.

"Appa! Let go! He's my friend! His name Sooyeon-onnie .. "behind Krystal.

"Oh ... Mianhamnida ... I .. I...... you look a lot like my daughter ... She was dead .... "Appa murmured softly.

What? Even Appa also feel sad? I really terrific!

"I'm really sorry ..." I said sadly.

"Sorry I'm not ... I'm so lost ... I feel can not be a good father to her ..." Appa said softly.

"No ... you would have to be a very good father to Jessica .." I countered.

"No ... I wish I was not too busy and often left the family .. If only I could not make Jessica feel wasted ... I'm definitely not going to lose her ... "Appa regret.

"I used to rarely at home, Jessica was so wasted ... It's all our fault ..." Umma said.

"Never mind ... but right now you guys have never left the house in a long time ..." Krystal pieces.

"It's  because we do not want to lose you, too, Krystal."

# # #

    Jessica, I'm sorry ...

    I have to go back to Korea, this is very important ...

    I'll definitely be back before you miss me ...

    I have to go .. sorry ..

    Farewell my beautiful lover.

    Kim Heechul.

I riped letter from Heechul-oppa and me thrown into the trash.

Pshaw! I've thought!

Sooner or later, he would also not leave me, just like the others.

I was worthless, useless and meaningless ..
I also unattractive, unpleasant and cold ... ....

What? The proof?

Appa and Umma always leave me .. For works .. For Krystal ..

All for the sake of Krystal .. Wherever and whenever, they go, always a proud Krystal.

Whatever Krystal does and desire, always agreed, even unaccompanied.

try me?

My birthday or graduation they FORGET!

Friends?

I have no friends here .. Because AKu minorities in this country of Caucasians ..

Boyfriend?

You know, my fiance has just dumped me from his life.

GREAT!
I'm to be like before .. Alone and Lonely ..

Huu ..

it feels painful, when others around you are surrounded in love and attention, but you do not feel the same at all.

Sad, when you're in a crowdbut You're alone and lonely ..

Haaa ... ..

Ah, my anti-depressants! Man he is my anti-depressants! I have to drink it ..

Wait .. It's the effect I'm going to sleep or lost consciousness right?

What if I drink it all? 50 pills?

It seems to be interesting!

I no longer need to feel the loneliness and solitude is, FOREVER!

Come on, Jessica Jung! You can certainly finish them ...

I swallow all the pills and a bottle of water.

Suddenly, my body feels light and floating ... floating ...

and peace ...

# # #

"Onnie, Mianhae .. but I can not take you to the place yesterday ... I have a date with Minho ... "Krystal said while bowing.

"Minho was your boyfriend?" I guess.

"Oh .. Ne ... Onnie, once again I'm sorry ... "said Krystal.

"It's Ok .. I do know the way there ... "I said.

"Onnie, mianhae .. I'll see you again .... "Krystal said, waving her hand goodbye.

"Hopefully ..." I said softly.

"Have Fun!"

Huh ... Krystal had a boyriend ...

Feeling, just a year ago I left, but now, she looks grown up ..

Aigo .... I'm getting lonely .. SAD but, why shortness in my heary disappear?

Could this be the mean of Nana's words?

Ah ... I dunno ...

There are other street! Been a long time I did not see it.

"Miss, do you want to sing for me?" Asked the singers suddenly.

"Eh? I am? "I asked confused.

"Yeah .. You .. One Year Later Will sing for me? "Begged the singer.

I finally nodded. After all, I really love to sing. Moreover, the song, the song seems appropriate to me ...

    It feels like I've been dreaming for a long time
    I've wandered and wandered around for a while
    As if We made a promise
    Standing here in front of each other like that day from four seasons ago

    Those beautiful stories That We wrote down together
    Those eternal promises That We prayed for at That time
    They're all coming back to me now and I do not think my heart can take it
    I've even restrained myself at the thought of you
    How has your one year been?

    For a long time, I've been living, having forgotten of you
    For a while, I thought I was doing fine
    However I started to realize it as time passed by
    That I am nothing without you
    At That time, if only We had been a bit more mature

    If only We Knew How We would be right now
    I have no confidence in Overcoming these endless regrets
    So I've had to just repress Them
    One year has passed like that

    Perhaps your feelings Could be the same as mine?
    Will you give me another chance?
    I Know Now That We Can never part from each other
    The one person I love and love again

    I wish We can go back to our first days
    To the beautiful, happy and loving days
    Those heart-breaking stories and vain arguments
    Just bury all of That now
    And promise That We will not take them out again
    No matter how many seasons pass and how many years go by
    I Hope that We will not meet again like today

"Jessica?" Called a man from behind me.

"Ne?" I replied spontaneously.

"Jessica? you really Jessica? Oh, God, Thank you, "cried the man, hugging me tightly.

"So .. sorry ... "I said, pushing her body.

"Heechul-oppa?"

Fabulous! Wonders what this is? I'm with Heechul-oppa!

"Where have you been this year?" Heechul-oppa asked when we were alone.

"I ... I went ..." I said quietly.

"Why did you leave me alone?" Heechul-oppa asked softly.

"I'm .. I do not mean to leave you ... "I replied.

"But you go with Donghae!" Interrupted Heechul-oppa.

"I do not go with him, Babo!" Said my annoyance.

"No? then you anywhere this year? "Heecgul-oppa looks really confused.

"I told you, I'm going!" I said curtly.

"But where? Why did not you tell me? I can not follow you ... "forced Heechul-oppa.

"I'm .. I went to a place that you could not reach! "I said irritably.

"Yeah .. Where? I definitely will follow you! "Forced Heechul-oppa again, this time as he gripped my shoulder.

"I went to Heaven!" I snapped.

"I'm death D E A T H! Are you satisfied? "

"So ... so when your father ..." Heechul-oppa stammered.

"Appa said, I go .. and point it to HEAVEN, Babo! "I said, softening, while menggetok his head gently.

"But ... but why?" Asked Heechul-oppa already tears.

"I'm .. I'm ... I was a fool that time ... "I said, smiling bitterly.

"But .. but ... If You're already dead .. Why are you ...? "Heechul-oppa looked nervous as she pointed me.

"I ... I wanted to convey something to people who lost me ...." I said softly.

"Heechul-oppa, I LOVE YOU. ..." I shouted as I am pulling him toward me, and kissed his lips.

Without my knowing it, tears are streaming down my cheeks.

"Sicca, why are you lost? Sicca, are you going? "Heechul-oppa panic when my body seemed to fade.

"Heechul-oppa, Saengil Chukkahae .. Saranghae Mianhae ... ... "

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