It has been two weeks since you broke up with your boyfriend Kris. He wasn’t just a boyfriend to you; he was your only friend, your family, your love……….

your everything.

Flashback

 Two weeks ago,

 Kris has been distance he didn’t come to home often and when he come he will just eat and go to sleep without saying much,  you couldn’t ask him the reason because you were afraid that he will get angry at you or maybe leave you so you just keep quiet; he was playful sweet to you but know he become cold and strange even when he smile to you sometimes, it wasn’t that genius cute smile that you love or the look he give you that was full with love and admiration,  now his eyes was empty cold  to you. You Feel like you are a burden to him he come to your condo and smile to you just because he feel sorry day by day you feel lonely empty tired so you decide it was the best to talk with him maybe something burden him in work, maybe he was tired of you or………. maybe he have another women in his heart.

 It was 11 pm when you heard the door open you know it was Kris you were waiting for him in the living room he walk in with his suit hanging on his arms, his tie loosened, and his shirt sleeves rolled up to his elbows, looking very tired, he walked pass you without saying anything, you hesitated to follow him but you have to talk to him you have to understand why he changed so after a minutes you follow him to the bedroom he was already in bed closing his eyes but you know he wasn’t sleeping so you called his name softly “Kris …” you waited but you heard nothing

so you decide to continue the talk:

 “Kris, can we talk?” You asked.

 After these words slipped from your mouth Kris open his eyes and look at you he took a deep breath before saying “ Hayley we should break up “ after you heard these words you were shocked you felt your eyes getting watery but you blink the tears back . “What did I do wrong? Tell me maybe I can change it?”You tried to convince him.

“It’s not you. It’s me.”He said without looking at you 

 “Why… Don’t you love me anymore?”You whispered quietly as deeply gazed at Kris.

“I don’t know anymore. I’m sorry but I don’t want to hurt you anymore”He sincerely said after stayed silent for few minutes. You stared at him in pain; your heart broke after he said that you feel miserable and fragile as ever. After that you couldn’t say anything, you just watch him as he packs his thing and after that he left you alone again in this cold silent and dark apartment.

 Later that night you stayed awake with eyes swollen from crying too much.

And just like that your relationship with him gone…..

End of flashback

You sigh as you get up from the bed, you feel your troth dry because of crying too much last night so you decide to drink some water, it’s was 5pm, it’s still early but you can’t sleep,

 You can’t keep your mind from thinking,

 Thinking about him,

 Kris.

You walk to the kitchen, opening the refrigerator to get the water suddenly you feel your eyes getting watery again, the food that you prepared for him still here.

  You can’t cry, you had enough but its hurt .it hurt so much, you talk to yourself.

you took a shake breath as you walk to the living room turning the TV on to keep your mind from thinking but there is nothing to watch suddenly you remember your phone that was ringing last night but you was too tired to see who was calling you, looking around you searching for your phone suddenly your eyes catch something,

It was a picture of him that was faded from the washer

You can barely just make out his face

You close your eyes as tears come down your face everything here keeps remember you of him,

 Every room in this house had a memory of Kris 

you run to your room as more tears streaming down your cheek you can’t take it anymore you took that dirty jacket that he left in the trash before he go you hugged it to your chest tight as you sob quietly, you were strong enough to leave him, cared enough to let him walk away but you feel weak, you need him.

 You know it; you know that one day you have to let it all go

Your smile,

 Your happiness,

 Your heart,

 Him, but you can’t take it anymore its hurt too mush that you want to die

  Yeah, you still keep his stuff just in case
he didn't find what he’s looking for
In case
he miss what he had before
In case
he change his mind, you'll be waiting here
In case
he just want to come home
In case

 He’s missing your love

Just In case

He’s looking in the mirror one day
and misses your arms
how they wrapped around his waist

 He can love you again
Even if it isn't the case