NOTE:ENGLISH IS NOT MY MOTHER TONGUE.

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It's been a year since Kibum left Super Junior.

He was my bias when he was in Super Junior.

It all started.......

I was roaming the streets of Seoul.

I was looking for a shop to buy clothes.

I saw this guy, helping an old woman.

He's so thoughtful.

He was such a gentleman.

I look at him, more closely.

I look at his face features I can tell he's attractive.

I secretly shot a picture of him, in my cellular phone.

The Next Day,

I go at the same place looking for him.

Hoping he will come. As expected he's here again.

Now he help the grandfather to carry the bags. As I always tell he's so helpful.

Everyday I went there just to see him.

It's been a year I secretly loving without knowing his name.

I was so tight-lipped to ask him his name or approach him .

One Day,

A happening change everything.

I have my exam. I'm so early.

When I  went there he's not there. Maybe I'm too early.

I hope. I wait. Snow started to fall. It's so cold. I can feel my breath..

I'm frozen...

My efforts were wasted.

I didn't catch a glimpse of him..

Because of that I became curious of what happen to him.

Many bad scenarios are form at my mind. As I think of that tears started to fall.

And I calm myself, and think positive.

"Tomorrow I'll go again" I said

The Next Day,

I went again

Still hoping he will come

But I failed to see him.

Everyday I go but I just waste my time.

This is my first heartbreak.

He is my first love.

Suddenly the song Falling slowly plays.

Iwas caught with these words:

I  don't know you but I want you

All the more for that

I was shot with those words

Because I know to myself that I love this guy that I didn't know the name.

The question always pass at my mind.

"Who is he?"

After a month,

I was still recovering from my heart break.

I was so bored 

So I decided to watch TV

My sister was watching.

As usual.

I don't have any interest in any boy groups.

My sister was a Cassie.

While watching,

I saw a guy with  a familiar image in me.

I think it's familiar.

And suddenly I get a message at my phone.

I take a look at it..

and then I saw my wallpaper 

And I look at the TV.

OH THAT GUY IS HIM!!

He is my first love.

I was on shock.

My mouth was left hung.

And my sister wake me up,

"YAH.UNNIE." she said

"WHO IS THAT GUY?" I said

"WHERE?" she said

I pointed at him

"AH THAT.. That is Kim Kibum.. He's cute right?" she said

I finally know his name.. I know his name..

But that is too late.. He is already an Idol.

I will not  have my fantasies come true anymore?

Unlike the past.

Oh..That's why he is gone.

Because he was busy in his debut in Super Junior.

The only way to get close to him is to become a fan.

That's the start of my journey being an ELF.

Then I attended their first fan signing.

I was there present.

And I get a chance to be close to him.

I see him in person.

I can see his face features more closer.

As in closer.

"What's your name?" Kibum ask

" Lee Ririn" I said

And he make a signature. 

And put :

Saranghaeyo, Lee Ri Rin 

사랑해요,이 리 린 ♥

Did he put a heart?

I stare at the autograph for a long time.

Then I say thank you.

and he said your welcome and he wink at me.

Is this reality?

He wink at me.

Am i not dreaming?

And then they gain more popularity.

And they will be having there first concert already.

I will attend it.

Of course.

I already buy my ticket.

I was so excited.

As I was on my way to my seat.

I bump to someone.

It was Kibum.

I know.

I sense.

And he's scarf fall down so I was able to see his face.

It is good that I was the only one to see.

He make a sign to me to keep quiet.

And he left.

And the concert is already starting.

He's good.

The concert was successful. Years has past.

 Super Junior became more and more successful.

One time,

I updated my account... I say there:

KIBUM OPPA IS A GOOD ACTOR!

And then One day,

Kibum suddenly disappeared.

And suddenly I heard the news he will focus on acting already.  

I said to myself I wish I didn't post that because I like oppa to be in Super Junior more.

I'm here at my room.

Reminiscing the events, wherein Kibum is still in Super Junior.

And when I attended the fan signing,concerts and fan meetings.

Since Kibum left I watch his dramas but I didn't go anymore to Super Junior events..

It's like I lose power since Kibum left.

And then suddenly my sister come.

"Unnie will you go with me?" She said

"Where?" I said

"In Music Bank. I know Super Junior will gonna be there" She said

"You know-" I said but was cut off

"You already told that same story.. Because Kibum will not be performing with them. You will not go.. But Unnie, umma will not let me.. If you didn't come with me.. PLEASE" She said and make a puppy good eyes

"Okay Okay" I saidS

So we go there.

It's been along time since I came here..

Then I wait and wait for Super Junior.

Then the song is already starting..

"What song is that?" I asked

"Ah that.. It's Mr. Simple. And Heechul will not be performing because he's already in the army.. I'm thinking who will perform his lines.." She said

And I watch.. 

Suddenly It already started..

Many ELFs were shouting..

It already started..

While they're singing..

I hear a familiar voice.

But that was impossible.

Then Siwon is already singing after that... Wait I hear a familiar voice it was him..

Then to my suprise IT was KIBUM.

"Oh. Kibum oppa will sing the lines of Heechul oppa" my sister said

It's been a long time...

Many Elfs are suprised too...

Suddenly I feel like he's the only one I'm seeing right now..

And he suddenly wink at me...

Is that reality?

"Unnie.. It's already finished" my sister said

"Wait I will just go to the restroom" I said

Then I go to the restroom.

On my way, I bump to somebody.

It was Kibum..

I was about to go.. when he held my hand. He stop me.

"Wait can you talk to me" he said

And then he guide me to a hidden place.

And we talk.

"Do you think all the happenings that we bump and the winks are just coincidence or only your fantasies?"Kibum said desperately.

What is he telling?

What does he mean?

"Maybe" I said awkwardly

"To tell you the truth. I know you already before I enter this industry.. You, Ririn I'm your sunbaenim in your school.I already like you from the start" 

Am I hearing this?

"I always go at the shops.. Because I know you are there.. It maybe weird to say.. I stalk you" He said embarassed

This is really impossible.

"And I enter this industry because of you.. Because I heard your sister is addicted to boy groups. I think maybe your like that too.. So I try my best to be an Idol"

Is he really saying this to me..

"I just listen In everything you said.. That's why I started acting again" 

Why is he saying this to me?

"In short... Saranghae... I LOVE YOU LEE RIRIN" He said to me

And suddenly hug me.

"Do you want to have a date with me?" he said

"Yes" I said with a huge smile.

Even though it's impossible.

But this is real..

My love loves me too.

And he know my existence.

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HE KNOW MY EXISTENCE! <3