{story will be written in jonghyun's pov}

 

Jagiya ,

How are you in the afterlife ? I hope you're doing way better there than when you were here .

I seriously don't know how I could have cheated on you ... you were the best anyone could ever have.

Remember the times when we stayed up late just to study for our exams ?

Remember the day when I confessed to you ? you were smiling like a child who won a teddy bear at a carnival .

 

Remember the day when I debuted ? I cried , you cried too . Our ugly sobbing was broadcasted on television the whole korea saw us .

Remember the day when we celebrated our first monthsary ? I bought roo to keep you company when I was overseas promoting .

Remember our second monthsary together ? We made each other couple rings and promised to keep them on forever .

Remember the times where we fought because of something stupid ? We always made up after that .

 

I should have remembered all the times I spent with you making precious memories when I was about to date her .

You gave me something she couldn't . True Love .

Yes , she is prettier than you .

Yes , she's hotter , cuter and smarter . but she isn't you .

You might be silly , dumb , childish , annoying at times but you're still you .

 

Because I was a silly dino , I gave in to temptation that night .

I forgot about all the memories we had made together .

I forgot that she was just pretending

I forgot that I had you

That was the dumbest mistake I made when I had you .

I shouldn't have gave in to temptation .

 

Now that you're gone , I truly understand the importance of having you in my life .

I miss seeing you in bed sleeping soundly when I reached home from a day's work

I miss cuddling with you and watching your favourite romantic dramas

I miss the times during winter when you would hug me and sleep because it was too cold

I miss taking polaroids with you and hanging them on our monthsary board

I miss taking stupid selcas with you

I miss your cooking

I miss you nagging at me to drop my clothes in the laundry basket

 

Most importantly , I miss you