"Baby, I'm cooking. Make sure to make it to dinner, alright? I love you."

 

I played the voicemail you sent me. 

I was probably busy that time, busy flirting with one of our company's dancers that's why your call was sent to the voicemail.

 

 

"Yah! Woo Jiho! Why are you not answering my calls and texts?! It's already 11:30pm, I'm keeping your dinner in the fridge. Make sure to heat it first before eating it later once you get home. I'm sure you're just busy with the new album. Love you! Good night. Hwaiting~!"

 

That was the next voicemail after the one earlier.

You always believed that I'm doing songs whenever I came home late.

You don't know that I'm doing the bad when I'm not with you.

I don't know, but during that time, my feelings for you gradually fell that's why I hooked up with one of our dancers.

Maybe because I spend most of my time with her, rather than you.

 

 

"Babyyyyy~ I miss you! You didn't go home last night. I'm really sad."

 

I chugged another glass of bacardi and wiped off my tears.

You don't know how much I regret everything that I've done to you.

And yes, I am still keeping those few voicemails of yours.

Listening to them makes me feel like you're just here with me.
 

 

 

"What the hell, Jiho?! All this time, I thought you were busy with producing your songs, but I was wrong.

What have I done for you to do this to me, Jiho?!"

 

That was what you shouted right at me while tears were streaming down your face.

I cannot forget that day when you saw me making out with Seyin in the studio.

That was the first time I saw you cry like that.

I hate myself for making you cry like that.

You had every right to leave me that time.

I understood why you packed all your things and decided to live with your parents again.

I was never a good boyfriend to you after our 2nd anniversary.

And I'm sorry I wasted those 2 years by hooking up with some dancer.

 

 

 

Now, 2 years had passed.

I wonder where you are.

I wonder if you already have your new boyfriend.

Or maybe a family of your own.

And well, here I am, still producing songs for my group.

Putting up fake smiles and pretending to be happy in front of the media and in front of the fans even though I'm hurting inside.

If only I can turn back time.

I wouldn't have hurt you.

I felt devastated when you left me.

My day is incomplete without your voicemails, without your texts, without your constant reminders for me to take my meds on time, to eat on time, to stop drinking energy drinks...

I missed your soft kisses before going to sleep.

I miss waking up next to you.

I miss everything we do together on my free days.

I miss your cooking.

I miss your squeals when you see Bang Yongguk on tv.

That might be annoying but I miss Yongguk and I's rivalry.

I miss your laugh.

Your everything.

I miss... you.

Until this moment, I am still hoping for you to come back home, back to me, back to my arms. I don't care how long it'll take, but I am more than willing to wait because I truly love you, still.

• • •

 

 

"Boys, hurry up! Come to stage and the album signing event is starting in five minutes. The fans are already on their lines."

 

The PD called us from the back stage.

Another long day for us.

I breathed heavily, getting ready to put up my fake smiles again.

 

"Ayo, do you wanna b, Block B! Annyeong haseyo, Block B imnida!"

 

We did our introduction and started the event.

 

"Oppa, are you having a mixtape again?"
"Oppa, stop getting tattoos ㅠㅠㅠㅠ"
"Oppa, am I pretty?"
"Oppa, can you marry me?"
"Oppa, I love you. Take care, ok?"
"You inspire me alot. Continue making great music, ok?"
"I really like Yookwon oppa, but I'm shy to tell him. Please tell him for me. Kkkk"
"Oppa, do you want more dogs?"
"Oppa, how's hello kitty?"

 

Different questions written on the post-its from the fans.

Some are cute, some are really sweet and some are funny.

I just answered all of them and continued signing the albums.

 

"Yah, Woo Jihong! Congratulations to all your success! Do you still know me? Kkkk ^^♡"

 

This handwriting is very familiar.

Woo Jihong. ^^♡. 

Only one person does this.

Can it be... can she be..

 

I immediately looked up to the person in front of me.

She looked familiar. 

Yes, she's Hyerin.

My girlfriend.

My ex.

But still the one that I love.

Her hair was shorter and she gained some weight making her body more voluptuous.

Oh god, she's gorgeous.

How will I answer this?

Of course, I know you very well and I miss you to the core!

But do I still really know her?

It's been years and a lot may have changed.

But still I answered,

 

"Of course. I do. I always know you. ^^♥"

I signed her CD and gave it to her.

She flashed her beautiful smile and went down the stage.

I kept looking at her not paying attention to the next fan.

Until she got in the middle of the crowd and I can't see her anymore.
• • •

 

 

After the event, I still can't get you out of my mind.

Where did you go?

Can we talk for a while?

You seemed to be happy awhile ago.

Do you have your new boyfriend?

Is he more handsome?

Maybe he does not hurt you.

Maybe he goes home for dinner and spend the rest of the night with you.

Maybe he calls you always, even during his work time.

Maybe he....

 

"Yah! Jihong.."

 

Someone tapped my back while we're in the parking lot.

Could it be..

I turned around and saw you.

It was you. Kwon. Hye. Rin. 

I never hesistated and hugged you immediately.

Not wasting any of my time.

• • •
 

 

"I miss you."

I told her while still holding her in my arms.

She didn't respond and pulled off the hug.

I felt sad.

Maybe she didn't want this.

Maybe she's already happy with her new life without me.

 

"Can we talk?" She asked.

 

"Huh?"

 

"Can we talk? The two of us.."

 

"Sure, where and when?"

 

"Now, maybe? Or are you busy?"

 

"Definitely not! Maybe we can talk over at my place or yours?"

Was that right? Or does that sound too aggressive? But that's the safest place for us to talk. No fans. No paparazzis.

 

"Yours." She nodded.

 

"Ok. Let's go to the van!" I offered.
 

 

 

"Hyerin-ah!!!!!"

They exclaimed, my members. Maybe they also missed Hyerin.

 

"How have you been?"

"Why are you with us? Are you and Jiho...."

"Where did you go?"

 

Stuff like those were asked.

They really did catch up.

Without noticing the time, we finally reached the dorm.

But we're not getting off with the boys.

We're heading to my place.

So they bid goodbye to each other.
• • •

 

 

 

"What do we need to talk about?"

 

Jiho asked and opened the door of his unit.

 

"Zico, is this even a home?!"

 

She frowned seeing all of his mess.

Cans of beer. Bottles of vodkas. Bags of chips. Plates. Glasses. Clothes here and there.

But as she looked around, she noticed one thing that never left its place, her picture with Jiho, the one they took on their 1st anniversary, still hanging itselft beside the TV.

 

"I'm sorry for the mess. I know this wasn't how it looked like when you left. So what's it that you wanted to talk about?"

 

"Seyin talked to me the other day.. well, she'd always wanted to talk to me since a year ago, but I always refuse. Until she saw me the other day and I was not able to do anything but talk to her.. so, she told me everything. She told me it's her fault she seduced you. She told me you still love me and you always drown yourself with alcohol and totally forget about your health. Why do you do that?" She held his hand tenderly.

 

"I don't have you." Jiho replied like a stubborn kid.

 

"But do you really need a 'me' in your life to constantly remind you about everyth--"

 

"Yes!"

 

"Jiho.."

 

"Hyerin, I still love you. I'm sorry I gave in to temptation before. I'm sorry, I really am.. I.. I miss you so much! I need you in my life."

 

Tears were now rolling down his cheeks.

 

"I.. I.. I love you too,"

 

He hugged her tightly.

 

"Take me back, please. I promise I won't do anything to lose you again. I love you so much, my baby."

 

Oh how she missed being called "baby".

 

"I'm taking you back,"

 

"Will you move in with me again?"

 

"Yes, I'd love to, but"

 

"But?!" He pulled off the hug and faced her, holding her shoulders.

 

"But I need you to clean your mess first so I can live here again." She chuckled and flicked Jiho's head.

 

"Ahhhhh, okay I will." He said and planted a peck on Hyerin's lips.

 

"Yah,"

 

Jiho smiled widely and squeezed Hyerin in his arms.

 

 

 

THE END