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It was one more inconsequential day in the life of Taec Yeon, even the gods appeared to be aware of his dark mood. The day was dark, cold, and full with promises of rain. It was a depressing day for most human beings, but not for Taec Yeon. He was not even sure if he qualified as human anymore. He had lost his soul some months ago, quite frankly he had lost count of how many months, or at least that was what he wanted to believe. As for his humanity he was sure that he was losing it with every passing day. Fortunately for him, it appeared that he had some sociopathic qualities, nobody had noticed any changes on him. Sometimes in the darkness of the night as his thought wandered into the deepest recess of his mind he wondered if he should be worried by the fact that nobody had noticed the fact that he was no longer whole. Did he really not have anyone close enough to really know him?  She had known him very well and yet it had not been hard for her to leave him. What idiotic fantasy made him think that someone would stay with him after knowing him to such an intimate level?

“Taec Yeon you are pathetic.” He said to himself as he slowly got his aching body out of the bed. His manager would soon come to pick him up to start his schedule. His new goal was foolish and selfish, but he did not care. He wanted to be the best in Korea, Asia and the world, not 2PM, but Ok Taec Yeon. He just wanted Her to see what she had rejected. He wanted Her to see him at the top, wanted her to feel sorrow and regret once she noticed that she could no longer have him. So close and yet so far. These childish thoughts full of pain and resentment occupied the mind the once bright and joyful rapper of 2PM.

Taec Yeon walked towards the bathroom, and after taking a cold shower he proceeded to dress carefully, that old Taec Yeon who did not care about how he looked was gone. After the incident he had started to pay meticulous attention to how he looked. He could never be caught unprepared by the paparazzi. He was always impeccably dressed and up to date with the newest fashion. She would never get a chance to see him in a vulnerable position. His dogmatic approach to his looks had given him results; he was now known as the image of 2PM and was always in the lists of best dressed.

His body had toned to perfection thanks to his rigid diet and exercise routine. It had nothing to do with the fact that he could no longer eat cotton candy, cookies or sweets in general. Who would have thought that Taec Yeon, loved in Korea and Asia, would be afraid of eating sweets? If he wanted to be honest with himself he would admit that it was not a dislike of sweets, a tooth ache, or an unscheduled event that kept him from eating sweets. No, it was worse than that. It was the memories, those dreadful memories, of laughter, and happiness that rushed to his mind every time that he was nearby cotton candy, cookies, or sweets. That picture in his mind of her sweet smile that would always make his heart miss a beat, it was Her, the one that haunted his thoughts. It was all her fault. Taec Yeon made his hands into fists in anger, once again those memories had come back to torture him. Were not his dreams enough? Did She really have to inundate his mind while he was awake? Even now, miles away, she continued to haunt him. Taec Yeon signed and with a look of indifference proceeded to dress himself for the day. Soon his shirt covered his strong muscles and well defined body.

“Taec Yeon-shi? Are you ready?” His manager had arrived. With one last critical look at his reflection in the mirror Taec Yeon walked towards his manager, who directed him towards the company car that was waiting for the current JYP star. The trip would be long, about two hours. Taec Yeon looked out the window with feigned indifference. It was raining outside, the rain brought memories of their last goodbye. Slowly, his thought started to become darker and darker. She was such an amazing actress, the tears and the feelings that she had so easily faked had made him lose his mind. Before he knew what he was doing he had laid out his heart and feelings to her tiny dishonest feet. Who would have thought that that day would mark his life to such an alarming extent? A sardonic smile adorned the attractive and tired face of the rapper as he allowed his bitter memories to take over his consciousness.

The incident had occurred on the last day of filming of Global We Got Married TV show. Everyone in the set had mixed feelings about the ending of the show, they were sad because everyone in the set had become friends, but the filming days were hard on the staff and the actors and everyone would welcome some well-deserved rest. However, nobody was more anxious or sad than Ok Taec Yeon, ever since they had started filming GWGM he had been fighting his feelings for his co-protagonist.  That little ghost had taken up his heart and mind by a storm. There was not one second when he was not thinking about Gui Gui. His reaction to the little ghost was alarming, even his band mate Jun Ho had noticed his infatuation. He would constantly about the foolish smile that tended to appear every time that Gui Gui was mentioned. Love fool, was his new nickname, at least within 2PM. For a very long time Taec Yeon thought that his feelings were one sided and tried his hardest to not become too attached to Gui Gui. In an attempt to keep some distance he developed an admiration for Gui Gui’s skills as an actress, but this did not work, his admiration towards Gui Gui only made his love problem worse. As time passed, he convinced himself that his problem was not that much of a big deal, nobody died out of one sided love. So with increasing difficulty he hid feelings. Everything would have turned out just fine if his stupid head had not forgotten that GWGM was a pretend game.

That last had been rainy and cold, perfect for a romantic goodbye, just the way that he wanted it. His little ghost looked adorable, and if he wanted to be honest with himself he had to admit that he felt an immense sense of pleasure and possessiveness at the sight of Gui Gui wearing the shoes that he had bought for her. She was also wearing his ring on her hand, not any ring, but a wedding ring. If only this was real, if only that ring could stay in her petite hand forever… but that was not possible. With determination he decided that he would not think about the future, he was going to enjoy the present and tomorrow… well tomorrow he would deal with the pain of their last goodbye. Today he would prepare an unforgettable goodbye date for his little ghost. Their last day together was going to be as bright and happy as Gui Gui. His little ghost deserved that and more.

And that he did. That day Taec Yeon smiled, laughed, joked, and lovingly dried the tears that rolled down Gui Gui’s cheeks. It did not matter that with ever second, with every tear his heart broke a little more. Everything was going as planned, until that damned talk in the tent. It might have been the intimacy of the situation, the climate that invited lovers to cuddle, or the calming sound of the river. To this day he did know what came over him, but he was soon drowning in those eyes full of sadness and sincerity that begged not to be abandoned. Those big and beautiful eyes inundated with nostalgic tears where the last drop, when she asked to not be forgotten, Taec Yeon answered without hesitation ‘of course.’ By the end of the day, after Gui Gui had tearfully refused to let him go he had convinced himself that his love was not one sided. So at the end of the filming schedule, without further thought he gathered all his courage.

“Gui Gui? Can we talk for a moment?” Taec Yeon asked faking confidence…