How ironic, Kyungsoo thinks. He is in a hospital room again, just like in their drama mv. Granted, he wasn't bedridden--thank goodness it was only a light sprain--but the white walls and scent of antiseptic are the same. Idly, he wondered if the members will also barge in together as scripted in the mv. He was quickly accompanied to the hospital by their managers once he told them of the situation,  and there was really no time to tell the members that he'll be fine and that it was only a sprain and he didn't mean to scew up his footwork in the choreo but he tried his best and it was--

"Kyungsoo!"

His eyes widen, and he cannot help but smile wryly. This looks familiar, he thinks. Two by two the members file inside the small room, all of them trying to get to him first. He spots Suho at the very front and he smiles.

"I'm fine, you guys."

He blinks when all of them just look somberly at him. Well, this wasn't in the script.

"Guys, it's just a sprain. I'm okay."

They all frown.

Suho breaks the quiet by asking, "Do you know what happened after you left?"

Kyungsoo furrows his eyebrows. "Uh, we didn't win?"

"No."

"Oh." He couldn't help but feel disappointed. "It's okay, guys. We still have--"

Chanyeol interrupts him. "No, Kyungsoo. We won." Suddenly, everyone is smiling and laughing and trying to pat him everywhere except his leg.

He raised his arm to hit the nearest member to his right which is, coincidentally, Baekhyun. "That's not fair. I thought you guys were collectively depressed because we didn't win."

"Well, we were collectively depressed," Baekhyun comments. "We were sad you weren't there to for the thank you speech."

Kyungsoo smiles. He inspects each of the members' faces and asks, "Did you guys cry?"

Sehun decides to answer and cheerfully enumerates Suho, Tao, Kris ("Hey, I didn't cry!" to which Kyungsoo smiled), and Kai.

Kyungsoo is not surprised. He peers at each members’ faces to confirm what Sehun said but--

"Where's Jongin?"

Luhan gives him a sad smile. "He's outside. Said he needs to compose himself before facing you."

"He was silently crying during the whole trip to the hospital, you see," Minseok adds.

Kyungsoo purses his lips. The members continue sharing stories about what he missed in the awards ceremony but he couldn't concentrate. He was bothered by what Luhan and Minseok said about Jongin. Suho, noticing Kyungsoo's pensive mood, suggests that the members leave him to rest. Everyone hums in agreement.

Kyungsoo turns to Suho.  "Hyung."

"What is it?"

"Please call Jongin."

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Jongin, Kyungsoo thinks, does not look visibly shaken up. He wonders if the members exaggerated.

"Hello, Jongin."

"Hi, hyung."

Uncomfortable silence fills the room. Kyungsoo wonders if he should be relieved or disappointed to find a silent Jongin than a crying Jongin.

Kyungsoo couldn't help but ask, "Are you okay, Jongin?"

There was a moment of stunned silence before Jongin took hold of both Kyungsoo' s hands. He gripped them tightly and stared at him imploringly. "I should be the one asking you that, hyung."

Kyungsoo looked at their clasped hands, surprised to realize the shaking of Jongin's. He changed his grip in Jongin's hold and started rubbing his thumbs on the back of Jongin’s hands, contemplating if he should tell the younger...

"I'm okay, really. It's just that I feel a little regretful that I wasn't there when you guys received the award."

Jongin looks at him pointedly before breaking away from Kyungsoo’s hold, only to wrap his arms around him in a tight embrace. Kyungsoo could only vaguely notice the still shaking form of the younger above the roar of his own thundering heartbeat. “I'd rather you not be there,” Kyungsoo stiffens in his hold, “than see you limp through it. I wouldn't want to see your pained expression if I can help it.”

Kyungsoo returns the embrace. “Thank you for worrying about me.” He rubs Jongin’s back and hums in contentment.

“Hyung.”

“Hm?”

“You can’t get injured like that again.”

“Okay.”

 “You can’t worry us like that again.”

“Okay.”

Jongin shivers and tightens his hold on Kyungsoo, whispering, “You shouldn’t make me worry like that again.”

“Okay.” Kyungsoo smiles and rubs his back in soothing motions.

They lapse into comfortable silence for a moment before Kyungsoo decides to speak again. “Do you know what this reminds me of?”

Jongin loosens his hold on Kyungsoo to look at him. “What?”

“Our drama mv.” Kyungsoo chuckles.

Jongin smiles, but breaks his hold to look at Kyungsoo. “Yeah. But you were just a friend in that music video.”

Kyungsoo grins. “I’m not your friend now?”

“No, you’re not.”

They look at each other for a moment and smile. Kyungsoo takes Jongin’s hands again and grips them tightly.

“No, I’m not.”

I’m more than that.

(adyorable 2013)