it was sunday in the afternoon. i was waiting for kai to arrive. 

an hour had passed....

2 hours had passed.....

is he really not coming home? He told me he was. Then is he cheating on me? Why am i only thinking about the negative things? yah! kang ~~! you said that you would believe in him... Well, i do. but the thing is that he barely comes home these past few weeks. So, isn't that an understandment for a girl to think her boyfriend is cheating?

I went to the kitchen to get myself a drink. Should i make him dinner? Or should i just.. Nevermind, he always says he is full everytime i have dinner awaiting for him. After awhile, i heard the front door open. Is that Kai? I rushed to the door and saw him with his eyes full of boredom in it.

~~: welcome home kai!

kai: mm..

~~: is something wrong?

kai: nothing....

his voice showed no care. just cold. cold like stone. What is wrong with him? Did i do something wrong? Or has his feelings changed for me? i grab the bag he is holding and saw lipstick smudged on his collar. wait, lipstick?! is he kidding me?! 

~~: kai, did you wear lipstick?

kai: no. i'm a guy. for god sake can't you see?

~~: then what the hell is this on your collar?  Don't tell me you hooked up with a random girl? 

I crossed my arms over my chest and just stared at him, waiting for him to say sonething or at least explain.

kai: i-i uh.. Was with my f-friend and uhhh.. She fell-

~~: you're cheating on me aren't you?

kai: n-no. I was with uh.. Ahh! Sehun for the uhh.. Whole ti-time.

~~: oh really? You said you were with your friend and you said it was a she. Is Sehun a girl? Does he wear lipstick? And before you came home, i talked to him. He said he was ALONE. Mind explaining?

he remained silent and i scoffed. i knew it. from the way that he didn't come home to the way he acted to me. everything was odd.i should've known. my whole 2 year relationship was nothing but just pieces of broken love. i stormed to our room and took my duffel bag out. i packed all my clothes, leaving the things that kai gave me.

kai: wait! ~~, don't leave me!

~~: you should've thought that weeks ago. how can you do this to me? To your own girlfriend? You told me to believe you and i did! You told me you would cherish me. when i said that i'm willing to put my life in the line! you made me feel pathetic, kai! 

tears were rolling to my cheeks as i pack. when i was done, i zipped it and went out of the room. but unfortunately, kai held my wrist, gripping on to it tightly.

kai: don"t go. i'm nothing without you.

~~: NOTHING?! THEN WHY THE HELL DID YOU CHEAT?! was it to make me feel bad a bout dating you in the first place? kai! in highschool, nobody liked you! you were just a plain nerd! if i wasn't there to enter you life, your picture... i don't know what will happen to you. now that you became an idol, does that mean you were using me? instead of loving me, you were using me? Selfish bastard. 

kai: i didnt! and i don't wanna let you go! not now, not ever!

~~: i get it kai. i was just a plain toy for you. now let me go! You just needed someone in your life so you wouldn't be alone, am i right?

i got his hand off mine. my tears were flowing out heavily. i walked but stopped a few meters in front. without bothering to turn at him, i told him that whatever we had all these years meant nothing. to me nor to him. i then walked out of the house... goodbye kai.. i hope that you would find someone better than me. 

then there it goes. our love... they turned to ashes. the promise that i made to him.... was broken and it cannot be fixed again.