A paradise
Paradise
Niga isseoya man yeogi ga paradise
Eojiro neoreul gadwo beorin paradise
Kkae eoseon galsu eobtneun seulpeun paradise
Yeongwonhi hamkke halsu itneun paradise
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[Her POV]
I'm sitting on a table in the kitchen.
Place that contains so much memory of us.
I look around.It still the same.
I sighed.
We cook together.Eat together.Playing together.
I remembered when the first time i eat your cooking.
I admit that you were superb than me.
I guess i wont have your cook anymore.
I want to smile but my mouth keep it close.
I want to cry but my tears were all dried.
I've got no energy to scream that i want you back.
Im not ready to leave you but you already did.
I take a look at the kitchen for the last time.
I love you and im sure you do too.
I make my move slowly to upstair.
Very very slow.
I remembered when you suprised me on my birthday.
You closed my eyes with your handkerchief.
Then held my hand and lead me to upstairs while the other hand support my waist.
Im take a look at your favourite piano.
You play it for me on my birthday.
I remember you played for me when i was angry of my dad.
You use it to calm me down.
Those flashback burst into my mind.
Its..hurt.
I take a few steps our bed.
I make it tidy for the last time.
I fold our comforter.I make it clean from dust.
I closed everything in that room with white clothes.
I cant stay too long in this room.
Too much...pain.
I went to downstairs after i've done cleaning up the room.
My knee can't hold my body.
I sat.
Why?Why you leave me?
Every night i fill myself with you.
You hold me in your arms.
You comfort me with you warm body.
Now, alcohol and time take over you.
Why?Why you leave me?
I'm not ready to be leave by you.I need you.
This house used to be our paradise.
And now, this paradise without you just like a hopeless world!
I have to leave this house.Yes.
This house which got a lots of our memoy and its killing me inside out!
This place is a paradise only if you’re here.
A paradise that has locked you in against your will.
A sad paradise that you won’t go if you’re awake.
A paradise that we can be together forever.
Just if we didn't go vacation as i suggested but stay home as you wished.
Just if I don't push you to follow my wishes.
Just if we didn't ride that train.
Just if you still alive..
I hate the fact that im the reason why you die.
I hate the fact that im the one that show you the death.
Im regret it.
How i wish i can turn back and stop myself from pushing you.
How i wish to be the one who die.
How i wish i can take your place.
How i wish i....
I stood up.
I cant weak.
I had to let you go eventhough i dont want to.
I stepped out from the house.
I look back for a moment.
I can see we're running all over the living room.
I can see we're cuddling on the couch.
I can see we're kissing against the wall.
No..I have to moving on.
I can't being like this forever.
I have to live even without you but right now, i need you.
I turn around.
I make my move.
I can hear our laugh.
I can hear your dorky laugh.
I can hear your piano strumed.
I can hear the noise of your cooking.
I can hear your husky voice telling me that you wont leave me.
But i keep on moving.
The paradise that we both own just become hell once you leave me alone.
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