Being with him is the most happiest yet, painful thing that happen to me.

Happiest.

Yes.

Talking to him.

Making him smile and laugh.

Painful. 

Yep. 

Loving him is painful.

Why?

Who wouldn't be hurt if you know the one you love won't be able to love you back?

But what can I do? 

Everytime I see him makes me fall harder for him.

I tried everything to get over this feelings.

Looking at girls.

Even dating them, of course, SECRETLY.

But I just can't get over him.

It makes me crazy.

Well, I'm already contented just being with him.

And, NO. 

I'm NOT planning to confess.

NEVER.

EVER.

I know he's not HOMO nor BI, or so I thought.

I'm doubting it now.

I should be happy, right?

But I can't.

*Sighs* 

I don't know why, but he seems to grew apart from me.

He grows closer to him.

He smiles so bright at him.

He seldom talks to me now.

He always talks to him.

I don't know what to do.

This really drives me crazy.

 Oh, Sorry. I forgot to introduce myself. Hehehe. I'm Sungjong, the maknae of Infinite. I have this unrequired love for my hyung. My favorite hyung, Kim Myungsoo. I can't even remember how I fell for him because I've been in love with him for YEARS. Maybe I've fell for him like love at first sight? Ahh, I'm sorry. I can't really remember. Why I love him? Like who wouldn't be in love with that smile. That eye smile. 

I love him. Too much. That it starts to hurt. Ok. You must be saying that I'm exaggerating. No, I'm not. It really starts to hurt. When I don't see him for just a day, my day won't be complete. OMG. I'm becoming cheesy. 

*Sighs* I don't know now. He is my bestfriend but he's drifting away from me. Usually he talks to me everything that happen to his day. Now, his talking to my for about thrice as week? Or even lesser. And what's worse is that I can feel that he's awkward when talking to me! I don't even know why! He's always talking to my Choding hyung. Yep. Sungyeol-hyung. 

Nowadays, that pairing is really famous. Myungyeol. I hate it! No offense but duhh! I'm in love with him! He always do fanservice with him! No, I don't hate Sungyeol hyung. I'm just frustrated. I think, I hope not. I think he's in love with hyung! 

Ok. I also feel jealous. We're not even together but I feel like this. I hate this. But what can I do? I love him to the point I will do anything just to see him happy even if it hurts me. That sounds dramatic. Hahaha.

"Sungjong!" Oops.That's Sunggyu hyung. "Hyung!" I went out of my room. Yep. Being the maknae is hard. "Can you clean this?" He pointed the puddle on the floor. Its not like I can say no. I can't understand him. He can just clean it himself right?

*Sigh* I got the rag in the kitchen. Woohyun hyung! "Hyung! What are you cooking?" I smiled. "Jongie! Our dinner for today is Kimchi stew!!" Woohyun hyung exclaimed. "That looks good!" I replied with a smiled. "Thanks!" He replied and continued cooking.

I cleaned puddle. Sunggyu hyung went inside of the kitchen. By the way, Woogyu is true! To tell you the truth, I'm a fanboy of that pairing! I saw Sunggyu hyung backhug Woohyun hyung, while Woohyun hyung blush a thousand shade. And YaDong is true too! I'm also a fan! In the living room, they were cuddling on the couch while watching a movie.

At the corner of my eye, I saw something that made my eyes a little bit teary. Sungyeol and Myungsoo hyung are laughing together while I don't know. It's like tickling or what. If I hadn't know better, I'll think that they're flirting. *Sighs* I want to go out now.

"Sunggyu hyung!" I called out. The hamster glared at me because I ruined his and Woohyun hyung's moment. "I'll j-just go o-out.." I laughed nervously and quickly dash out of our dorm.

I walked and walked around. Until I saw a brown haired boy. "Hyung!" I called out and he looked at my way. "Sungjongie!" Taeminnie hyung! I still call him hyung even though his only months older. "Why are you here? Its getting dark.." He asked worriedly. Me and Taeminnie hyung are close friends. We always hung out. He also know my secret love at Myungsoo hyung.

I also know that he's in a relationship with Minho hyung. "Ah, I just don't wanna see them like flirting with each other..." My eyes started to tear up as I say that. Hyung is like a my shoulder to cry on. When I'm frustrated or anything. I suddenly felt my face wet. More tears fall. "Jongiee.." Taeminnine hyung wiped my tears.

I covered my face with my hands. "H-hyung..I-I'm s-s-sorry.." I sobbed. It hurts. I felt hyung took my hand and we began to walk. *Sobs* I felt warm arms enclose me. "Its ok..Just let it out.." He smiled as I looked up to him. I cried harder.  Why can't I stop loving him? I getting tired. I'm always crying. 

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He fell asleep. I will call Onew hyung. "Hyung?" "Yep?" "Can Sungjongie sleep at our dorm?" "Sure..Why?" "I'll tell you when I got home.." *Sighs* I feel sorry for Jongie. He always cries because of Myungso hyung. I carried him bridal style and went inside a cab.

"Minnie!" Minho hyung smiled. "Why is Jongie here?" "He got tired and fell asleep..." I lied. I promised Sungjong I won't tell his secret to ther people. "Oh, OK.." I smiled. Thank God he bought that. I layed Sungjong on our extra bed. 

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"Dinner's ready!!" Woohyun hyung yelled as they made their way to the dining table. "Hey, Where's Sungjong?" I asked. "He said he will go out for a while.." Sunggyu hyung said as he tried to call Sungjong's phone. "He isn't picking up.." Sunggyu said worriedly. I looked at Myungsoo. He looks restless. "Myungsoo, man, calm down!" I laughed.

I know Myungsoo is in love with Sungjong. Everytime he talks to me, he will talk about how cute Sungjong is. I support him. I ship MyungJong! Well, I told him to confess. But he always tells me that he just can't find the right timing. *sighs* I know he's just shy.

"Maybe, he's with Taemin?" Hoya suggested. "Ah! He's always with him now! Maybe he's really with him." Dongwoo agreed. Myungsoo looked down. I know he felt jealous. "I will look for him.." Myungsoo declared as he rush outside. "Myungsoo, wait!" I yelled.

I was about to follow him when Sunggyu hyung glared at me saying , "I know you ship them, let him be..the truth is Taemin answered the phone saying Sungjong fell asleep and he brought him to their dorm.." "You all plan this?" "Yep! Who wouldn't? They're mean't to be.." Woohyun smiled. "Wahh! Thank you hyungs! I hope he will confess now!" "He's also in love with Sungjong?" Hoya hyung asked. "Yea- What do you mean also?" "He's in love with Myungsoo for a long time..everyone can sense it.." Dongwoo hyung said. "Ahhh, well lets just leave it to fate.." I sighed in relief.

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"Where the hell is he?" I looked around. Onew-hyung! "Onew-hyung!" I went to the fried chicken store. "L-ah.." he waved his hands full of chicken. "Hyung do you know where Taemin is?" "He's at our dorm...Ah! Sungjong's there..Minnie said he's tired that he fell asleep..." "Hyung can I go get Sungjong there?" "Sure.." "Thanks hyung"

I went to SHINee's dorm. I knocked at their dorm and greeted by Key hyung. "L-ah, are you here to get Sungjongie?" I nodded and went inside. "Taeminnie, L is here to get Sungjongie!" Key yelled. Taemin widened his eyes. "Get inside.." Taemin smiled. "Thanks.."

I looked at him. His face is full of dried tears. I wiped them. Why is he crying? "Sungjongie.." I called out. He cutely open his eyes. "M-Myungsoo h-h-yung.." he stuttered. "Let's go.." I smiled. His tears fell and he run away. "Sungjong!" I yelled as I catch up. 

"Hyung!" "He's in love with you for a long time..ever since you debuted.." Taeminnie hyung smiled. I nodded and ran as fast as I could to caught up with him.

It was raining.

He's also in love with me! Sungjong-ah. I love you too! I grab his wrist and enclose him with my arms. "H-Hyung.." "Sungjong, why were you crying?" "I-I.." He sobbed harder. "Hey-y..Don't cry please.." I pulled him to a place where we won't get wetter. "Just tell me so that I will be sure.." "I-I c-can't y-you wil-l h-hate m-me.." "No I won't I promise.." "P-Promise?" He held out his pinky cutely. How can he do everything cutely? I linked my pinky with him. "Yup..Promise.." I chuckled as I hugged him tighter.

"I-I f-felt j-jealous b-because of S-Sungyeol and y-you.." As he clutched my shirt. "Why is that?" I a little more. "Y-You know why.." He pouted. "Hahaha You're really cute!" I pinched his cheeks. Ok. I can't help it. He's just too cute! "Tell me..I wanna hear it.." I whispered at his ear. I felt him shiver. 

"I-I l-love you, Myungsoo-ah.." He blushed. "I love you too, Sungjong-ah.." I pressed my lips with his. A sweet and innocent kiss. 

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I can't believe it! My dreams came true! He also loves me! I'm kissing him too! We both pulled away. He pressed his forehead against mine. I suddenly felt tears fell from my eyes. I'm becoming a crybaby. "H-hey why a-are you crying again?" he looked worried. "I'm just happy.." I giggled as I wipe my tears. "I made the right choice.." "Uuhm?" He asked as he pulled me to a hug. 

"I made a choice that I'll never stop loving you!" I giggled. "Well, I'll love until infinity runs out!" He smiled. 

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