Today is my birthday in which I am supposed to be happy,to be with the ones I love and to party the night away.But I couldn’t because I felt empty,devoided of my feelings.And here I am,all alone,dressed in my favorite dress,the one you bought for me,wainting and waiting for my loved one to come.

I remember we were living like kings and queens In a little tiny castle made of hopes and dreams It was destiny, it was meant to be, we were so complete, the perfect team.

Then suddenly there's a glitch in the system And in between us is a big strip of distance They say it's supposed to make the heart grow fonder From all I can tell it couldn't be wronger

And staring  at your pictures I can't look away,it’s like I’m trapped,trapped by Seunhyun,by how happy we seemed,so carefree and dreamy.I still remember the pain I felt when we last talked:

Me: A little bit more goes a long way

Seunghyun: A little bit of right goes the wrong way

Me: I keep giving you keep taking

Seunghyun: I'm trying to make a living be patience

I called you today,hoping that you’ll remember,that somehow things between us could get better,and I called and I called but there was no response.And It atched…You used to be so gentle,you used to love me so?What happened to us?Where did it all go away?

“He’s just busy,of course he wouldn’t forget,we’re talking about Seunghyun here!he adores you!” I kept chanting in my mind,and I somehow managed to convince  myself of this until your message came:

Seunghyun:I’m sorry!Busy filming a commercial!Talk to you later!

You didn’t say anything else,you forgot,like you always do lately…and I am starting to believe that I am merely an obstacle in your way.So I send you  a text:

Me:I’m playing our song Seunghyun!I am that lame as to hope that somehow you will remember to come home today!Do you know why?Of course not!You never do this days…I guess you’re busy!take care.

Seunghyun:I’m sorry baby!

Me: All dressed up no where to go So I'm dancing on my ownI've been waiting way too longDancing on my own…but you’re not coming home..

Seunghyun: I don't want you dancing by yourselfAnd I don't want you picturing yourself with someone else I know I made some promises and honestly I wanted this to work out I didn't know the shiny star I found was about to burn outSo what now, we go around like a record I'm feeling disconnected and you're feeling disrespected I don't know how this gonna wrap up but 'til i'm home you should turn that track on

But that’s all I get from you.It’s tiring and I don’t know if I can go on this way.I pack my bags and stare at the clock.You have till midnight to stop me…of I’ll be gone forever.What we had was beautiful and unique,but maybe we were not meant to be,maybe we were just kids dreaming too far and too bold.

Every inch of the house reminds me of you,of the way we used to cherish eachother.I remember,with a bitter smile,the first time we stepped in this house.You wanted to carry me in your arms,but I told you not to:

Me:I’m too heavy!You’ll hurt yourself and then fans will kill me for being a bad girlfriend.

Seunghyun:As if you could be anything than perfect!I want to  carry you in my arms!This will be our home,where we will raise our children,and live happily ever after like in the fairytales.

I even remember the first time we  made love.It was perfect,you were perfect.The candles,the sound of the cracking wood in  the fireplace and your touch were magical.Oh,how much I love you!How much I love this place as well!Everything smelles like you,calls your name…everything..it’s like you’re here,yet you’re not…

Time is ticking my love…but you are not coming back.It’s almost midnight and as I prepare to depart my phone rings.It’s you!So I decide to answer it one last time:

Me:You are not home.It’s over!

Seunghyun:NO!Dont say that baby!i can hear surprise and despair in your voice

Me :I love you so,but it is time for us to end this!You just don’t need me anymore!

Seunghyun: I always think about you Try to not over think about you I always dream about you Try not to dream about you I'm feeling so lost without youI, I, I, I try to come home And it's so hard being out on my own It breaks my heart to leave you alone..

So I start to cry.When it all began to be so hard?

Me:that’s not enough Hyun!I’m just a burden! I said between my sobs.I want you to be happy!I truly do!

Seunghyun:Baby don’t leave!

Me:it’s too late!I love you Seung!

There are only 3 minutes left till midnight.Time passes rapidly.

Seunghyun:Baby don’t,listen to me!Listen to me,don’t go!Baby…

Me:I’m leaving!There’s no turning back now!

So I gather my bags and prepare to leave when you suddenly say:

Seunghyun:Baby open the door!

And my heart swelled!My hands lost their grip on the bags as well as  on the phone.I couldn’t believe it so I timidly made my way to our front door and opened it.And what I found there made my body burst in love.A baschet of red roses greeted me.I took the card and read the four simple words written on it:Happy birthday,my love!And as my vision became blurr because of my tears,the voice I so deeply loved said:

I told you I’ll be home!

So i hope you enjoy it!This is a little gift for my dear chingu Mirela!Happy birthday!