I rushed back home and went straight to my bedroom.

The silence is deafning. I can only hear my own sobbing.

Yes, I'm all alone, crying as always.

Until now, I can't help but cry.

I get it. No one understands me. No one, besides myself.

Or maybe not. I can't understand myself either, especially now.

I never cried this hard. I feel weak.

If only I could take away all the pain just by letting it all out.

That's the problem, I can't. There it goes again.

Things come crashing altogether in my mind as I felt my eyes getting heavier by the minute.

Soon enough, I fell asleep.

 

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I was about to walk when someone threw a crumpled paper to me.

I was surprised when it hit me straight on the forehead.

I looked around but saw no one.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and slowly opened the paper.

"WATCH OUT."

In an eyes' blink, everybody appeared in front of me.

They are holding something in both of their hands.

It's either an egg, a water balloon or a tomato.

I took a step back when they started circling around as they continued shooting y stares at me.

"Don't worry, I'll take it easy this time. I pity you."

Sekyung said walking towards me.

She pushed me hard making me fell on the ground.

My fists tightened. I'm boiling inside.

The truth is I wanted to kill her right now.

She glared at me, stepping closer.

"Dream on girl. There's no way your gonna fight back."

I slowly stood up. I'm starting to feel pain.

"NOW."

As soon as the word slipped through , it all starts again.

I tried to run but I was taken aback by about four strong men.

They pushed me to the center and the crowd began throwing me whatever they were holding.

I lost my balance making me sit on the floor.

I felt dizzy so I closed my eyes.

I can't do anything at this moment except waiting for this to finish on its own.

Before everything turned black, there's one thing I'm sure of.

There is someone who helped me but I didn't see his face clearly.

He's familiar to me. I know I've already seen him somewhere.

 

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I woke up in reality, breathing heavily.

Urgh! I'm having nightmares again.

Actually, this stupid mind just keeps on recalling the worst happenings everyday.

I wish to have someone that would listen to me and let me just cry myself out.

You know, someone to lean on to. Someone I trust.

Someone I love and I know, loves me back.

I placed my hands on my head as a tear skipped from my eye again.

I immediately wiped it away and managed to smile a bit, hoping that it would make me feel better.

I really miss my parents. Until now, I can't understand why they have to leave me at an orphanage.

I can still remember the happiest moments that we've spent together, 15 years ago.

I wonder if they're still here with me. My life could've been better.

I mean, way more better than this. All of this crap shouldn't have been happening.

 

I slowly got out of bed and walked towards the kitchen to drink some refreshing water.

I let out a sigh, calming myself.

I glanced at the clock and realized that I needed to prepare for school.

 

I exited my house to buy breakfast.

I feel really cold, shivering at the breeze blowing a bit hard.

 

On my way back, I'm looking down, not even noticing someone walking the same direction as mine.

He bumped into my shoulder.

I looked up, seeing him bowing 90 degrees.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to bump onto you. My apologies."

And with that, he walked away.

I didn't mind him and continued heading home.

*Wait* I stopped. I looked back but I guess he really walks fast. He seemed familiar.

*Nevermind* I hurried back home, ate my breakfast and headed for school.

 

- THURSDAY - Today I have music classes.

Thinking about it, I made my way to school lazily.

I hate my music classes. I'm now tired of singing, dancing and acting.

This was once my favorite class.

But that was back when everything goes smoothly and according to my will.

Back then, when I still have a friend.

Obviously, it isn't that way nowadays.

I can't ditch those classes for I know it would only be worse.

Sekyung would probably come to me during free periods and cutting would mean that I'm free.

So, I always attend my classes even if I don't want to.

Usually, I would just write anything that comes to my mind at a piece of paper and let my professor talk and talk.

During Chemistry, I automatically sleep. My professor don't mind me.

He talked to me once and said that my habitual sleeping in his class is better than others who were just chatting nonsense and not listening to him.

Besides, he's tired of reminding me everyday.

That's why I have a flat 80 in Chemistry.

 

I entered my classroom and sat down on my chair.

I was earlier than anybody else today.

I waited a bit until all my classmates came and filled the room, making it noisy.

I hate noise. I was getting annoyed.

Soon enough, our professor came and that brought silence.

"Okay class, we have a test today."

The room became noisy once again with people panicking and complaining about not being ready for a test.

It's the first time that our professor in Statistics gives a surprise test.

As for me, I'll take it easy. It doesn't really matter if I fail, as long as I know I did my best.

Test papers were being distributed now. Hopefully, I'll pass this.

My eyes passed through Sekyung, in time that she's looking at me.

She mimicked "Good Luck" then smirked at me.

After that, she turned to her test paper.

I clicked my tongue then started answering the test.

 

After an hour, the papers were submitted and we're all preparing for leaving the room.

Sekyung passed through my table and pushed my bag, making my books fall.

"Oops.. SORRY!"

Then, she and her gang laughed histerically before walking towards the room's exit.

 

I then realized that this day is really starting. It's my free period.

I know Sekyung wouldn't annoy me at this hour for she and her gang is busy with something else.

I can go anywhere in the campus right now and I decided to head to the school garden.

Once I reached it, I sat on the bench and admired the cool breeze and the relaxing feeling I'm enjoying.

I remembered the old times when me and my best friend would sit here and blast off some music.

I immediately stopped thinking about it before I break down into tears again.

I don't want this hour to end fast so I did nothing.

I just let the time pass by itself, although it did quickly.

Now is the time for my Music classes.

 

Boredom is starting to get in my way as I walked towards the Music Room.

There are many people inside the campus.

It's a little bit odd today that everybody seems to be busy doing things on their own.

That's why no one even bothered to steal a single glance at me.

Everyone is focused on what they're doing.

At least I can take a break from all these people today.

I let out a big sigh before entering the room.

Unlike in my first period, everybody came here earlier than me.

The room is full and I can't see any vacant space except the back part which I decided to go and sit at.

 

A minute passed and our professor came.

We're going to have singing lessons today.

Our professor mentioned a song's title then called a name.

"Mr. Kim, I believe you'll sing it best."

Our professor smiled as the guy beside me stood up and cleared his throat.

I can see that he has just enough confidence.

I looked up to him and saw him glancing at me before beginning to sing the song.

I looked back down, listening to his voice.

As the song went on, I closed my eyes, realizing that I'm actually enjoying this moment.

I know him. As far as I remember, his name is Jonghyun.

He has always been my classmate in music class since freshmen.

I heard him sing before but I wonder why I only noticed his beautiful voice just now.

It's so mesmerizing.

He finished the chorus part as I hear hands clapping along with some cheers.

I scanned the room seeing some giggling girls.

Yes, he has the charms.

I slightly shook my head as he sat back down.

I can sense that he's looking at me right now.

I turned to him seeing that sweet smile.

I smiled back before turning to look at the opposite direction.

I felt my cheeks burning up. I'm feeling weird. I bit my lower lip.

Remembering how he gave me that smile and how his puppy eyes twinkled, I can't help but smile.

 

Professor began explaining some things regarding our lesson, and blah blah blah.

I don't know what's wrong with me today but I've got the feeling that I need to focus on what he's saying.

Although, I can't. I glanced at my side.

Jonghyun is scribbling notes as I can see at the corner of my eye.

Meanwhile, Professor talks about pairings.

We need those for some activities like duets and what-so-ever.

He says that we'll be paired according to our voices.

He's a very good teacher and he knows us well, especially how our voices sound.

Scanning through his record book, he started calling names.

Before I knew, I was paired with Jonghyun.

That explains why I'm hearing girls' whispers stating how they wish they'd also be paired with him and that they are so jealous of me, they actually feel like dying right now.

"Ah. One thing more. Those pairings will last this whole semester. And that's final."

Great, now they don't stand a chance. Poor desperate girls.

Maybe next time. Looks like I've got an amazing partner this year.

*bell rings* "Class dismissed."

 

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A/N's Note:

If you don't understand who's POV it is,

Try reading the PROLOGUE.