'Good bye...my love.'

It was you.

Thoughts of you that filled my every waking moment. And soon you started to creep into my dreams too.

I had tried so hard to block you out, only treating you as my friend and favourite dongsaeng, but I knew you wanted more, and you knew that deep down I wanted more too but I was just too scared to act on my feelings. Too scared to think about anything else apart from how people would treat us if they found out we were real.

We were close and I always did skinship with you on stage which I knew made your heart beat faster and colour bloom on your cheeks. I knew your feelings for me. I knew somewhere in me I liked you too: but I was just too scared.

And then that awful day came.

The one where we were told that you're ending your promotions with us, and going to do what you truely loved.

That you were leaving us.

It wasn't me that cried, but I knew that I couldn't say anything to you now because then you'll think that I'm only saying it to keep you with us. I don't want you to think that; but now I can't say it, I was stupid for never telling you.

But then you came to me in my room that night. You thought I was sleeping. I heard you walk towards me and felt you sit on my bed. Your warm hand ghosted through my hair, and I wanted to cry out my feelings towards you, but I stopped myself.

Nothing was said.

Until I heard you draw in breath and say what I never wanted to hear: "Good bye, Siwon. My love."

And with that you left.

I sat up and for the first time, I cried my eyes out for you.

"Good bye, Kibum. I'll always love you."

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