A soft brush on my shoulder gave me shivers as I passed by. I darted my eyes away and proceeded on, not bothering to look back at her. I will just pretend. She wasn't Im Yoona, but a stranger. Just a stranger.

 

Unfortunately, she didn't help me believe that. She tapped on my shoulder, calling with her soft angelic voice, “Donghae Oppa.” She was oozing with warmth, but I felt an icy shiver run up my spine. I cleared my throat and used all of my willpower to walk away, trying to hold on to my collapsing heart that still threatened to shatter.

 

This scene didn't just happen today. It happened once, or twice -no- three times already, and I acted the same. Before I would've thought of it as fate, or destiny.

 

That was before, but this isn't the past. Those three times we walked by each other, those three times we would just go our separate ways, those were the three times I missed her. Im Yoona, the moon that shined brighter than the sun whether it was day or night, the one with the beautiful yet powerful vocals, the one I fell in love with. Sadly.

 

I was her best friend, and that's all she saw me as. I never knew that before, but I would've never known if she didn't tell me about him. I would've kept that smile on my face if she wasn't already taken.

 

All I saw were tears when she came to my mind. My heart would beat so fast that it would hurt. My blood would run cold whenever her hand would accidentally brush upon mine.

 

Was this what love was supposed to feel like? If it was, then I despise this feeling so much. What was the point in me falling in love, if she can never be mine?

 

I tried to convince myself that it wasn't love before and avoided her whenever and wherever. It didn't matter if SNSD and Super Junior were partying together, if we were at SMTOWN's concert, or if we were just lounging in our dorms; If she was near, I would avoid. I tried my best to empty out my mind of anything that might make me remember the girl that shined so brightly.

 

I tried. I tried so hard. And what do I get? Failure.

 

What happened to me then? What did I become? I became a complete coward, wanting to see her so badly. I wanted her so much that even dancing my heart out with Eunhyuk couldn't rid me of my desire. I wanted -no- needed her so bad.

 

I knew that it didn't matter whether I wanted or needed her though, because she already had someone else. I would've fought for her if it was anyone else, but that wasn't the case. My lover's boyfriend just had to be my best friend.

 

Siwon.

 

I cared for them too much to even think about breaking them off. I never could look at them with any hatred, just melancholy. I just wished for their happiness and went on my way to avoid the couple as much as possible.

 

That didn't mean that I didn't feel like they both took everything for me. They took it all: my heart, my soul, my happiness, my love, and even my smile. Everything I've ever dreamed of, my best friend and his companion had it all.

So I let those tears drop down my face once I was sure that she was out of range from noticing. She probably went back to him to spend the small amount of time they would be able to have with each other until SNSD goes to perform on stage. My heart fell heavy at the scene of Siwon letting Yoona snuggle up to his chest and breathing in her strawberry scent, that Alligator whispering sweet nothings to him as they both let warmth take over each other.

 

I felt my hand going up to touch my chest, feeling empty. Why did you touch my heart, Yoona?

 

I let myself silently cry to myself as I heard the announcer call up SNSD to perform their new song "I Got A Boy". To be honest with their new song, I wasn't that big of a fan. I perferred their songs to be somewhere along the lines of "Into the New World" or "Gee" where they had that cute image stowed upon them.

During those times, Yoona and I bonded the most.

But, never the less, I let my ears enjoy some of the beats as I lay my eyes only on the brightly shining brunette who smiled at the camera. She was surely a beauty.

 

I need you... I want you... I love you....

 

 

Feels so bad.

 

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Worst song drabble EVER! I didn't really get that feel like I wanted ;~; awws.

 

Well some of you readers might be mad at me for bashing SNSD's new song :/ Yeah I know that a lot of people like this new change in them...

 

But I'm not really one of those people. I mean, their beats were practically all over the place and it didn't really mix well together. I also (kind of) don't really like the whole hip hop/ romantic concept that they got going on. It just confused me. Sorry.

 

But I'm not here to start picking on SNSD's new song. I'm here to embrace the YOONHAE... that didn't have many moments last year and this year. My hopes are slowly starting to crumble DD:

 

Oh my gawd I'm being so negetive right now...Um...

 

Oh YEAH! Well I got this song from Infinite <3 I'm starting to really REALLY like that band. I mean, I didn't really care for them at first, but then I started looking in to them from my friend and then all this fan girl stuff happened. Here's the song if interested:

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJ-7BwdBdGM

You should really check them out. You'll be hooked instantly. And...um... you should start being a WooGyu shipper after.

Well this is getting a bit awkward... Have some WooHyun heart throws

Bye Bye~! ^^;;