Lee Hi’s POV

My name is Lee Ha Yi and I’m a new YG artist. I was revealed to the public during the first season of “Kpop Star”. Unfortunately, I didn’t win but Yang Hyun Seuk Sunbaenim, one of the judges on this show, decided to sign me under his agency.

It’s an amazing opportunity for me to debut under the name of this famous agency. My first work just before my official debut was a featuring for an Epik High song called “It’s cold”, song included in their latest album “99”. It just felt like a dream to work with this legendary hip hop group. They were really nice with me during the recording and they even praised me for my professionalism and my voice. It gave me confidence for my upcoming solo single. 

Now I’m finally ready to make my official solo debut. I’m really pressured by the anticipation around me. I know that everybody is waiting for the debut song of the “Kpop Star” finalist and I don’t want to disappoint the persons who supported me during the show and YG who believes in me and my skills.

Few days ago, I received my debut song which is the work of Masta Wu, Choice37 and Lydia Paek Sunbaenims. The song is called “1,2,3,4” and I’ll debut under the name of Lee Hi. I still have to record the song and film the mv. The release will follow quickly after.

Release day

I’m so happy since my debut song is making an all kill on music charts. According to the feedbacks I’m receiving, people seem pleased by my first solo single. The only criticisms I received concern my awkwardness in the mv. I totally understand it since I’m still uncomfortable when I’m in front of cameras. I’m neither an actress nor a dancer so yeah I’m awkward but I want to be recognized for my voice and not for my dancing or acting.

Debut stage on Inkigayo

I would make my first live stage appearance since Kpop Star in a few minutes and I was overwhelmed by the stress. I needed to control my nervousness or my voice would be unsteady during the filming.

My stylist, make-up artist and hairdresser were flying around me like a bees swarm around a flower adjusting my hair, my clothes and my make-up.

A staff member suddenly entered my dressing room. It was now my turn to go on stage so I stood up and left my dressing room. I was walking like a zombie on my way to the filming set, not really thinking about anything except from my growing stress when I bumped into BAP, one of the hottest rookie groups of the year. I recognized them thanks to their signature blonde hair. I bowed down, feeling awkward as always when I was meeting new people. When I stood up again, my eyes met the eyes of one of the blonde heads. I didn’t know their names so I didn’t know who he was but I immediately thought he was really cute. They all bowed down and encouragingly gave me a “fighting”. I stuttered a “thank you” before leaving them in a hurry. I didn’t want them to think that I was a weirdo and plus I needed to be on stage within five minutes from now.

I still took a glance over my shoulders and saw one of the blonde head nudging the cute blond head while the four others laughed. I brushed it off and rushed into the corridors towards the stage. My heart was flipping into my chest. I finally arrived near the filming set and a staff member told me that it was now my turn so I walked on the stage. My eyes blinked, adjusting to the intense lights. Despite my nervousness, I felt reassured by the presence of my dancers who gave me comforting looks.

The background music started playing and for the rest…..I didn’t remember since I was in a daze during the whole song. Suddenly, I heard the applauses of the crowd and I smiled. I just had my debut stage for my first solo song and everything went smoothly according to the reaction of the audience. I immediately felt lighter at the thought as if a weight was lifted from my chest. I exited the filming set and my dancers congratulated me.

I returned to my dressing room and received the visit of Epik High Sunbaenims. They congratulated me too before returning to their own dressing room to prepare for their stage later on the show.

As the door closed, I immediately fished in my handbag and grabbed my phone. I made a quick research about BAP and that’s when I found his name, the name of the cute blonde head I saw earlier: Moon Jongup.

At the end of the show, all the artists who appeared in the TV show, including me, came back on stage. I stood there ….awkwardly of course and since I didn’t have anyone to talk to I tried to steal glances at Jongup the cute blonde head. As I was doing so, our eyes met once again making me blush. I diverted my eyes from him and nodded at whatever the MCs just said.

I really had to be careful from now on.

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Jongup’s POV

I finally saw her today. My heart was pounding into my chest at the thought. She looked like an angel in her black dress with shiny stars.

When we bumped into her in the corridor earlier, I couldn’t help but stare at her blankly. I had been admiring her since her first appearance on Kpop Star. Her voice immediately touched my heart and I instantly became a fan. When she lost during the ultimate episode of Kpop Star, I was so disappointed for her ….and for me. There was no way I would be able to meet her on music programs now that she had been defeated by the equally talented Park Ji Min. When the news about her being recruited by YG Entertainment surfaced, I felt a warm sensation in my chest, the hope of meeting her came back, filling my heart with happiness. When I heard about her making a featuring with Epik High, I was really excited to hear their collaboration. And finally, she released her first solo song. The first time I watched the mv, I didn’t even listen to the song, all my attention focused on her and her adorable awkwardness. I heard people complaining about that but personally, I thought it was part of her charms.

During the Inkigayo filming and backstage, our eyes met twice and each time, my heart skipped a beat. I was almost certain that the second time, she blushed. So cute! Of course, in our van, my members didn’t miss the occasion to tease me about me finally meeting my crush. Indeed, they knew that I was a fan of her and I even revealed earlier that day on ‘Shindong’s Shimshimtapa‘ that I was interested in her. Shindong asked about a girl group but I couldn’t think about any other girl than her so I blurted out her name.

I suddenly wondered if she knew about my little fanboy confession.

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Lee Hi’s POV

As soon as I came back into my bedroom, I opened my laptop. I needed to learn more about this Moon Jongup. I wasn’t really into idol groups (even if it was well-known that I was a TOP fangirl!! So embarrassing!!) so I didn’t know much about BAP. I started by watching all their music videos. Their five title songs were catchy. Three of them were quite tough while the other two revealed their cute side. I immediately understood that Jongup was the lead dancer. He was simply amazing and in “No Mercy”, his dance solo was really impressive. I considered my own dancing skills and immediately frowned. The dancing skills were really unfairly distributed by fairy godmothers at birth.

I continued my researches by reading each member’s biography. I spend much more time on Jongup’s biography. I noticed that he was one year older than me. As I had already guessed, he was the lead dancer with Zelo, the maknae. Much to my surprise, I realized while checking some pics that he wasn’t only cute but also y. I immediately felt a rush of blood in my cheeks so I raised my cold hands to my face to cover them and to cool them down. People were usually calling me emotionless but it was because they didn’t know the real me, they just knew the shy me who appeared on broadcasts.

One hour later, I closed my laptop and went to bed, a smile floating on my lips.

Debut stage on MCountdown

As I was preparing in my dressing room, I couldn’t help but wonder if BAP would appear on this show this week so I discreetly asked my stylist about the other artists who would performed today. She listed a lot of artists and to my pleasure BAP was one of them.

My second debut stage on MCountdown went on smoothly and I received the same amount of applauses than on my debut stage on Inkigayo. I even heard some fanchants.

At the end of the show, I was standing next to the MC with K.Will Sunbae. Indeed I was facing him for this week win. After an unbearable wait, the MC pronounced my name and it took me few seconds to realize that I just won on my debut stage. Lee Hongki handed me the microphone. I grabbed it and looked at the crowd in front of me. My voice was a bit shaky as I thanked all the persons who helped me for my debut. Then fellow artists congratulated me before leaving the stage. My encore stage was a bit disjointed because of all the emotions rushing into my mind but everybody understood. A first win was always moving.

As I was coming back to my dressing room with two of my dancers, I met BAP again. I instantly felt my heart beating louder into my chest and I tried to avoid Jongup’s gaze. Bang Yong Gook, BAP’s leader congratulated me for this first win and so I thanked him while bowing. The situation was so uncomfortable for me. Thankfully, our encounter didn’t last more than a minute since BAP’s manager called them, urging them to leave since they had to attend another filming.

When they were out of sight, one of my dancers looked at me and grinned.

“So how does it feels to meet your first fanboy?” she asked.

“What are you talking about?” I said raising an eyebrow.

“You don’t even know that you have already one fanboy amongst the BAP members?” she beamed.

My eyes immediately widened at the revelation. Could it be the cute y Jongup? I hoped so.

“No no I didn’t hear about that. Who is it?” I asked, feigning disinterest.

My heart quickened its path with anticipation.

“BAP were guests on radio broadcast of ‘Shindong’s Shimshimtapa‘ few days ago. They were taking part in a quiz game and after receiving a penalty, member Jongup was asked to honestly reveal the girl group member he’s been interested in lately. Shindong added a condition since he excluded the SECRETs members from the possibilities. That’s when Jongup revealed that he has been interested in you. He even added that he found you really talented and unique. Do you realize? He didn’t choose a girl group member but he chose you. That’s amazing don’t you think?” she exclaimed.

My mind went blank immediately after the mention of his name. I couldn’t believe it. This cute blonde head choose me amongst all the talented and beautiful girl group members, me the awkward soloist. It was really an honour and a pleasure. As the thought finally reached my brain, I smiled.

My first fanboy was a Best Absolute Perfect one and I couldn’t wait to meet him again.

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