wooyoung was in fron of him facing cheereen with a smile plastered in his face, it seems they were talking about some funny stuff because cheereen will occasionally laugh , the sight was hurting him from the depth of his heart but nothing he can do about it at least he's still smiling and that's all that matters .. Nichkhun thought, although it was painful to admit that he wouldn't be the reason of wooyoung smile anymore, he has to admit it and accept they were not together anymore,pulling himself from his heart breaking thought, he suddenly stand up couldn't take to look at the unhealthy stuff in front of him causing the people around the table look at him in alarm " nichkhun, why you didn't eat your food? " Ask his mom looking at the food in his plate then to him " I'm not hungry mom, I need to go now, I have to do something in school "

" But wooyoung is not done with his breakfast "

" Its ok mom, taec will give me a drive " wooyoung kept his mouth close along the conversation while looking at nichkhun who tried hard to not look at him even just one glance, his tears threatening to flee again as he drop his head remembering what happen the night before, the way nichkhun ask him " what happen?, what's wrong? Why you want to break up with me? " desperately, all of those words keep repeating in his ears yet he only simply say

because this is wrong

I know but we can fight for it,can't we?, I'm sure moms will understand us!! " He seen how lost nichkhun at that moment and how his voice become shaky, desperate, pleading to him yet all he do was shook his head and says " I'm sorry.." while his tears stream down his face as he failed to hold it back, he tried to hide his face from nichkhun's view but it was late nichkhun is fast to catch it, he lifted wooyoung's face and wipe off those tears " its ok, don't cry, if this is what you really want then I understand just don't cry " and nichkhun hug him for the last time before leaving his room

" So apparently you two are not together anymore? " Ask taec as nichkhun tells him what happen " yes " simple replied nichkhun staring at the cheerful clear ocean sky, the sun that shining so brightly are apparently contradiction of what he felt at the moment

And you just let it happen? "

" What you want me to do? "

" At least try to talk to him that everything will gonna be fine "

" I tried to but he just say I'm sorry and when he cry, I realise that his decision is really hard for him too, you know I'll fight for him and I can be selfish for him but I don't want to see him cry and make everything even more harder for him so I did what I think is the best for him... Even it means... to let him go " nichkhun said to be fact but the last words turn into a low murmur " but you know he loves you " point out taec putting his big arm on nichkhun's shoulder " yes I know but he already made a decision, and I respect it if it help to make it easier for him "

" Will you gonna be ok? "

" Yeah..maybe not as fast as I wanted to but eventually " nichkhun sigh then proceed to talk " I didn't really expect this thing to come, I thought I will never experience this feeling, this awful feeling of being broken hearted, I've tasted life but never really ate dramatic things cause it's somehow gives me a feeling of bitterness but now.. I couldn't avoid it " he faintly smile

" you know dramatic things always has bitterness "

" Yeah, but I thought I can avoid it, unfortunately I was wrong, and look at me now trying hard to be strong to at least endure the pain " he look down fighting back the tears in the corner of his eyes that will show his real emotion, taecyeon patted his back sempathically " you know, it's not weakness for a man to cry, it just show our real emotion that we kept from everyone, so you can cry, you need to let it out somehow " he said, nichkhun sniff and breath hard " nah.. I would just gain everyones attention if I did "

" You always have their attention so nothing would be different " nichkhun chuckle at taec's ambiguous mark " so how would you handle this? Both of you are living in the same roof "

" I don't know, I'll have to do a medication for my broken heart first "

" how are you going to do that? "

" no other way but back to the old me "

" that's a bad medication " taec oppose, cocking his eyebrow " yet it might work.."

Days pass, or nichkhun would say torturous days passed to be exact, and like what he had talk to taec nichkhun put his old self as a musk yet not completely the old him because there's something he couldn't do anymore that wooyoung had cause to him, yes everynight he's on the club but he wasn't there to have a wild night, to drown himself to alcohol or grinding his body with random people in the dance floor but to watch those transmitting lights stimulates the dark room, for self indulgence he tried to appreciate everything in the bar , he flirt with girls but he couldn't bring himself dating one,sure he can easily do that but part of him saying it's wrong to use someone for your own good, guess some part of him really change because of wooyoung

after the class nichkhun will spend his time with his friends taec,chan and jinwoon if they were not with their boyfriends and if they were with them he'll go home with a quick change of clothing and go somewhere no one knows where, he doesn't want to stay home because of the awful atmosphere in the house,the atmosphere in his surrounding in the house just make his heart rip into tiny pieces even more if it's possible, he needs to build a barrier or wall from wooyoung or anyone in the house to avoid questions or worse interrogation, he has to avoid places and things that could remind him of wooyoung, even wooyoung itself cause if he wouldn't it's impossible to forget his feeling about the latter and certainly will explode and probably unintentionally hurt the younger not physically but emotionally and everyone around them, avoiding and ignoring the younger was his best option even though it's really hard to do so, but this is what he need and the younger seems just fine with it

there are those times that wooyoung would try to talk to him and he doesn't want to act rude towards the younger, he doesn't want the younger think that he's mad just because he broke up with him, so he would just give a simple short answer and faintly smile cause he can't fake a gleeful smile when his heart is painfully beating, he doesn't really want to be obvious about the avoidance his doing towards the younger even though it's too obvious, luckily the younger doesn't know how to prolong the conversation so he would take the younger's silence as a chance to bid good night and retreat to his room to get some sleep

sleep is what he needed after those restless nights and good sleep will help him to forget everything for little while..though it's hard to do when the thoughts of wooyoung keeps circulating in his mind " why I keep on missing you, why you've plant those wonderful memories in my heart that so hard to demolish" He mumble closing his eyes and shutting off his mind for the sake of good sleep

In the other hand, while nichkhun thought that wooyoung take the break up easily, he was completely wrong, wooyoung would cry his heart every night, breaking up with nichkhun was the hardest thing to do, it shuttered his heart wantonly and the avoidance and ignorance he receive from nichkhun slowly kills him, he miss him so much that he just want to throw his body in nichkhun's warm embrace and stay their forever, he miss those big warm arm looping around him saying it was there to protect him and keeping him safe, the feeling of those lips gently caressing his telling how passionate his feeling for him, those smile and loving gaze that sent only for him hinting how deep his feeling for him and those sweet words and sneaky actions whispering how much he loves him, he miss every little thing about nichkhun he must say

" His ignoring me!! " He complain to his bestfriends, wiping his tears away

" I don't think that's an precise word to use, you told me he's still talking to you " minjun make a point rubbing the crying boy's back

" yes but he's quit cold and he always avoiding me most of the time "

" Wooyoungie, you broke up with him and what do you expect him to do? " Said minjun brutally honest then soften his gaze at the crying boy " wooyoungie, don't expect that things will still be the same because it will not be the same anymore" explain minjung cupping the younger's cheeks to wipe those tears

" But hyung he doesn't need to ignore me, does he mad because of my decision? "

" I don't think his mad at you because he can never be and neither ignoring you but avoiding you maybe yes, I'll be honest to you wooyoungie, I'm not saying his right or blaming you either but this is your decision, your impulsive action left you both being hurt " minjun look at him with sympathy, trying to sound soft as he want to be, wooyoung attentively listen to him and look at him with those red puppy eye, swollen because of the crying, he didn't say anything instead wait for his minjun hyung to proceed " avoiding and ignoring you is not his madness, it's his solution to remind himself that you two are over and to refrain himself for doing stupid thing that might hurt you, his doing this not just for his own benefits but you, it's not necessary but the only easy way for him "

" But hyung even though I broke up with him, we can still be friends right? "

" Wooyoungie you are still friends..but he needs time to forget about his feelings for you first so then he can act just a friend " wooyoung cringe at the words escape from minjun, his thoughts are fleeting around the space and the thought of nichkhun forgetting him shot an unbearable pain within his heart, tears uncontrollably rolls down his cheeks as he mutter " f-forget...me " in between choke and gasp, he could hear the wail of his shaky voice and his heart itself " h-yung..I-i "

" Ssh..stop crying and instead why don't you do something to end your misery, conquer your fear and face your mom before you loose him and regret for the rest of your life"

Nichkhun hopped in the stairs after the quick changing,as usual on his way of escaping once again, trying to not get caught of his frequent business

" Brother.. " At least he was trying but he has no luck this time, unfortunately his younger sister saw him and approach him pulling wooyoung's hand with her nichkhun look at their hand but quickly averted his eyes, no he wouldn't let anyone see that he's affected with that little thing specially wooyoung it would just give a guilt to the younger " are you going again? " The gleeful voice of cheereen held him to reality " yes " he feigned a smile

"why you're always going out alone, don't you want to go with us? Me and woo oppa would go somewhere " pout cheereen but then exclaim in excitement, nichkhun chuckle his younger sisters face " hmm I would love to but it's your date I don't want to be an intruder so enjoy yourselves ok " wooyoung's eyes widened and abruptly look at nichkhun but it's apparent that nichkhun would not bother to look at him and it feels like someone just clutch his heart and makes it really hard to breath in a bitter feeling knowing that nichkhun was really going to forget him

Wooyoung and cheereen back home after an hour, cheereen notice the dullness of wooyoung's eyes, the gloomy face and somehow the boy was slacking, he's with cheereen but his mind is somewhere else. she presume that wooyoung was not feeling well, therefore, they decided to go back home

wooyoung told cheereen he just probably tired and need to rest and cheereen but it, she cheereen smile at him and left his room

After the girl had left his room, he slouch on his bed and sigh deeply looking at the ceiling and began to contemplate what ever he has to think about and made a specific decision that wouldn't be burden his heart, he spent most of his time contemplating lying on his bed, he didn't even notice that the time is constantly ticking and eventually passed, he practically frown as he look out the window seeing that it's already dark and the sun. Had set already, he was tempted to go down stairs to see if nichkhun was there but then again he remember that nichkhun wouldn't come back this early so he slump back in the soft concrete and try to take a nap but it was impossible either so he just lay there doing nothing but stare at ceiling spacing out

" Woo, baby.. " A soft knock and a call of his mom reach his ears and within a second a low creak of door followed with his mom come to his vies " baby cheereen told me you're not feeling well.. " Said his mom sound worried " I'm just tired mom and I'm fine now, I had adequate time to rest " he smile and sat on the edge of his bed

" thank god you're fine, if you had enough rest then come dinner is ready " his mom sigh in relief taking his hand to drag him in the dining table and sited him, the food were still the same his mom and mrs.horvejkul help each other to cook the dishes, they always cook tasty and delicious foods but since he and nichkhun broke up he couldn't taste anything but bitterness, the two woman ask where's nichkhun and why he's always back home late, they rarely see him in the house either and why suddenly nichkhun's demeanour change, this is something remind mrs.horvejkul of nichkhun's doings back to their homeland " oh his probably on his habit. Again " she shrug like it was nichkhun's natural demeanour " yet I thought he had change,I guess I'm wrong "

" And by a habit, what do you mean? " Inquire mrs.jang wooyoung attentively listen to the conversation around the table

" nichkhun oppa always in the club back then, he used to play with random girls " wooyoung's heart sank as soon as those words had left cheereen's mouth " I think wooyoung oppa knows it since they are always together before " added the girl, wooyoung eyes widen the three pair of eyes are practically looking at him, somehow it intimidate wooyoung cause it feels like they were accusing him for something he doesn't know, ok maybe he know or perhaps he know the reason why nichkhun act like that lately but definitely he doesn't know where he is and no idea who's with him and his heart is crying again at the thought of nichkhun with someone else "uhm..he didn't tell me.. about that" he stutter trying to avoid the three pair of eyes was now looking at each other with a sad expression on their face and a trail of guilt that hidden to wooyoung

Wooyoung yawn for a ninth time, he was siting in the couch his arm in the arm rest, his eyes are practically begging him to close and sleep but wooyoung was so stubborn and fighting the unbeatable sleepiness he can barely open eyes, frequently look at the ticking clock in the wall , its already 1 am and nichkhun was still out doing something that wooyoung doesn't know and don't ing want to think about what his doing right now, he couldn't fight the sleep anymore and gave in, his head upon his arm rested in the arm rest, his position wasn't comfortable but the sleep knocks him down, he even unable to close the tv not even the sound of closing door could wake him, he drifted to his slumber deeply waiting for nichkhun who came right after he drifted to his slumber

nichkhun walk in the living room closing the tv is the first thing he did and was startled as his eyes caught a figure in the couch sleeping peacefully with an uncomfortable position, it's dark in the living room but the moonlight that filter in the dark room was adequate to see the younger boy's lean figure apparently, nichkhun permitted himself to indulge and stare at the figure in a stolen moment, oh how he missed that boy,how he miss wrapping his arm around the younger's boy, how he missed pressing his lips against that perfect luscious lips, how he miss his smile for him,laughter and his hugs in a designated moments, he miss him so much

Nichkhun stop from his thoughts as he notice how uncomfortable woo's sleeping position in the couch he step forward and then hesitated to what he was going to do, what if wooyoung wake's up and what if he forget they were over, what if wooyoung... After contemplating he sigh and shove every what ifs out of his mind and cautiously lifted the sleeping boy, carry him bridal style careful to not make a noise and watch out his steps afraid that one wrong step and little noise would wake wooyoung, he reach the sleeping boy's room and cautiously flick the knob, he sigh as he put the boy on his comfy bed pulling the cover to cover wooyoung's body, the boy didn't stir even a bit, he still look so deep in his sleep, nichkhun stare at his sleeping face a little more then headed for the door but before he can open the door, a voice startled him