Anonymous: After maybe, a month of not cutting myself, I cut myself 4 days ago, just a little, i don't really cut too much. The day after that, i think i was cursed or something -.- so, i had the worst day ever. i woke up really early just to go to school so i can get a ticket for a show 'cause it's a requirement for one of my subjects. i went there alone and the line was really long. my friend called me and told me to just insert in the line, well, maybe behind her.

I didn't listen to her because i still had a bit of conscience.Also i was even thinking of skipping my first class because i knew that lining up for a ticket will take time.After around an hour, my friend called me and told me that we won't be having our first class because our teacher said so. i was thankful and stayed in line.After another hour, the tickets were sold out.It didn't reach me! so we were told to just go home. Then i saw my friend who got a ticket, she asked me if i got one and i told her i didn't, she told me that i was hardheaded and stuff, if i just listened to her and inserted in the line,i could have gotten a ticket. I was so pissed because i knew that some just got to insert

before the others and i couldn't stand that i was the one who was considerate to the others and yet,i'm the stupid and stubborn one. i mean, it's just not right. so i just walked home. yeah, obviously, i was alone again. suddenly, i tripped because the road was wet. nobody was near me,but i saw someone from afar, but he was damn far so, i got up myself.i got dirty and wet because of that. 

i was about to cry because i felt really bad about everything, but i didn't,because i hate crying in public and no one was there to help me.I also felt really embarrassed when i saw people who passed by me, looking at my pants. all i could do was pretend nothing happened.

finally, when i got back to the dormitory, i cried.

It was odd 'cause the day i cut myself, i didn't cry because no tears would come out.i was really tired of crying already, but it seemed that, it was worse that day. and i just want to let you know that 

this was just one of my worst days. so yeah, i just wanted to share, 'cause i feel like sh*t everyday. i just try to hide my feelings and act like nothing bad is happening,but i am happy i can still laugh and forget about things most of the time. Now, i have these other inconsiderate people who are offering me to buy their tickets which are 4 times more expensive than the original price.People are driving me crazy.

YourDad: A girl like that shouldn't have the honour of being called your friend.

She's putting you down for not doing something that she wanted just because you were doing the right thing. 

Sometimes things aren't fair in life, and people don't have the right minds to do the right thing. Special people like you have something like a sixth sense, where you know what's right and what's wrong. 

It's terrible that you fell, and there was no one around to pick you up.

You're not alone. I know what your feeling.  The feeling where no one understands you, and the world is completely frustrating and you want to be sent free from this terrible world. But trust me, everything will be okay. When you find that one thing that you love most, it brightens up your whole day. (Mine is Super Junior) You just have to find something to love... like this.

Crying isn't bad all the time, everyone has to do it every now and then. We all stress, and crying is my favourite way to let it all out. Maybe scream into a pillow will help, or doing something like running. Running helps me sometimes too, to run away from my life and search for a better one. ^^  

Oh,

and btw,

tell those people,

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*random SHINee gif xD sorry*