Out of all the song,bands and people..?

Why do when I open the tv it’s him,it’s that song..?

How much that song hurt me..

It always reminded me of my past..

BANG YONG GUK was my ex boyfriend.

It is true that Yonggukie made that song thinking me all the way..

I was his ONLY girlfriend and I know that for sure..

He was the first guy I ever dated..and I was the first girl he ever dated..

But everything change...

[ Flashback ]

“Babe, how’s class..?” I shut my locker and saw Yong guk in front me..

“Younggukie!! Class was fine, boring as always..”

He took my hands in his,making me smile along the way.

“Lunch?” he asked.

“Sure boo..”

As always we were in our school garden having lunch that he made on his own.

We would always takes turns to make lunch and it so happens that today was his turn.

I sat down and he handed me the lunchbox..

“Open it babe..”

I agreed and opened it only to reveal a cake with “Happy Anniversary”

“Is today 1 march..?” I asked.

“Yeah~ don’t you remember the date..?”

“Boo, this year there’s 29 february...our anniversary is tomorrow..”

“No babe.. That would be next.......Jeongmal..??”

“Neh..aigo boo..How can you forgot..?”

“So..? I’m one day early..?” he said while he scartch his neck.

“It’s okay boo.. I got your present here…” I pointed my bags.

“Really..???” he beamed and I nodded.

“Me too.. I got it..” he search in his bag.

“Okay, in count of 3, we pulled out our gift..” I suggested.

“1..”

“2..”

“3..”

I pulled out the headphone Yongguk always wanted but couldn’t afford.

And he hold a black long box..

“Here babe, my present for you..” I took it and opened. It was a bracelet that have our name written on it.

“Boo~” That’s all that came out from my mouth.

“Let me put it on for you…” he took the bracelet and put it on me.

“There! Perfect! Babe, take good care of it, I spent 2 months of my paycheck to buy that..”

“Boo, I don’t know what to say..” he caressed my cheek and kiss my forehead.

“Just stay with me, I won’t ask for more..” I nodded and gave him his present.

“I know it’s not as expensive as what you brought for me but.. I know you love this..”

“Babe!! I can’t believe you remember this..” he opened it immediately and plugged it into his iPod.

I gave him 1 thumbs up asking is if it’s good..

He replied with raising both his thumbs.. and soon he started to rap and I just stared at him lovingly. He took of the headphone and sat closer to me. He wraps his arms around my shoulder and make my head laid on his shoulder.

“I love you babe..”

“I love you too boo..”

[ End of flashback ]

Unknowingly I smiled and still not looking away from the screen..

Now, he was being interview..and he smiled.

I can see his gum teeth and it make me smiled wider.

Those smile of him always make me happy and ease me a little.

Then, the reporter had to ruined it by asking him question about “I remember”, the song that was inspired by your truly, me.

In a blink of an eye, his smile fade away that only meant 1 thing.

He’s thinking of me. As much as it hurts how he always went to depressed mode whenever he remember me.. but it’s true.

The reporter had to pulled him back to earth three times during the interview cos he dozed off quite a lot.

He began telling how I cheated on him twice, he forgave me the first time but the second time ,he had enough and leave me.

By the end of the interview I could see him on the edge of crying but he cover it up with a fake smile.

He then shouted their signature grretings.

“We’re B.A.P, we’ll work harder, Yes Sir!!”

I was smiling wide, looking at him achieving him long life dreams..

Although he had to suffer in the beginning, I’m proud of him..

Soon, I was disturbed by my baby..

“Omma!! Omma!!” my little  baby called me.

“Yeah,yonggie.. What’s wrong..?” I smiled as I took little Yonggie in my arms.

“Food omma..!! Yongguk is hungry..” he smiled sweetly while clapping his hands together.

“Arasso, let’s go to the kitchen..”

I lifted him up but when B.A.P started singing Warrior, Yonggie got out off my hold and ran to tv screen.

“Appa!! Appa!! Walliol..!!” he started singing the song but his “”R” got mixed with “L”.

“Aigo,yonggie.. it’s WARRIOR not WALLIOL..”

“Huh..??” he turned around and look at me with his wide eyes.

“WALLIOL..?”

“Aniyo, WARRIOR..” I tried to  make him pronounce it the right way.

“WALLIOL..” But still not working.

“Aigo,let’s go eat now..come on..”

“Aniyo, I wanna watch appa..” he slump into the couch and started clapping his hand together.

“Appa! Hwaiting!!!!” I sighed and sat next to him.

“Aigo, arasso..” I started singing and cheering with him.

Eventhrough I was a bad memory for him but I always believe the reason why he’s an idol right now is bcos of me.

He may not know the reason why I cheat on him and I think it’s better if he didn’t know.

I cheated on him bcos..

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I was pregnant with his child.

I knew a child would burden his life..and he was just started his trainee days..

At the time, it was the only way I see..

At the time, it was the right way I could figure out..

And I make him hate me..so, he can continued his career without having a burden on his shoulder to carry.

Yongguk, I remember….

I STILL LOVE YOU DEEPLY..