"Perfect" that is how people describe our relationship. We've been together for 5 years, yet our love for each other never change. We're so in love. Yeah, like other couples, sometimes we had those little fights and misunderstanding but at the end of the day, our love for each other stays the same.

But the main conflict was he is an idol. He's the leader of the kpop group SHINee. Maybe for him its not a big problem. But for me it is. Even though I'm always smiling when people asked me about him being so popular and idolized by many people, deep inside I'm hurting because every time our date or bonding being postponed because of their busy schedule. I know I should understand him, Well honestly I'm giving my best to understand him, but it comes to the point that I want to give up. Many "WHAT IFs" are forming on my mind. Its not that I don't love him anymore, God knows how much I love him, its just that its so hard to pretend that you're OK when you're really hurting. It really hurts when you love the person so much, so much that it give you so much pain. Our relationship was approved by their fans, yeah its because they have an image to protect. Well I don't think that the approval of their fan is needed for us to be together, but what can I do, he is a hallyu star.

What hurt me so much is when I asked him about what we should do in our 6th anniversary. It is on February 11, but unfortunately they have their concert. When I go to his manager to ask if they could excuse Onew so that we can celebrate our special day, he told me to just watch their concert because Onew can't be excuse because he's the leader and the concert is very important because it will be held at the biggest concert venue in Korea. When I got home I cried a lot. Its so frustrating to know that the concert is more important than to our relationship. But the next day Onew convinced me to go to their concert because Jang Wooyoung of 2PM was one of their special guests. I love Jang Wooyoung's ONLY GIRL and Onew knew it that's why he said it to me. He knew I will be happy. Aissh He really know my weaknesses.

FEBRUARY 11

Our 6TH ANNIVERSARY

SHINee SHINING CONCERT

The concert was really DAEBAK! Now I know why they are called HALLYU STARS. I really had fun. Actually Its my first time watching their concert, sounds weird right? But its true.

After their last song, all lights went off, then when it open Jang Wooyoung was standing at the center stage then start singing ONLY GIRL.

http://youtu.be/jHRpwxGFdxE

nuneul gamgo i norael deureo
neoreul wihae seoman bureuneun norae
kkume seodo neoreul manna
nae sarangeul marhal geoya
nae gyeote nega itdaneun ge
kkog kkumman gata

utneun neoreul bol ttaemada
yeppeun neoreul bol ttaemada
jogeumssig sarange ppajin nan
jamdeulgi jeon saenggakae neol
nuneul gamgo norae hae neol
neoui kkumi doego sipdago

My only girl
My only girl
My only girl
My only girl
My only , My only , My only girl

gieoghalge neoui nuneul
nal jikyeojun neoui nunmul
maeil nan neol hyanghae ttwineun geol
deudgo itni nae mogsori
neoreul hyanghan nae maeumi
neoui kkumi doego sipdago

My only girl
My only girl
My only girl
My only girl
My only , My only , My only girl

You’re my, you’re my, only girl

 The moment I saw Wooyoung I scream like a real fan girl but when he started singing ONLY GIRL, I was mesmerized by his voice. I felt like an angel sang. ONLY GIRL is my favorite song. I hope one day Onew will sing it for me.

But I was shocked with the next scene. Onew came out. "Thank you for that wonderful song Wooyoung ssi." He said. "No prob. Goodluck! Hwaiting!" Wooyoung said. Then walks out from the stage. "Are you enjoying?" Onew shouts asking the crowd. The fans got crazy and scream "YES~" Then Onew said "KAMSAHAMNIDA!!" "Ja, I know you're curious by why did Wooyoung ssi wish me good luck, well actually this night is really important for me not just because its our concert, its because me and ChamHee is celebrating our 6th year anniversary"

"kyaaa... oppa chukae" I heard the crowd say. I'm shocked! I didn't expect this. I didn't know that Onew would announced it. Then the spotlight was on me "ChamHee, can you please go up here on stage." Then suddenly Minho and Taemin fetch me and guide me going up on stage. When I reach the stage Minho and Taemin gave me a microphone and hug me then they both said "Noona, chukae!" Then Onew said "Yah! Back off, She's already my girlfriend and soon to be MRS.LEE ." Then he holds my hand causing fans to scream again. We go to the center of the stage. I ask him What's the meaning of this.

"ChamHee, happy 6th anniversary. I want you to be the most happy girl in the world that's why I prepared this. Listen to this song and you will know what I mean." He said. Then start singing. Wait... it is also ONLY GIRL.... oh! he make it English version.

Close your eyes and listen to this song
This song I sing for you
I will meet you in my dreams 
and tell you about my love
Having you next to me 
feels like a dream

When I see you smile, 
when I see pretty you
I fall in love more and more
I think of you before I go to bed, 
I close my eyes and sing of you
I want to be your dream

My only girl 
My only girl
My only girl 
My only girl
My only, My only, My only girl

I’ll remember your eyes, 
your tears that protected me
I am running toward you every day
Are you listening to my voice? 
My heart toward you?
I want to be your dream

My only girl 
My only girl
My only girl 
My only girl
My only, My only, My only girl

You’re my, you’re my, only girl

My tears kept falling. Its tears of joy. I'm so happy. After he sing, he kiss me and said "HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY, I love you my ChamHee." I hug her and said "I love you more Lee JinKi."

I hear the crowd scream again. "Wait there's more my dear," then he get the small box. Oh my God!! Don't tell me he's going to propose to me right here, as in here on stage with an 100,000 audience. "MALDWANDAE" I said. Then his expression became serious. 

"I want you to know that since the day we met I've fallen deeply in love with you. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that you came into my life, and how you make every day so special. You are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my best friend, my one true love, my one and only. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today. Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living.

Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming, and I can't handle it when I don't see or even talk to you every day. A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine, a day without food, or a day without air. I need you when I’m cold to keep me warm; I need you in my life to keep me happy. You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just can't carry on and I truly treasure that. Every moment spent together is another one of my dreams coming true.

I apologize straight from the heart for ignoring you whenever you make an attempt to make me feel better after our pointless arguments. I know I overreact a lot, and I'm sorry. I‘m ashamed of how I treat you and I'm sorry I've been so moody lately. I'm afraid I'll say something to make you forget the feelings you have for me when I  bring up stupid things. I'm worried you wouldn‘t want me anymore. I know I can make you mad, but I promise you that this is all going to change because I love you with everything I have.

I was scared to love you at first, out of fear that you would hurt me, but I did and it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. Now, the only fear I have is waking up and realizing it’s all a dream. You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. Each moment that you and I spend together is so magical that I catch myself smiling for no reason at all.

I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as ours, but now that we've found each other I know that you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to marry, the person I want to have babies with, and the person I want to grow old with. So HWANG CHAM HEE, Will you make me the happiest man alive?" He said. The whole crowd screams with what Onew said. I was so touched.

I hug him and said "Yah! Lee JinKi, you complete me. You make my life so amazing and I don't know how else to repay you but to love you just as much as you love me. The world is a better place to be because of you. You make me feel beautiful.

Thank you for giving me so much more than I ever could have wanted. I am so thankful for what we have, and for everything we will have. You are the only man I ever want to share my life with. I could never imagine what it would be like if we were to lose each other. I don't even want to think about it. All I want to think of is you. You are the love of my life. I love you, and I always will until the day I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and yours will be the last face that I see.

When we’re older with a family and home of our own, we’ll look back at the ways we argued about things that were so insignificant and we’ll laugh and know that our love was strong enough to overcome every argument. I just want you to know that I'm thankful that you came into my life and I will love you till the end of my days. My love for you will never fade, I’m still crazy about you, so my answer is YES! Lee JinKi I will marry you." Then we hug each other. "KISS!!! KISS!!! KISS!!" The crowd teases us. He put the ring on my finger then we kiss like the crowd had requested. Some of them are clapping and some are crying like me. I was so happy and thankful to their fans because they support our relationship. And now I still can't believe that this is happening to me. Every girl was dreaming of this kind of proposal. And I'm so lucky that it happened to me with the man I love and will love for the rest of my life.

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