Dear Donghae,

After couple of years of being your fan,I decided to send you a letter... I am not sure if person who got this is actually person I wanted,but nevermind. I live far far away from you,and I know I won't ever get chance to meet you,or just see you live but deep in me,I still belive.. That's one of many things you thaught me. To never lose the faith.. And I know that you actually won't understand much of this letter,but I hope you'll pass it to Siwon oppa to translate it for you. In that case. Kamsahamnida Siwon oppa,saranghaeyo~. ^^ Now.. What I wanted.. Oh~ yes. Haee~ you're the only person who can make me cry.. I am not really type of a person who cries. Kekeke~ that's the biggest difference between us,ne? Obviously you don't know it. Silly me. You know.. I would dieee happy if I get reply to this letter,but I know it won't happen. Aahh~ nevermind. I'll survive. I think I should actually start writing my point,ne?

Bond that is bringing me to you,is my mother's death. I was broken when that happened. Even now,more than 2 years after I still feel the pain. I guess you're now wondering why is my mother's death my biggest bond to you? Just at that time(when she passed out) I started being your huuuge fan. I mean Super Junior's huge fan. An ELF,in a very short time. And I was googling about you guys. And then,I found out that your dad passed out from the same illness as my mom. I saw videos of you talking about your father,proud of what he was,and what he still is for you.. And I saw you crying while talking about him. It broke me down in million peaces. Because the way you talked about your father,to me looked like I see myself talking about my mom. And then,I saw what kind of angel are you,and I became ELFish, and I am actually verry selfish when it comes to you. Kekeke~.

Maybe you have no interest to know this,but I hope you have since you're my idol. Keke~. Anyways. My mom died 10 days before my 14th birthday. On 8th of May,2010 . Since that day, I had 3 birthdays,and you know what? Every single time I felt like dying. I missed her so much. It hurts..

Ever since she died, I have no luck. Everything I touch,it brokes. School,family,friends,love.. Especially love. I mean,there isn't any love. There were 2 guys I liked. Nothing ever happened. I liked them,but I am just too afraid to show my feelings. Inside, I am so warm harted person,I am so emotional, like you.. But outside I look like some cold,emotionless monster. And who can love that kind of person? No one. Enough about me.. It's not that interesting life story,though..

What about you? Huh. Tell me, ( *praying*) EunHae isn't real,right? I hope you have some nice and beautiful girl, not that crazy gummy smiling,iac HyukJae? It's not that I don't like Hyukkie, a mai Gad. No. I love him. It's just... I want you to have your own kids. You know what I mean,right? Keke~. Okay. I know you're healthy,I can see it. I just pray you're happy too. Kekekeke~ okay now,I bored you enough. Say Hiii~ to all Super Junior oppas,for me.

Annyeong~ oppa. Saranghamnida.

Your fan. Park MinJung(not my real name,though. But yea',my Korean name)